Teardrop's Pov

I sometimes wonder to myself...

Back during my time back around everywhere around Bfdi...a thought kept striking my mind.

"Was i REALLY a good changed person? Or was I just a Villainous Selfish Competitor?"

I was laying on my bed. Just thinking about this, nonstop...it never just seems to go away...the visions and flashbacks of me hurting those who Deserved pain, and those who didn't...

Flower, that irritating fashion flower petal girl, with the desire of making a fashion store with my Boyfriend Gelatin with a Stakehouse, I did that because Not only because of the Competition, but also irritated me. Tell me how you can handle that person for more then 24 hours a day and tell me your experience with her?
Because let's be real, I doubt you guys would last a second being around her.

And their were others I did hurt that didn't deserve it...and when I first looked at it, Gelatin didn't seemed like a person I didn't cared much...I used to dislike the guy not only because of his goofy personality, but he was also getting in the way of my personal business. This is a "Competition." And I hardly known stuff in my life to not just "simply" trust others for my benefit. There are people like Leafy, Eggy, Needle, and even not long ago, Woody that I can trust. And Gelatin USED to not be one of them....but the reason I even started to get closer and start a relationship with him to begin with, was because he actually had a Heart...

He did cared for others, his friends, his somewhat close relatives to his family, even to me...

Someone who...killed him once and nearly twice all because of a STUPID Competition...

Now just realizing this thought...

Maybe I AM a Villainous threat...

As I started to have small flashbacks to where I killed off Gelatin in episode 23, I sobbed on my Pillow, muffling my sobs and just wanted the guilt to go away.

Sometimes I wish I was never born...

Now I just feel like I'm a danger to everyone, and all I ever cared for were just some stupid prizes like a Bfdi or a Bfb that hardly meant ANYTHING!

Just when I was thinking more as I sobbed endlessly, I heard the door slightly opening.

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Gelatin's Pov

I was just walking around outside with my good old friend donut, a bit of summary, me and teardrop decided to live around the tpot grounds considering that their was also some of our friends that we haven't seen in a very long time, So that would explain why I went out with donut just to catch up of how things had been.

Donut: you know Gelatin? I forgot how nice it would be to just suddenly reconnect to one of your good friends!

Gelatin: heh, yeah! And even then...nothing's changed since...heh...'^_^

Donut: speaking of changed...what happened with your voice for one?

Gelatin: -? Oh this? Well....I'd rather not get into it that much. ,:/

Donut: okay, okay, I understand. It is your personal lie afterall. But...another thing.

Gelatin: what is it?

Donut: "why Teardrop of all people as your girlfriend?"

That made my heart sort of pounded a little, and I could feel my face turning red. Did anyone else figured it out and told him about it? Well...no use of hiding it. I decided to tell Donut about it.

Gelatin: well, let's see...I did used to be gay, Believe me as I say that. But...Teardrop was a whole life changer for me. She's beautiful, a very strong person, and sort of a goofball trickster like me, Me and her just sort of...relate to each other, you know?

Donut: I get that, but...Should I mention of what Teardrop has really...done to make us all..."distant" from her?

Gelatin: -? What do you mean? /:/

Donut: let's see...used some of us as tools of the game just to get further, being a douch bag, cares for very little people or stuff, and joined tpot because what? Greedy for a prize? I'm starting to feel that teardrop isn't very..."caring" at all.

Gelatin: ...well, who's to say that people can still change overtime? I mean, take a look at Flower for example, she's at least changed for the better.

Donut: ...I...guess that makes some sort of sense, you do you Gelatin. If you want to go out with her, I respect your perspective. But if you and her get kicked out of these grounds because of two and the others, don't go crawling to me about it.

Gelatin: I won't okay? ,:/

Donut: (sighs) anyways, I got something to give to barf bag, so I'll see you later gelatin.

Gelatin: bye! ^_^

Me and donut went out separate ways as I went to my home. I started to think what Donut said to me tho, her being a douchbag? Greedy for prizes? Only cares for herself?

...

This is a lot on my mind to think. As I got inside and was heading to my room, I heard....crying?

Wait...

Oh no...

I opened teardrop's room to just see her on her bed, sobbing...until she looked up and noticed me opening the door.

Teardrop: o-oh..*sniffle* h-hey g-gelly... <;/

Gelatin: hey...what's....what's wrong with you? <:/

Teardrop: ....a lot in my head... ,;/

I satted next to her on her bed, Placing my arm around her back. As I took a deep breath...I'm not exactly good with comforting others...but, I'm at least decent with it they are close to me. So...I hope I can understand properly of what's going through to her.

Gelatin: you want to talk about it? ,:/

Teardrop: ...*deep breath* Gelatin...?

Gelatin: yeah?

Teardrop: am I a horrible person to you?

Gelatin: -? What? Of course not! Why would you ever think that?!

Teardrop: ...others say it otherwise...

Gelatin: -? Huh?

Teardrop: ...ever since episode 27 and when I joined tpot...it felt like I was given a more..."negative" approach...towards yours and my friends...mainly because around the start of the early game I joined because I wanted to have another shot of a prize? Two's power? Of course my greediness rewards gotten to me! That just shows how greedy I am! And that I backstabbed some of my friends for the sake of the game! Like leafy, lollipop, flower, You! Some of you were my friends and I just treated you all like shit! Especially to YOU! You want to know WHY I'm so UNTY?! People called me Stupid! mocked me of my potential! And Blocky even ripped my vocal cords for a "PRANK!" And never gaved them back! Until like, I dunno! Another prank with woody just for my voice to get sorey gross?! I'm at least thankful for Lollipop who created a voice box for me! But that doesn't change the fact that I MADE those actions, and Must Suffer for it! Now I got to deal with Eraser's constant mocking me! My friends not talking to me as much! And even get to be having mental breakdowns once and a while! I kept visioning stuff like YOU manipulating me! People were just Using me! A-and...and....ARGH!!!!

She broke down once more in sobs as she covered her face....dear lord that's....that's just awful....I wrapped my arms around her as she continued to sob more and more, until after 10 minutes she finally stopped a little.

Gelatin: teardrop...even if you feel this way...your not ALL that horrible.

Teardrop: (sniffed) what do y-you mean? It doesn't changed the fact that I STILL did those things...so..."So WHAT?" <;/

Gelatin: ...after all of that teardrop, I got one thing to ask.

Teardrop: and what would that be...?

Gelatin: what made you think I would Ever have manipulated you?

Teardrop: -? Well...uhm...you...weren't exactly greatful I won for us in episode 23. And...well,

Gelatin: I told you to give me some space?

Teardrop: ...yeah....you did.....which was why I made that party up for you. And forget about the competition...

Gelatin: so? That just shows you that your not COMPLETELY heartless.

Teardrop: h-huh?

Gelatin: the onetime you putted the game aside from your relationships with others and decided to throw me a party just for me to feel better, It showed some fans and some of us that you DO care, It's just...in a rather small way of showing it...and also....I wasn't doing that to manipulate you. It was because of how unsafe I was lately.

Teardrop: unsafe?

Gelatin: yeah...no offense dear, but you can be quick to point some stuff out.

Teardrop: ...well, you did mentioned that you could even hear me screaming...which was back then that I couldn't talk at all...

Gelatin: ...so...yeah, I suppose we were both childish to do those cruel actions. '^_^

Teardrop: heh...I guess so...? ,:)

Teardrop: but...where are you getting at? ,:/

Gelatin: well, you did some of those plays because some also used you. Like...leafy forcing you to give her the immunity, and yet she won in ep 26 anyway. And did some of those people who insulted you and aggravated you too much, like flower....which...no offense but she can be hard to exactly get in an alliance with sometimes....and it feels funny...I only acted childish was because of my disorders.

Teardrop: -? I never knew you had disorders. /:/

Gelatin: well...now you know of that, but, off subject, teardrop. Those things I described, your not completely heartless...and even if you think that...there are Others that have done WORSE things then you. I mean, take...Firey for example. He did technically started a whole relationship drama over a ferris wheel if I recall.

Teardrop: ...I guess your right with that... ,:/

She took a deep breath while hugging herself, I think it managed to work...which I felt relieved of that, I hate to see her down and mental like this...

Teardrop: it's...going to take time for me to think, but...thank you Gelly. ,;)

Gelatin: well...it's what a boyfriend is for, right? ;)

Teardrop: (giggled) yeah... <;)

I embraced her in a warm embrace, her doing the same. God I love her...so much to the point where I...might take it to the next level...

Actually...

Gelatin: hey...dear?

Teardrop: yes?

Gelatin: have you...erm...thought of...

Teardrop: what?

Gelatin: ....extending our relationship even further?

Teardrop: wh-huh? O///O

I pinned her on the bed. Showing her what I mean, it's shortly to say that I think imma have a Funtime having this with her...

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I might make a part 2 but...be warned, it's sessional.