The happy feeling she has till that moment disappeared at once in her and her whole heart was filled with a sort of anxiousness and guilty feeling. Without thinking much how she has given such a suggestion to Sirisha? She almost programmed her to demand her mom for it and Sirisha was so much against having a sibling. Considering what her mom has said, Sirisha's mom would be affected a lot if she has to get her pregnancy aborted. Chandana did not know when she fell in sleep but it was quite fitful and with full of nightmares.

***

When they both were alone in their bedroom, Sanjana said to Rakesh what Sirisha asked her.

"My god! She asked like that to you?" Rakesh's face was with full of shock when he heard what their daughter demanded her mom to do.

"Exactly that's what she asked and that's what she wants. She has become too much selfish and I don't think she ever agrees to this pregnancy." Sanjana did not want to say the entire conversation they both had to Rakesh.

"I....I just don't know what to say." With an anxious expression in his face Rakesh said. "I really did not expect this much of stubbornness in our daughter."

"But I am thinking one thing Rakesh." Suddenly with a pathetic expression in her face Sanjana said. "It is very much painful to think like that but I cannot see any other way except that. How it is that I do what our daughter wants me to do?"

"No please don't say like that. Don't even entertain such an idea in you." Rakesh's face was with full of anxiousness.

"It is very much painful to me also but you try to understand. Our daughter is at a very crucial period of her life, she is studying tenth class. She is disturbing herself with the quite unnecessary thought of her incoming sibling and I am afraid she spoils her studies also with that thinking. If she cannot get good marks or fails in her studies, you and I would not bother much but she herself will be very much disturbed. So to put her mind at ease and to make her go with her studies in the usual way, I am thinking that it is inevitable." There was a sort of firmness in Sanjana.

"But how much we want it! How much we like it! I just cannot even think like that." The anxiousness in Rakesh's face was intensified even more.

"We did not expect this, did we?" Sanjana knitted her brows together. "It has happened quite automatically. If it has not happened now, we would not have thought about it at all. We just think I never got this pregnancy."

"It is equal to murder in my opinion. We have no right to take away the life of it even though we caused it."

"Are you thinking that I have not thought so? Do you know how much I am suffering with that thought?" then she suddenly hugged her husband and broke out into weeping. "But we have not been left with any other option. If we want the well being of our daughter, it is must."

"Alright dear! Alright!" patting on her right shoulder with his right hand cajolingly Rakesh said. "We do so. We fulfil the demand of her daughter, kill her sibling even before she takes birth and put her heart at ease. But before we do that, let me have a little conversation with her. I also try to change her heart and if I also fail, yes, you are right, there is no other option to us except that. We love and like our daughter so much and we just want her well being all the time."

"You need to do that as fast as possible Rakesh. If I want to have an abortion, I should have it as soon as possible. Abortion at an advanced age is a difficult thing and that devil knows about it also."

***

Unit test examinations were over and with those disturbing thoughts, Sirisha could not prepare well for any of her subjects and her performance was worst in all her unit test examinations. With the passing of time Sirisha was becoming more and more frustrated and angry. Even she could not write the examinations better, she was feeling more about her mom's pregnancy than for her dismal performance in the examinations. That was Sunday and Sirisha was all alone in her room without doing anything. She just has no mood to do anything at that time with the same disturbing thinking all the time. It was appearing as if her mom was not at all considering what she has proposed. Even she became angry like that instantly, Sirisha expected that her mom would consider what she has suggested but it seemed she was decided to have the child. If she really wanted, she could make her dad agree to it and she knew her mom's hold on her dad. But she herself wanted to keep that blasted thing which was making Sirisha to feel intense hate on her mom. She just wanted to do something, something that would make her mom utterly bad.

She only half prepared for the unit text examinations because of that disturbed thinking and could not write them to her expectations. If she did not prepare in the best way she would write the final examinations also in that half way and surely would not get good marks and she was feeling fear if her mom's pregnancy continued and there would be a sibling also to her, she never could study better and her dream to become a doctor never would be fulfilled even her dad could afford the expenditure for her medical studies. It was all because of her mom, even having pregnancy was not her mistake at all but not trying to understand the situation and not agreeing for the abortion was her mistake! That thinking made her decision to do something to cause some unpleasantness to her mom became more and more strong.

But presently she has to get rid of the disturbing feeling and spend sometime happily. First she thought to go to Chandana but she remembered her saying that she has a movie program with Sarath and she did not want to disturb them both now. Except Chandana there were no close friends to her to go and spend time with! She has to do something which would divert her mind from the disturbing thinking. Watching videos or T.V. or reading books could not give that to her. Only something variety, something special could do that.

Then she suddenly remembered Manoj who always was trying to make friendship with her. Manoj was indeed a handsome guy and Sirisha has to put an effort not to be attracted towards him. But however much she was trying, she just could not refrain herself from feeling thrill while talking with him and thinking about him. 'How it is if I go and talk with him?' she thought in herself and that idea itself was very much pleasant to her. As it was Sunday the possibility of his staying at home would be more. It would be little awkward to tell his parents that she came to their home to talk with Manoj but she has to. For the present, it was appearing only talking with Manoj and spending time with him would give her some mind diversion and enjoyment.

"He is in his study room and you know where is his study room in our house." When Sirisha entered into his house and said to his mom Malathi that she wanted to talk with Manoj regarding her doubts in some of her subjects, she said. "You just go straight into it."

"Would not he feel that he is disturbed?" with little uneasy feeling in her face Sirisha asked.

"He never feels like that with his friends. Moreover he always studies his books and spending sometime with you would not do him much harm."

"Alright then" Sirisha nodded her head but she felt quite uneasily while entering into the room of Manoj then.

***

Manoj was seriously indulged in his studying, he did not know even Sirisha's entering into their house and when she entered into his room it was indeed a pleasant surprise to him. For few seconds he even forgot to greet her and remained staring at her. She was just like an angel in beautiful white shirt and skirt, with neatly combed two plaits and with a charming smile on her lips. Very seldom she was with such an amicable expression and charming smile on her lips at him.

"Sorry, I know that I am disturbing you. But............." she wanted to say something more but did not know what to say.

"Not at all like that." He hastily said with the fear that she might go back. "Its a pleasure to me to talk with my friends and please be comfortable..........." he suddenly stopped as he understood that there was only one chair at his table to sit in that room and nothing else to her to sit. "Just a moment" he immediately went outside and it just took seconds to him to take another chair into that room and lay it for her before he dragged his chair opposite to her to make the talking with her convenient to him.

"I really put you into some trouble!" the charming smile on her lips was just so then too.

"Its never like that. Do you feel so to do little things like this if I come to your home?" the smile on his lips then was just natural. "Now tell me, what's your mission for coming like this to me now?"

"To be frank........." she suddenly started feeling uneasily as she did not know what to talk then. "........I felt complete bore in my home so I came here particularly for some time-pass."

"I just cannot believe this at all!" then he did not at all try to refrain the happy feeling in him to be expressed in his face. "You have chosen me to spend time with to get rid of your boredom? It is the very first time I must say you did like this in these four years or so of our acquaintance."

Then for the very first time in his life he understood laughing also would be that much mesmerizing hearing her laughter. "I did not come all these days only with the thinking it may be some disturbance to you. I know you are also as much serious as I am to become a doctor."

(..........to be continued)

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