(A chapter where I questioned my sexuality)

I don't think I actually KNOW what love, romantically, is.

I've been pretty comfortable with my sexuality for years now, being comfortable that I was Panromantic and asexual. But I don't think I experience "love" in a way that's "normal". And for all I could know the whole "love" thing everyone is talking about could just be something the government made up, that businesses can use to steal our money for gifts for your "partner" on holiday's!

I've HAD crushes, not a lot, apparently the average is five? And people have crushes every MONTH? I've only had crushes that lasted for a couple weeks, maybe a month.

I wouldn't MIND being in a romantic relationship.

I would LIKE to date someone, hold their hand, cuddle, kiss them goodbye, etc.

I have been in live with someone, I think.

But I don't feel "love" often

It's not a recurring thing, that apparently happens, and I've been gatekept from for my whole life about that.