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I have a past but I don't live there anymore

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continuei was a bright morning all were down to have their break fast but avu's eyes were searching only one person.

yes who else her duffer.

she sat with all with her signature black coffe and her hair were tied in a clucher she was smiling

and taking with all when someone came and opened her hair by taking the clucher from her hair.

avu - yaar ri-

then she actually came to reality and realized that what she is thinking is impossible

the coffe mug in her hand fell down and scattered into peices tear were brimming from her eyes her whole body was now cold as ice,her hand were shivering.

no one except jannat could understand what is the matter.

sid who took her clucher was still confused.she just ran out of the house grabbing her car keys

when ishika asked

ishika - arey beta where are going?you okay?

avu - i will be back late don't wait for me for dinner.

she stated coldly.she ran out and inside the mansion there stood a confused yet guilty siddarth

sid - what happened to her? did i do something wrong?

he asked tensed

jaan - don't worry she will be okay.just the past striked her.

arjun - beta i never asked before but what is it which is disturbing her??

jaan - how i wish i could tell you but unfortuntely that a secret between us she will tell one day.

all nodded

all went now only jaan and sid were left.

sid was about to go when jaan said

jaan - and according to how much i know your baby girl will tell the soonest about her past.

sid smiled.

jaan - you have a quite good choice.

sid - what are talking about?

she asked being innocent

jaan - don't play dumb okay you know what i am talking about. siddarth she is a mystery which only you can solve.but i can give you a hint she is " a devil like you"

saying this jaan went and stood there confused.

sid - what did she meant?a devil like me??ugh!!!forget it!!

avu's side

she again went to the grave and sat there 

avu - why is he so like you???if he will be like you i will love him too just like i did to you then god will snatch him also from me!!

soon she she broke into tears.

avu - why does it always happens to me??what have i ever done wrong???i also want to be like other girls but i can't and about you why aren't you coming to me???i miss you so damn much!!!!!

she kept crying till she ran out of tears.

now it was nearly 12:00 when she reached home she went to her room and changed into comfy clothes.after that she went to the swimming pool she sat dipping her leg in water and looking at the stars.

she sat like that for some time when someone said

sm1 - its beautiful right?

she looked besides her and saw siddarth sitting with her that's when she realised he was here.

sid - why are you crying ?

then she realised that she was tearing up.

avu - nothing just.

he hummed

she kept her head on his shoulder

avu - if you don't mind.

he nodded giving her permission.

sid - i am sorry for morning.

avu - its okay it wasn't your fault.

they had a comfortable silence.

avu - i know you wanna know my past so stop acting like you don't

he chuckled 

sid - you know too well and yaa i do but you don't have to if you aren't comfortable.

avu - when did i said i was uncomfortable beside i trust you.

he smiled know that she trust him.

avu - do you know anything about my parents?

sid - no!

avu - i am the only daughter of shivani malhotra and a..rh..an shanghania

she suttered in disgust when she mentioned her dad.but sid chose to ignore it

sid - so that's-

she cut him off

avu - yes that's where my surname came from Malhotra.

he nodded

avu - mom and mr.shanghania had a love marriage.they were in good terms first then mom used to get abused by dad when he was drunk but then she got blessed with bhai and mom used to tell me he was happy beyond limits cause it was a boy they were happy then she got pregnent with me mom knew he wouldn't apreciate her being pregnent with a girl child.

sid's eye widened.

avu - but mom loved me she changed the report and then the report was as it was a boy in gender

sid - still people like this are alive?!?

he said in disgust

avu - well my da- i mean mr.shanghania proved that they are.

sid looked at her she just smiled.

avu - don't you wanna listen more??

he nodded like a kid she chuckled.

avu - then i was born he killed mom for lying to him and bringing a girl to his house.he was about to kill me too when he realised mom's whole property is on my name.he used to abuse me everyday then bhai grew up more mature to understand this so he sent bhai to you guys.

sid - yes he used to study with me.

avu - then one day when i was merely 9 years old i was excelent in studies since childhood and i sometimes even used to crack bussiness deal.rememmer i was just a 9 year old girl.

now sid had a proud grin

avu - doctor said that my brain works 10x that any normal person dad was now happy cause i used to crack deals for him and if you think it means he loved me you are dead wrong he used me for company he still used to abuse me.then i turned 17 years old our company was no.1 in the world.

avu - ah..but but but my so called dad was over greedy.he wanted more money so he got a filthy idea.

she paused

sid - what did he do??

he asked in anger.

avu - have you ever heard of power drugs??

sid - uh...no!!

avu - now see that's exactly why i call you duffer!!

sid - arey yaar..avu - acha okay it is a drug which make us phisically and mentally more strong or you say genious.its like an inhaler when we inhale it our brain works more 20x that normal and also remember my brain was already 10x better.

sid - how greedy he is??

avu - but every good drug had a bad side.it did too.

sid - what??what was it??

he asked tensed

avu - i got addicted to it.i couldn't stay without it a day.and then i was a drug addict.

sid - then what happened??

avu - bhai got to know about it.

sid - was that when he was tensed ya i remember!!

avu - hmm..that day i transferred all my mom's property into bhai's name he doesn't know.then bhai sued dad we started new company it soon became popular and bhai was trying his best to stop my addiction to drugs.

she stopped

sid - is that why you hate love??i mean it was your dad who chected on you mom why do you thing love is waste just because of that one incident you don't let anyone love you?

he asked in anger but avu was calm she had no energy to shout.

avu - i beg you to let me complete.

he got to know that she is devastated

sid - sorry!!

it came like a whisper.

avu - then there came the second reason of my hate for love.my phsycatrist and p.a ri-

sid - ri-??

avu - richu!!

(those who thought r this ri- is riyas unka popat!!how was the twist??always expect the unexpected like HP0207says!!)

sid - richu??

avu - i mean richael black

tara sutaria as richael black

you will know about her in story!!

avu - she was the one who helped me get rid of drugs she made me promise that i won't i drink or take drugs.i was really close her.we were very good friends she 21 i was 19 we were like soul sisters jaan was also there but she used to be out of contry everything was going perfect when one day....

she pused but soon continued!!

AVU -  she came to me and said "she was in love" horror stuck my face i was very scared scared for loosing her,scared for the past to repeat .i told her not to but she said not all boys are same.

avu - she said he actually loves her i said her that wanna meet him she happily agreed one day he came to meet me then i saw that face which is now a nightmare to me.his name was nick.

Nick

you will know about him in story

avu - i didn't got a nice vibe seeing him cause his eyes were roaming on my body even when richu was with him but when i looked at richu she was completely in love with him she was grinning like a idiot all i could see i her eyes were happiness and love.i had to agree to this relation seeing my bestie head to toe in love.

both chuckled

avu - days passed but slowly slowly richu started distancing her from me she used to come early and go soon it continued as a cycle but one day I caught her 

avu - what i saw was unbelievable she had bruises all over the body i asked what happened she said he used to abuse her and he only wanted my money and my body cause richu had my acc.no and all he used her and abused her.i was angry as hell i told her to come to my house she said she will after changing saying this she went to her home and i went to mine but i waited for long she didn't but then i got a call that call made my life miserable.

sid - what was it??

avu - police called me and said they found a burned dead body!!i immediately went there i found that it was r..ic..hu that moron r...

a lump formed her throat he carresed her hair

avu - he raped her and then burned her alive

saying this she broke down!!!she was crying really bad.

he was shocked seeing her cry.

he kept consoling her!!once she was calm he asked

sid - why didn't you told this to anyone except jaan?

avu - i was scared to show someone my vulnerable side!!

sid - don't worry i won't leave you no matter what happens!!my promise

she smiled

avu - there is one more thing which you don't know and i can't tell you that now but soon you will find out!!

sid - what's that??

avu - find that yourself!!

she said while leaving!!!

but she stopped on her track and turned to say.

avu - i can give you a hint!!

sid - what's it ?

he shouts to her to hear his voice

avu - I am a devil like you!!!

she shouts back!!

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