mommy came into the room earlier, but she wasn't the same. mommy wasn't happy. and when i told her what mr.clown did. she went too far. she hurt him. i know i was mad. i know i was hurt. but this went too far. because he was still my friend. and mommy. i don't think she did this because of what he said. i think she did it to hurt me. mommy went to the point of saying hurtful things. she said, "i'm angry and glad. you gave him happiness, but then you destroyed it. so thank you for doing that for me. but to make sure we don't bring that happiness back, we'll take you of the "equation"." and after she said that it made me realize something. she likes hurting me. mommy does that for her pleasure.

knowing this, i had to help mr.clown. so i took him from mommy. and instead of mr.clown taking the punishment, i did. but i don't think i reacted the way mommy wanted me too, so she kept going. and it hurt.

i can't tell you anymore diary because right now i'm in pain, the red paint got in my eye, and i'm really tired so i'll tell you later. bye.

a painful goodbye from joey to diary

p.s. i had to rip off more wallpaper. do you think it will help my red marks?