After our evening out, the tabloids and the glossies finally have their much-wanted first pictures of Jonny and me together. Looking at myself on the front page of most of the national papers and being on the cover of all the magazines I used to read, is a strange feeling; one I doubt I will ever get used to.

All in all, I think I looked good. Okay . . . I looked more than good . . . I looked bloody fabulous!

The combination of me in my black wiggle dress and Jonny proudly beside me, really did make me newsworthy.

The mood of the press has begun to shift, too. The press tide is turning, so to speak. They are increasingly becoming more curious about us. Less interested in how we got together, but more interested in why we got together.

Jay is absolutely delighted that our first night out was a PR coup. He has been excitedly calling Jonny to say different magazines want to interview him and the chat shows that dropped him now want to pencil in another date. I'm amazed by how quickly things can change within a few weeks. Jonny wasn't kidding when he said show business can be predictably fickle. One minute you are a media leper, the next, they are tripping over themselves to have you talk to them. Jonny has seen it happen time and time again, but it all leaves a very bad taste in my mouth. None of it sits very well with me; I am suspicious and reluctant to let them know anything about us. I have seen first hand, how quickly they can turn. I always knew the media would look upon us in a less than favourable light, but to then see them do a complete turnaround makes me feel incredibly wary towards them, very wary indeed.

Fame is just so fake and orchestrated. It really is an eye opener to see what goes on behind fame's closed and secret doors. Jonny talks little about him being Jonny Riley, the shit hot famous actor. When he does, I am told the celebrity game is full of people who are only interested in their status or how they look. If the desire isn't fuelled by that, then it is often driven by money or an overinflated ego. The more famous you are . . . the crazier the life will be.

Jonny has refused to be emotionally pulled under by the fame riptide, even though his life is anything but normal.

I honestly had no idea how many calls he has to take or make. How many press calls and interviews he has to do and the amount of people who constantly pass through his life. His days, and sometimes nights, are dictated by Jay, directors, producers, charity benefactors and his adoring fans, to some degree.

He has women literally throwing themselves at him, at every opportunity. Hoping that they will become the next Mrs. Riley, yet all he can do is politely smile; being gracious without being offensive. Even when he's having a really bad day, he can't just tell a fan to "piss off." Being the golden boy of British TV, Jonny has to act at all times with tact and decorum. Luckily for his fans, he is genuinely a nice guy anyway. So having to be nice all of the time is something that comes very naturally to him. Everywhere he goes, he is noticed. There is no just popping out to do something, it will more than likely turn into a crazy circus if he does. Every single thing he does or everywhere he goes, has to be carefully thought through first. Yet he handles his fame so effortlessly and his public persona is a professional yet earthy one. I think that's why he is so adored, because although he's an A-lister, he is warm-hearted, fun and easy-going. He has time for his public. He tries to give as much of himself as he can to them. He even has thousands of die-hard fans who call themselves The Rilette's.

It's utter madness but Jonny handles it all with strength, charm and wit.

Being with him now, allows me to see just how he lives his celebrity life. As hectic as it is, he always finds the time for me, which only makes me love him even more. He risked everything for us. At some point, he must have considered what being with me would truly mean for him . . . yet he still chose me. He chose our love over his fame. Maybe the choice was easy, because of the loneliness that often plagued him. I never could get my head around it before, but now I totally get it. It must be incredibly hard for him to know who to trust, Helena said the very same thing. I guess experience and past mistakes have taught him well. He always has to have his wits about him. Fans will literally do anything to get close to him; befriend anyone within his circle in order to be in with a chance of meeting their idol. Their deception knows no bounds. I suppose that is why so many celebrities only go out with other celebrities; they understand what it's all about. But what about the celebs like Jonny, who haven't allowed their celebrity status to define who they are? Jonny tries hard to remain grounded and tightly holds on to as much normality as he possibly can, within his celebrity-ladened life.

He often tells me the reason he was single for so long was because he was in some kind of relationship limbo. Yes, the celebrity women are stunning and understanding of his life, but often so high maintenance and too caught up in the whole fame thing to ever engage in any meaningful kind of relationship. Then there are the non-celebrity women who only idolised his famous persona. They were only ever interested in his fame and money more than him as a person, making him distrustful of women from both ends of the spectrum.

He doesn't talk about his past relationships and as much as I'd like to ask about Georgina, as her poignant words still do play on my mind at times, I don't. Part of me still does want to know who she is, while another part of me thinks she is completely irrelevant. The past is the past. All Jonny will say, is this; I am the first woman who has made him feel like a man, not a famous man but a real man. He tells me I didn't allow his fame to stop me from ever loving him.