As the week went on I struggled to get around, I had indeed broken a bone on my foot which meant no running for me for a while which sucked but at least I wasn't grounded or getting moved, yet. Mari is taking me to meet potential foster parents this afternoon and if I'm honest I'm scared, nothing ever goes my way so I wasn't expecting this to go my way either. Mike kept yelling at me and belittling me by telling me I was stupid and I would end up being moved because I'm found by my brother but he doesn't know that, he can't know that.

"Hey Liliana, a few of us are going to the education room to work on our school work. Do you want to join us while you wait for Mari to arrive?" Poppy, one of the older girls asked me as she stoped by my bedroom, I was one of the lucky ones to have my own room, it may be small but it was home.

"Sure, would you mind carrying my English work down please" I asked and she nodded. Poppy came into my room and grabbed my papers for me and the two of made our way to the stairs. I plopped down onto my bottom and bum shuffled down the stairs finding it a whole lot easier that using the damn uncomfortable crutches to go down. Poppy even helped me with the crutches, she has been a great help and when I moved in here she looked out for me almost instantly.

The two of us made our way into the education room and got to work, the group was mostly the teens as some of the younger kids go to a proper school. I mean they are lucky but I think I prefer home education, you get to do your work in your own time and aren't rushed to do it within a time period.

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Mari came and picked me up just after lunch, I wasn't hungry but Jan made sure I ate something. I was nervous. I mean these were potential foster parents. I could be moving in with them in a matter of days or weeks if this meeting goes well. Of course I was excited about the potential fostering opportunity but my luck never stays the same, I never get to settle down, have a forever family, that's what I really want.

"I think you'll like this couple" I listened to Mari try and reassure me I'd like the couple but it kept going round in my head that this might not work out like we want it to.

"Nobody wants a teen, you know that as much as I do" I reminded my social worker who rolled her eyes pulling into a car parking spot outside a little diner. As I looked out the window I could swear I saw Maya from the fire station. Was I imagining this? Mari helped me out of her car and we headed inside and it indeed was Maya and her Wife Carina.

"Thank you for agreeing to meet on such short notice." Mari smiled to the two women as she shook their hands

"I assume you remember Liliana" Mari said and I gave a small wave with a smile on my face too.

"Ciao Bambina, how's the foot?" Carina asked gently.

"Broken, lucky me right" I said sarcastically with a little smile on my face, Maya and carina both laughed and the four of us sat in a booth. Mari got drinks and it was a little awkward.

"So let's get the formalities out the way. If todays meeting and Fridays meeting goes well I can schedule a home check for Wednesday next week, if that goes well then we can arrange a overnight visit" Mari begins

"Today's visit is clearly supervised with me being here but Fridays will be unsupervised but with me only a phone call away if you need anything. The same goes for the overnight visit" Mari continued and I rolled my eyes. I had heard this so many times before that it's practically impossible to forget which is probably why I was mouthing it along with her making both Carina and Maya try not to laugh.

"If the over night visit goes well then we can talk about signing all the necessary paperwork and you can take Liliana home with you" Mari continued looking over to me. The amount of times I've moved I wasn't surprised that I knew Mari's little speech from memory.

"We hope this works out, Liliana has moved 19 times in the last three months and as you can imagine it takes its toll on her" Mari said, I rolled my eyes, it was like I wasn't even sat beside her.

"Can we finish with the formalities. I'd like to get to know Maya and Carina if they are going to be my potential foster parents" I said folding my arms bored of the business side of things.

"Okay, I'll go and sit over there, I'll still be supervising but you know I like to give you alone time with possible parents" Mari said and I nodded wanting her to leave already.

"What do you want to know about us Bambina?" Carina asked and that made me realise I didn't know what I need to know or want to know I fact.

"Umm, I... I don't know. I just got board of Mari talking about all the formalities. I've heard it all before" I said biting my lip anxiously while i fiddled with my fingers.

"How about we tell you about ourselves and then we can ask you some questions. Does that sound okay with you Lili?" Maya asked using the same nickname she gave me the day we met. I just nodded.

Maya told me all about winning her gold medal in the olympics, that she has a brother but she doesn't see him. She said the obvious fact that she's currently captain of Station 19 but I already knew that from her uniform. She also told me more but it wasn't as important as the rest, not to me anyway.

Carina told me she was Italian which i already knew, the words Ciao, Bambina and Si were the dead giveaways. She told me she was a doctor or specifically she's a OB/GYN which means she helps pregnant women which is so cool. And then it was down to me.

"So I guess you've seen my file and you've read it so I hope you don't mind me skipping all that, I don't really like talking about it. It's not something I like thinking about either and knowing my luck I'll just be moved again in a matter of months, that's always how it is. I just want to have a family who won't give up on me. Who will love me endlessly even with all the shit"

"Language Liliana!" Mari cut me off mid sentence

"Sorry, all the crap I come with, I'm sorry if this isn't you and you've just wasted your time coming to meet me officially but if it's you I promise I'd try to be the best, I'd try to do anything I can to be a good foster child" I rambled anxiously.

"Bambina, we don't care about all that. When we first saw you, we both knew you were perfect for our family." Carina said softly with a smile.

"We both understand that it'll take time for you to trust us but we are willing to make it work.." Maya added on, it was time for my important question which was for them but also Mari.

"If you two foster me can I stay in home education. I find it a lot easier to do my school work in my own time so I'm not forced to fit it all into a hours lesson. I mean that's how I'd like it for the time being. I promise I won't cause any trouble and I understand if you don't want me to do home education if you guys foster me but I just wanted to ask because I find home education is better for me, rather than an actual school, I just really remember struggling when I was in school" I continued to ramble. To me this was an important question.

"If it's okay with Maya and Carina then it'll be fine with me. We can arrange all the supplies to be moved to your new address, if this works out." Mari answered and I looked to the couple at the table. The two of them looked at each other and nodded.

"Si that would be fine with us, even when you think you're ready to we will discuss getting you into a school. All at your pace as long as you're okay with coming with one of us to work if we are working" Carina reassured me. A small smile formed on my face, I was relieved I could still do home education.

"That would be fine. I promise I wouldn't get in the way" I reassured the to older woman.

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Soon the visit was over and Mari took me back to the group home, Friday was our unsupervised visit and I was so excited, if this goes well I will have a new set of foster parents however I was worried that my brother will find me or my parents. What if they want to get me back when my brother goes off to college, if he goes to college that is. All these thoughts began racing round my head as I headed to my room. I needed five minutes to myself to stop myself from getting too overwhelmed with my thoughts.

Friday had to go well for the home visit to go ahead and the home check had to go well for the overnight stay and then all being well I could be out of here within the next two weeks. Of course I was excited but I still had my doubts, fears of the 'what ifs.'

I couldn't let myself fall down the road of 'what ifs' and the possibilities, I had to stop because if I didn't then I would end up ruining my chances of finding my forever family especially when that could be Maya and Carina.