"you did so good," jimin mumbled out, between kisses, "she loves you."

the two boys were in the guest room, laying on the bed and kissing each other. they were planning on staying the night there and then heading back home the next morning.

"you think?" joon asked, smiling between the kiss.

"i don't think," jimin said, finally parting away from him, "i know."

the two got a bit more comfortable, jimin cuddling into joon's side, both feeling warm and happy being so close. the tv was on as well, both shifting their attention to it for a second before jimin started talking again.

"so... are you gonna tell me what you talked to my mom about?" jimin asked, desperate to know, "it seemed like it went well."

namjoon just laid there for a moment. he knew he needed to have that talk with jimin about his dad and he figured now was as good of a time as ever. they both felt safe, comforted, and happy, so namjoon figured it couldn't hurt to bring it up now.

"well... first... she asked me if i love you."

jimin let out a small laugh, lifting his head up from joon's chest a bit to look at him.

"oh, yeah? what did you say?"

namjoon used his hand, which was currently wrapped around jimin, to squeeze his waist in a bit closer,

"i told her yes," he said, "i said that i love you more than anything. i said that you're my entire world."

jimin laughed again, leaning up to kiss him.

"you're so cute," jimin said, as he broke away from the kiss, staring at him, "you're my entire world, too."

joon moved his hand to jimin's face, brushing his bangs out of the way.

"what else did she say?" jimin asked, softly, enjoying the feeling of joon being so affectionate.

namjoon paused for a moment, thinking about how to word it.

"well... she told me about... she told me about your dad," joon said, calmly.

jimin froze, his smile immediately fading. he got off of joon, sitting next to him now.

"oh."

joon sat up as well, moving to be a bit closer to him again. he leaned over and grabbed jimin's hand, squeezing it lightly.

"she told me how great he was. and... she told me how much he loved you... and how much you loved him,"

jimin nodded, quickly, biting down on his bottom lip.

"she told me how hard it was for you and how happy she is to see you doing a little better now," joon said, reaching up to wipe the tear that was falling down jimin's cheek, "she's sad that you guys never really talked about it and she wants you... i want you... to talk about it, if you can."

jimin nodded, turning to him.

jimin wiped another tear that fell, trying to think where he could start.

"i lied to you," he said, "i lied that he wasn't the best guy... i told you that when we met," jimin said, "i lied to everyone who asked about him, actually."

jimin wiped off a few more tears, sniffling.

"i thought it would be easier... acting like i didn't care or... that i hated him for what he did," jimin said, "but i don't hate him. not even a little."

there was a pause, jimin doing his best to collect himself.

"when he... killed himself... he did it in his work office," jimin said, tears starting to fall more rapidly at the memory. "he did it there so... so we wouldn't have to find him."

jimin was full-on crying now, namjoon quickly hugging the boy, letting jimin weep into his shoulder.

"he was the one i went to for everything," jimin said, eventually pulling away and wiping his face, "he was the first person i told i was gay, he was the one who i told all my secrets to, who i trusted with everything. he always had my back."

joon just nodded, tearing up as well.

"so... when he was gone... i just... i kind of felt like i lost that... that home. that place i could go to whenever i needed anything. of course, i had my mom, and i love her to death, but it wasn't the same."

joon nodded, wiping more of jimin's tears with his sleeve.

it was silent for a moment, jimin just trying to catch his breath.

"but... it's... it's a lot better now, you know? i have you now and i don't feel so alone anymore. it gets easier every day. and i know... i know he's happier now. i know that."

namjoon leaned in and hugged jimin again, kissing the top of his head.

"he loved you so much, jimin. he still loves you. and he's watching over you now," joon said, "i know he is."

-

both boys fell quiet for a while, watching tv for almost two hours and not saying a word. jimin was cuddled up close to joon, his arms wrapped around him tightly, enjoying the warmth and feeling of being so close. they both felt very comforted, feeling like a new special connection was formed after talking about jimin's dad. namjoon felt amazing that he could be the one jimin could turn to. he wanted jimin to be comfortable telling him anything and he wanted to be the one to help him through all his troubles in life. forever.

joon always thought it wasn't possible to love jimin more than he already did, but every day his love managed to grow. every new thing he would learn about jimin, every new habit the boy would pick up, everything jimin did just made him fall harder and harder.

"joonie-" jimin said, the nickname just rolling off his tongue, sitting up from joon's chest, in his half awake-half asleep state, rubbing his eyes.

namjoon thought is was beyond adorable, seeing how jimin was using the same nickname his grandfather called him. it almost made it more special in a way, only the two people he loved most getting to use it.

"yeah?"

jimin paused for a minute.

"thanks... for talking to me," jimin said, "i feel... really good. i didn't realize i needed to talk about it so badly, but i did."

namjoon nodded.

"of course."

jimin scooted a bit closer to him, inching his face closer to joon's.

"i love you," he said, running his fingers through namjoon's long, silky, brown hair.

namjoon smiled brightly, taking the affection happily.

"i love you, too."

jimin smiled back, the two just sitting there, staring into each other's eyes.

and without another moment wasted, jimin kissed him.

kissed him like there was no end, like it would go on forever.

seconds turned into minutes and minutes turned into- almost a half an hour. the boys were having so much fun, not having any responsibility or reason to stop.

to put it simply, they didn't want to stop, so they didn't.

jimin tasted sweet, just like the juice he had been drinking and he smelt like his cute rose face wash.

everything surrounding namjoon was so distinctly jimin, that it was almost too much for him to take.

joon, on the other hand, tasted like fresh mint toothpaste, and smelt like his eucalyptus body wash, jimin being well aware that he was fresh and clean from the shower he had taken only a few hours ago.

they continued. jimin was on top of joon now, finding the spot and position to be more comfortable than being beside him. he liked being close to him and he liked the way joon's hands naturally gravitated to rest on his waist.

it went on for a few more moments before jimin let out a little- well... he wasn't exactly sure what it was.

a whine, a groan.., a cute little thing.

and just that alone was what caused jimin to break away.

or, more specifically, what his little groan caused, was the reason he pulled away.

jimin just stared down at joon for a moment, panting, not daring to say a word.

joon's cheeks were bright red, quickly speaking up.

"s-sorry," joon said, adjusting himself, "i just... w-we can just kiss. or we can stop. whatever."

he looked so embarrassed. beyond embarrassed, actually. he looked like he wanted to run and hide and never face jimin again.

jimin just sat there for a moment, awkwardly sitting on top of joon's little problem, contemplating what his next move was.

jimin's tongue peeked out between his lips to wet them, his teeth biting down on his bottom lip.

"it's okay," jimin said, reaching his hand up to graze over namjoon's cheek, "i'm... i'm honestly a little worked up, too," he said, with a small laugh, scooching back a bit until he was sitting on joon's thigh, making it easier for joon to feel him.

joon just sat there, staring down at jimin's parted legs draped across his thigh, trying his best to keep his cool and process what the hell was happening.

"we can... we can do something... if you want," jimin said, smiling a little, meeting eyes with him, "i mean... we don't have to do anything too vigorous now.., but we could still do... stuff."

namjoon's lips parted ever so slightly. he had thought about this moment hundreds of times, convincing himself that he would never be lucky enough for it to actually happen.

"i think about it a lot..," jimin said, his hand falling from his face, to graze over his clothed chest, "i'm ready to start trying stuff out.., if you want to."

namjoon placed his hands back onto jimin's waist, feeling like if he didn't hold the boy down, he would lose him.

"s-shit- yeah. okay," joon said, still not believing what was happening.

jimin just laughed again, letting his hand slip under joon's shirt, drawing little circles.

joon took a big inhale, just the feeling of jimin's hand on his skin practically driving him mad.

"this okay?" jimin asked, pulling up his shirt a bit to get a look at his toned chest.

joon nodded quickly.

he had a light definition of abs. he wasn't too muscly, but he was by no means scrawny either. he was the perfect in-between, and all jimin wanted was to touch him, loving the feeling of the warm melanin skin.

"w-what... what are we gonna do first?" namjoon asked, feeling nervous and wanting to prepare himself for what was to come.

jimin let out another small giggle, finding how nervous joon was to be pretty adorable.

"well..," jimin said, moving his hand from joon's abs, and letting it slowly fall lower and lower, till joon was practically ready to buck up into his hand.

"what about something like this?" jimin asked, moving his eyes down to joon's bulge, practically salivating as he stared at it, wanting to run his fingers over it desperately.

joon groaned.

"f-fuck- okay. yeah, do whatever you want."

jimin immediately moved his hand over it, finally feeling joon's erection for the first time.

joon groaned loudly, grabbing onto jimin's wrist for some sort of stabilization.

jimin continued to run his fingers over the tight heat in his sweatpants, watching as the bulge grew bigger and bigger from his touch.

namjoon had his eyes closed tightly, head thrown back in pleasure, letting out breaths of ecstasy every time jimin would touch him.

and before he knew it, he felt jimin's little hand part away from where he desperately needed him, latching onto his waistband.

he waited for joon to oppose, wanting nothing more than to pull the sweats and boxers down in one sweep, and finally get a view of his hard length.

"w-what about your mom?" joon asked, panting.

"she's asleep. she won't hear anything."

jimin waited for a moment, watching as joon nodded, throwing his arm over his face to cover it, embarrassingly wanting jimin to continue.

that was all jimin needed to pull both his bottoms down in one pull, joon's hard cock slapping back onto his stomach at the force.

and just as jimin suspected, it was big- maybe eight inches. thick and even all the way around. hard, with a few veins showing along the girth.

jimin was almost drooling while staring down at it, wanting it to fill up his mouth immediately.

so, without wasting more time, jimin got down lower, till his head was at the same height as joon's cock, knowing that he would have it in his mouth any minute causing his own dick to harden a bit more.

"this okay?" jimin asked, his hot breath hitting joon's sensitive area, causing him to practically mewl, his whole body feeling the action.

he grabbed onto jimin's hair harshly, instinctively wanting to push him down onto his dick, craving the warm, wet hole that had been placed in front of him.

"f-fuck- yes."

jimin was very excited and tried to act confident, but of course, he was a bit nervous as well. he had never sucked a guy's dick before, so he really didn't know what he was doing.

from what he read online, sucking the tip was the best feeling, so he decided to just start with that and see what would happen.

so, without another thought, he wrapped his lips around the head, being sure to cover his teeth.

a loud groan sounded from joon, his hips just barely coming up from the bed, hand tightening in jimin's hair.

jimin took this as a good sign, continuing to suckle on joon's tip as if he were a little kitten on a bottle.

"oh, shit- so fucking good-" namjoon let out, holding back from fucking into jimin's mouth.

jimin continued on, listening to joon's hot groans, edging him closer and closer, before he pulled off.

"you can be a little rough with me," jimin said, panting a bit, "i don't mind."

"fuck- fuck- fuck-" joon let out, as jimin reattached his lips to him.

he tightened his grip in jimin's hair, even more, giving up on holding back and bucking up into his mouth, harshly.

jimin moaned around him, causing joon to almost come then and there, it taking everything in him to hold back.

"j-jimin- baby- i'm gonna cum-"

jimin loved the pet name, feeling his own dick twitch in his pants as he moaned around joon again.

jimin knew joon was gonna cum, but he still wasn't pulling off, which only made the whole situation hotter.

it only took one more thrust, before joon was coming down jimin's throat, taking a minute before jimin swallowed around him, and parted away.

joon was staring up at the ceiling, panting like crazy, feeling like he was seeing stars.

of course he had given himself a few sloppy handjobs to the thought of jimin back in the day, but nothing ever felt like that. 

jimin just laughed again, wiping off his lips with the back of his hand, "good?"

joon just shifted his eyes to meet jimin's, staring at him for a moment.

his shirt was hiked up, showing off his little waist. his shorts were riding up on his thighs as well, showcasing his boner even more. his lips were pink and swollen, little tears built up in his eyes from being throat fucked so well. his hair was all messy from being pulled on, with pink cheeks and his staggering breath.

"good?" namjoon repeated, like the idea that it wasn't good was absolutely ludicrous.

jimin's lips parted, feeling as the thick atmosphere around them grew, joon's lust-filled gaze almost feeling contagious.

without thinking, joon quickly sat up, the irrational side of his brain taking over, clutching tightly onto jimin's waist and pushing him back onto the pillows.

jimin felt his length twitch in his little shorts at the dominant act, excited for what was to come.

joon quickly latched onto jimin's waistband and looked up at him, his breathing erratic.

jimin nodded, quickly pushing his hips up off the bed, desperately, making it easier for joon to remove his bottoms.

joon got his pants and underwear completely off, throwing them somewhere in the room, finally stopping to look down at the boy.

he looked completely and utterly desperate. his- maybe five-inch cock was practically sobbing for joon, curved upwards, red at the tip and angry.

"oh- fuck," joon groaned, at the sight.

jimin shut his eyes tightly, feeling embarrassed, bucking up into mid-air to try and get any type of friction.

namjoon almost went straight to touching him frantically, wanting to make him cum immediately- before he stopped himself.

he paused for a moment, trying to calm down and focus on what was happening. jimin was naked in front of him, practically mewling from being so deprived of touch.

jimin needed him.

his jimin,

his love,

needed him.

so, without thinking anything over, he quickly moved the boy to lay on his side, joon laying beside him so they were facing each other.

jimin opened his eyes just a little bit, just about ready to beg for joon's touch.

"joon, plea- ah!"

jimin yelped as he finally felt joon's hand wrap around him, feeling overwhelmed.

he immediately dug his face into joon's chest, moaning and whining quietly every time joon would move his hand.

"mmh-"

joon continued, whispering sweet words to jimin as he took him to euphoria.

"i love you," joon whispered, picking up the pace of his hand.

jimin practically cried out as joon ran his finger over the slit, not having it in him to muster up a response, even though he wanted to.

jimin continued whining into joon's chest, now bucking frantically into his hand, chasing his release.

before he knew it, he was right on the edge, almost screaming at the intense pleasure.

"let go. it's okay," joon said, rubbing over him one last time, before jimin bucked into his fist harshly and came all over it, covering joon's hand in white, moaning loud enough for the neighbors to hear.

it took a few minutes for jimin to return to reality, still feeling hazy, as joon pumped him one last time, a few more droplets of cum spilling out.

he was panting desperately, trying to catch his breath.

"w-why-" jimin started, still panting, "why didn't we start doing that sooner?"

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