OK OK!! I get it some of you are thinking that I'm not gonna be continuing this story but I'm just working on the Crossmare story that I promised you guys!

So as a sorry I'm gonna give you guys something else. If you looked at the picture above then you can probably guess that this is gonna be... Depressing.

This is a quote, I think or a poem, of my life.

Sometimes...
I wish....
I just wish...
That I could be happy...
Happy with my work...
Happy with who i am...
But...
It's difficult...

When you have to force a smile everyday...
When you try to show signs of help...
But nobody ever comes...

Sometimes...
I just have a little hope...
For even the smallest things to happen...
To be saved...
To be... Free...
But it never happens...

I'm so scared....
Scared of showing my true self...
Scared of... Opening up...
Opening up to my family....
Telling them that I'm.... Gay...
My family hates gays...
They say that its a sin...
That its so...disgusting...
I don't want to open up...
But I know that one day I'll have to say it...
I'll have to tell them...
Tell them my problems...
My issues...
My suicidal thoughts...

When I was in second grade I was bullied...
For my looks...
My likes and dislikes...
My family...
I was teased...
Called names...
I was called names by my own sister...
She always hit me, slapped me, and beat me...
If I told my parents...
They would never believe me...
Because she is the favorite!
She is the one that they always ask
"Hey where do you want to eat, or, where do you want to go"
They never, ever, ask me and my brother!

When I was in 6th grade...
Things just....
Got more bad...
I forced myself to wear jackets...
Long sleeved shirts...
All to hide the truth...
To hide my...
Ugliness...

My family is known to have a lot of hair...
Hair on their hand, arms, legs, back, face...
It made me feel insecure...
Made me feel...
Unwanted...
Like everyone was judging me...

I always tried to hide it...
By that I mean...
Forcing a smile each day...
Making others laugh...
When deep down...

I felt empty...

But that all changed when I met..her...
She was like a real mom to me...
Always somehow managed to make me laugh...
She always had a smile on her face...
Even though....
She was suffering too...
Her mom was put in prison...
Her father... I don't even know...
She's forced to live with aunt, with her brothers..
she even tried to kill herself multiple times...

She said that when she met me...
Everything was... A little more better...
That's just an example of how cruel the work can be...

Out their...
People are dying, from starvation to thirst to diseases, murder to suicide, and so many more...
No one really ever thinks of what they can't reach...
What they can't hear...

They never worry about anything...

My Family might of changed now but...

The scars will remain...

Remain all over my body

-Quote from LifeIsWeird