Amantium irae amoris integratio est ~ The quarrels of lovers are the renewal of love

Sawyer

"It's Friday! Fucking finally!" Quinn exclaims as we walk down the front steps. A buzz of chatter hums around us as everyone discusses their weekend plans.

"Yeah but didn't you hear, Emily's party this Saturday got cancelled coz her parents came home early from Bora Bora."

"God that's so peak..." Quinn sighs. "What we gonna do then?"

"Hey guys!" Darcey spots us from the school gates and rushes over. "Sleepover at my house this weekend?! The home theatre is finally installed and I thought we could test it out."

"Sure that sounds sick."

"Awesome! You guys at come over at around 8 and we can-"

Darcey's cut off by the loud sound of a car engine as a giant Range Rover drives into the compound and pulls up next to us. The drivers rolls down the window, it's River with a bored expression on his perfect face.

"Come on, mum said I gotta drive you home."

"You guys wanna ride?" Darcey asks politely.

"Sure thanks" Quinn agrees before climbing into the back seat.

I bite my nails nervously, chipping the polish, as I try to think of a good excuse. But before I could-

"Hey babe, want me to walk you home?"

-Floyd saves the day.

"Sure." I squeal internally. "I'll see you at 8 guys." I wave goodbye and turn to leave with Floyd. Not before I see River shooting daggers in our direction.

What a prick.
***

Every time I go to Darcey's house I forget how huge it is. The door was open so I left myself in and make my way to the cinema room. The fact that she has a cinema room is still so crazy to me.

Darcey and her family live in the outskirts of London where the houses are bigger and the people are richer. It takes an hour on the overground and a bus just to get here.

I wander down endless corridors and hallways before I find everyone.

"There you are finally!" Darcey exclaims when she sees me.

It looks like they were in the middle of picking a movie to watch before I came in. Darcey already came fully prepared with an assortment of sweets, snacks and alcohol. As well as a little popcorn machine in the corridor of the room.

The walls were adorned with classic movie posters such as Pulp Fiction, Psycho, Kill Bill, Grand Budapest Hotel and Rear Window.

Darcey's parents really like their films.

"Perfect! You can pick which movie we watch." Quinn decides. "Clueless or Dazed and Confused?"

It's clear that Emma and Quinn have been arguing about which movie to watch. And if I know my friends, which I do, Quinn is clearly on team Dazed and Confused and Emma on team Clueless.

"It's gotta be Clueless 100%"

Quinn sighs dramatically and falls to the ground as we start the movie.

"I think you should tell them." I whisper hurriedly to Emma when we're half way through the film.

"What?! No way!"

"Come on they're your best friends! They deserve to know."

"What because you had such a great reaction when you found out..."

"Okay I admit! Not my finest hour. I'm sorry for that, but I'm fine with it now. I doesn't change who you are so why should it change us."

"Why did you flip out about it anyways? Quinn's bi and you don't care."

"It's not because you're gay, it's because it felt like there was this whole side of you I didn't know about, that you didn't tell me about. I always knew Quinn was bi, she told me when we first met. I just felt like there was this big secret you were hiding from me. And I know saying it out loud I can hear how stupid I sounds."

"It's not stupid... Honestly I didn't know what I was. I never felt straight but I didn't really believe I was gay either. Until I met robin, nothing made sense and now it does."

"Maybe it's just the idea of soulmates that freak me out. How can you just be so sure?"

"You just know." Emma says with a soft smile.

"Hey, what are you guys taking about? We're trying to watch a movie here!"

"Guys... I met my soulmate!"

"Omg what?! When? Who is he?!" Darcey asks rapidly before pausing the tv.

"Actually I met HER at the Bath Cup"

"What?!"

"Nice another member of the pussy patrol!" Quinn says excitably before giving Em a high five.

"Wow the first soul couple of the group" Darcey states in awe. "I wonder which one of us will be next..."

***

We eventually finish the movie before deciding the call it a night. We all sprawled out in our sleeping bags in Darcey's room.

But for whatever reason I couldn't get to sleep so I decide to head downstairs for a midnight snack.
I slowly tip toe out of the room and down to the kitchen without getting lost; which I'm very proud of.

To my surprise, when I turn on the lights I'm greeted with a tipsy River eating a bowl of Cheerios. I nearly jump out of my skin and for a spilt second I think it's a burglar.

"Fuck sakes River! You scared the life out of me."

"What are you doing here?" He asks dismissively.

"Sleepover. What about you? Why are you down here so late?"

"Party." He says bluntly.

I don't respond.

"I got with some girl at the party, she was really hot. Does that make you jealous?" He smirks, before his face drops into a scoff. "No, why would it? I forgot you're already fooling around with that idiot Frank or whatever his name is."

"It's Floyd..."

"Whatever."

"You know what?! No! You don't get to be the moody angsty one that's upset with me all the time because I moved one! I'm the one that poured my heart out to you at that airport and you're the one that left! No explanation! No reply! You just left!
And yes I was sad about it, of course I was sad about it! But I didn't let myself be sad about it forever, I moved on. Yes he's not my soulmate, and yes we probably won't last that long. But you know what, who gives a fuck! I already tried the whole love thing. It didn't work out... So I moved on."

The room fell still, reminding the two that it was still dark out and the rest of the world is asleep. We didn't say anything for a while, allowing ourselves to sit in this silence; to bask in it. Until it was too much to bear.

"What did you expect me to say" River whispers softly into the night. "I was leaving for Africa"

"Only for the summer..."

"You have a soulmate out there, I don't."

"Since when did you care about soul-"

"Since I knew that if we dated I'd always be waiting for the day you told me you met him! Your other perfect half that's suppose to complete you. Something I knew I'd never get to experience myself, not completely."

"River-"

"The truth is I love you." River sighs. "I always did and I always will. But I can't be with you, always waiting for the day I'd get hurt."

The room lapses back into the silence. I slowly walk across the room closer to him, until I can feel his breathe on my face. I watch as our hands slowly intertwine before get lost in his beautiful ocean eyes.

"So, what I'm hearing is, I love you and you love me"

I wrap my hands around his neck before slowly placing my lips on his. His soft pink lips move perfectly with mine as if they're made for each other. He places his hands on my waist and pulls me closer to him.

Our lips part as we try desperately to catch our breath.

"Sawyer" He breathes out, his head resting on mine.

"Atticus..." I reply.

"Who the fuck is Atticus?!"

***

Ahhh another drama filled chapter! I love it!!

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