I Don't Want to Love You
Jack's POV
I don't know why I kissed her, but I did.
Jack, you are out of your mind..
She didn't move. And when I slowly pulled away, she was still in shock. She was looking at me straight in the eyes making my heart beat faster.
I'm really nervous right now..
"Why... Did you k-kiss me?" she asked.
"I-I.." I was stuttering. I don't know what to tell her! I just can't tell her I don't know. She would freak out or something.
"You what? You just did that to shut me up or something. Gosh, Jack. You're unbelievable." Elsa said as she started the car and drove.
I didn't ask her where we were going though I was really confused by it. Heck, I'm can't even open mouth to say something.
Then, I saw the building in front of us. It gave me chills about the thought of going in there.
We looked for a parking spot and got one near the entrance. We got inside the building and I looked around.
"Let's go. He's in the third floor." Elsa said still not looking at me. I looked down.
She's mad at me.
And I don't want her to be.
We went to wait for the elevator and saw that no one was in there. Elsa got in before I do. Elsa pressed the buttons and I just looked at her.
"Elsa, I'm.... I'm sorry." I whispered. She stayed silent. I was about to come close to her but she moved away.
"Elsa, please. I-." I was cut off when the door opened and a few people came in. A girl stood between me and Elsa making me sigh.
We finally reached the third floor. I just followed Elsa until we saw Flynn's parents outside a room. We approached them and they smiled a little when they us.
"So, how is he?" I asked.
"He's a bit better, but still in a bad state." his dad told us. I frowned a bit.
"What's gonna happen now?" Elsa asked.
"We're bringing him to Japan. We have some relatives there who could help us and the doctors approved. We're hoping that he'll recover sooner there." His mom said.
"Is that so? When is he gonna move there?" I asked.
"Well, three days from now. We wanted to go as soon as possible. Everything is uncertain." his dad said.
"Can we see him?" I asked.
"No. But you could look at him through the window, though." they told us.
"Let's go, Elsa." I said and held her hand. Gladly, she held on to it and didn't let go.
I actually thought she would let go of it or slap it.
We went to where Flynn's room was. It turned out that it wasn't the room they were in front of.
We went close to the window and saw Flynn. There were a lot of machines close to him. I guess it was a really bad accident.
Elsa's grip on my hand tightened. I could also see her eyes water. She covered her mouth with her other hand to cover her sobs, but she didn't succeed.
I pull Elsa closer to me and hugged her. Her head is now against my chest and she is crumpling my shirt, but I don't care.
I also don't care about the fight we had earlier. I don't care about the awkward atmosphere anymore. What I care now is her needs and Flynn's condition.
"He was a great friend. He didn't deserve any of this." Elsa cried.
Then, it hit me.
An idea quickly popped up in my mind.
What if I had an accident and I was critical? Will Elsa also cry like this? If she will, I don't want to get involved in an accident.
Because I don't want her to cry.
Imagining her beautiful face full of tears, her eyes red and puffy, it just hurts me. I mean, I won't deserve her cries if it did happen.
"I know, Elsa. I know. We just have to hope he gets better." I mumbled.
She pulled away and put her hand against the glass of thr window.
"Bye, Flynn. Get well soon, okay?" she said while looking at Flynn. She then looked at me. I smiled at her reassuringly and she looked at the ground.
"Let's go?" I asked and she nodded a bit.
I put an arm around her and we walked to the elevator. The elevator doors closed and it was quiet inside it.
"Umm, Elsa?" I called out.
"Hmm?" she hummed quietly.
"I just wanna ask if you want to hang out at my place? You know, to...umm chill?" I asked.
I mentally facepalmed.
Seriously, Jack!? Chill!?
"Uhh, sure. I need a bit of friendly presence." she said.
Freindly presence.
Right, she thinks you're just a friend. Not a boyfriend. I just want her to think this is all real. The relationship, my efforts, everything!
Because she doesn't deserve any of this.
She doesn't deserve to get hurt. She deserves to be loved. She doesn't deserve any fake relationship. She deserves a real one.
She doesn't deserve me. She deserves a better person.
And because of that, I will become a better person. For Elsa.
The elevator opened and we went out.
***
"What are we gonna do now?" Elsa asked.
"Hmm, actually I have no idea. What do you want to do?" I asked.
"I just want to sit and relax." she said.
"Well, we could do that you know. I also feel tired." I said sat down on the couch. I pat the space next to me and she sat down beside me.
"I'm also tired. Tired of everything." she mumbled the last part. I just pretended I didn't hear it.
"Do.... You want to talk?" I asked.
"And what will the topic be?" she asked.
"Well, about us." I said.
I'm really getting sweaty now. I'm nervous like sh#t.
"What about us?" she asked. Ouch.
"Well, we're together and we need plans." I said.
"Together. Yeah, fake one." she said and I sighed.
"Look, Elsa. I'm trying my best to make this real. Can you just please cooperate?" I asked.
I was tired of all of this. I didn't want her to feel betrayed or anything.
"Cooperate? So you want to make this real? How can we make this real if you don't even love me? How can we make this real if you still love Rapunzel?" she asked. I could see her eyes water.
She's gonna cry. Is that how hurt she is?
This is your fault, Jack..
"I can learn how to love you more." I said.
As those words came out, I regreted saying that. Tears now fell from her eyes and they weren't tears for the good.
"You don't teach the heart how to love. Love needs no reason for it to be true." she stood up as she said those and grabbed her bag.
"It's really great to chat with you. Wow, I had fun." she said sarcastically and went out the door.
How could you be this stupid, Jack!?
"Elsa. Elsa, wait." I tried to stop her but she ran out. I followed her and saw that she was now inside her car.
Elsa's POV
Tears were blurrying my sight as I ran out if Jack's house. I could hear him call my name but I ignored him.
I don't want to love Jack anynore.
I start my car and drive. It was a bit hard for me to drive since my heart was aching, tears blurrying my sight and Jack was in my mind.
How dare he? How dare he say that he could learn how to love me?
Yes, I have to admit. I want him to love me. But the real one. I want him to live me naturally and with his heart. I don't want him to love me because he is forced to or something.
I loojed up to the mirror and saw that a car is following me. I recognized the car.
That car is Jack's.
He is following me. I have no more time for him. My phone was ringing and I saw Jack's name on the screen. I decided to answer the call.
I put it on my shoulder and put my head closer to it.
("Elsa, please hear me out.")
"I don't have time for this, Jack. Leave me be."
("Elsa, I need to talk to you, please. Please let me.")
"No, Jack."
("Please give me a chance. I just want you to be happy.")
"If you want me to be happy, leave me alone. For now." I whispered.
I live Jack's presence. But for now, I feel like I hate him and I don't want to see him.
Tears were now completely rolling down on my cheeks and I let out a sob.
("I'm sorry, Elsa. Elsa, don't cry! Hearing you cry kills me slowly.")
I stayed silent and sobbed.
"You didn't have to say that, you know." I said.
("Elsa, don't cry anymore, okay? Elsa.... Elsa watch out! Sh#t!")
My eyes widened. I coild hear Jack's voice panic on my phone. My phone dropped on the floor.
The last thing I heard was a loud beep before I blacked out.
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Author's NOTE
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