"something that I'm not"

I poured chemicals to fire to make it worse

I have filled my pills with something that rot

Just to crack the shell open of the love you put first

Just to forget, and it's something that I'm not.

I never minded the risk but we always did it together.

We grasp for stars, pale white dot

To every chance I tried to bother

Just to forget, and it's something that I'm not.

Don't look at me like that, like you're about to love me more

I just know I would tie myself in place, with a knot

And you know how willing I am to endure more sore

But I can't resent, and it's something that I'm not