razor blade thoughts

help is what you need?
use me as support.
help is what you seek?
i'll hold your wrist for support.
don't worry, i won't judge.
i'll help you feel at ease.
i'll only hurt for a second.
after that, i'll feel amazing.
i'll leave scars to remind you to continue.
I promise no one will notice.
clean up the blood and wear long sleeves.
i can make you feel less worthless.
every cut and every pain will remind you that you are still alive.
if life is unbearable, use me to end it,
or just use me to relieve stress.
your friends don't have this relationship with me.
blame the cats if they ask, or say you fell.
i'm your best friend
and little secret.
if no one knows, we can continue together.
i'll be right here, waiting for you.
you can use me the way everyone else uses you.
until next time,
cover up the slits and remember,
i'm always here.

— e. gould