Another day goes by.
Just like any other one.

I am looking through my past few months and concluded.

Nothing is going on in my life.

I wake up, eat, pee, and brush my teeth. I go to school, I come back, eat dinner and go to bed.

I am downright boring.

And it doesn't end here.

I don't have any reason to do anything I don't have the motivation to be anyone.
I have no urge to go anywhere.

It scares me.

My lifelessness, my robotic actions scare me.

Now that I think about it, I think I might be sick.

How can a person in the prime of his/ her youth can be so lifeless? How can I be so empty? What had happened to me?

Because everything seems fake?
Or cuz every relationship is so non-genuine? Everything is senseless. Everything's depending upon giving and take.
When I was young, I always felt that humanity is so blessed to have such a huge family. Some parents take care, some siblings annoy you and there for you, there are gentle grandparents and there are lovely friends to get along with. It felt so beautiful.
It isn't.

Parents try to control your every move.
Siblings either want attention or letting them be.
Grandparents want company cuz they are so alone.
Friends want you to love them for who they are and yet give them free hand to criticize you all the time. You are sometimes their ride, their way to get around and to use you as human tools.

Yeah, no one is genuine anymore.

But then a question arises.

What is genuine?