I wish I'd tried harder

to keep you beside me.

I wish I'd loved you better,

Maybe then you would be

Here by my side

Instead of where you are.

Instead I lied-

I thougt I wasn't going too far

But I guess I was

I just wanted to protect you,

That's all I ever wanted, 'cause

Once you loved me too.

I guess you don't love me now

I don't understand that.

It wasn't a big breach of vows,

But now I'm up to bat

And I am failing,

Failing so badly.

Now the phone doesn't ring,

And you took the key

To your place

That you gave me.

Now I can barely see your face

Without thinking of what we could be,

Could have been,

If I hadn't lied.

But I guess I can ken

Why you never tried

To make up,

After all he was your best friend

And even though it was just a cup

Of coffee and a pic to send

To his parents

So they'd get off his back,

It makes sense

That I shouldn't lack

But do-

I get it now,

I should have told you,

But I guess that's how

The wind blows,

But I can't explain

What no one knows,

So I'll stand in the rain

And hope that you're okay,

Wherever you are at,

And that you're happy in your way;

I hope that,

            Don't you see?

           Please be happy without me.