ᴹʸ ᴮʳᵒᵗʰᵉʳˢ: ᵀʰᵉʸ ᵀʰⁱⁿᵏ ᴵ'ᵐ ᶠᵘᶜᵏⁱⁿᵍ ˢᵗᵘᵖⁱᵈ!!! ⁽ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵒⁿᵉ'ˢ ᵖʳᵉᵗᵗʸ ˢᵉʳⁱᵒᵘˢ⁾

Here's the story...

If you've been following me for a while now, you'd know that my parents and I recently moved into a new house.

We left my childhood home in November and we packed all of our own furniture in storage in our state.

It's been about a month since we officially started living here. My brother flew in yesterday and he and my other brother came over today to swim in our pool.

Everything was all hunky dory until it was time to put together my late Grandfather's table that we've had at the old house for over twenty years.

The top of the table is very heavy glass and there are golden rams for underneath, similar to this:

They were lifting up the glass and they were waiting for me to put a rag on top of the ram to keep the glass from scratching the rams or something? I don't know, but I was feeling flustered. I was feeling pressure from both of them to do something right for once.

Brother #1: Oh my God.

Brother #2: Hey, this is really light so take your time
(something similar)

I get that they were lifting something heavy, but like I said, I was feeling pressured.

Lately, I've been feeling like they think I'm stupid. Like I'm incapable of doing fucking shit.

Not my Mom.

Not so much my sister.

Maybe my Dad sometimes.

But mostly my brothers.

When I was born, I had the umbilical cord around my neck. I had very little oxygen to my brain. The other day, I was wishing I had died right then. Their lives would've been a hell of a lot better if I never existed.

I can't talk right (if you've read my book Dysarthria, you'd know what I mean), I can't do the stupidest shit right.

Ugh! I wish I was born normal!

EDIT:
It's now the next morning and I'm feeling much better. I stopped thinking about it, I watched YouTube videos and my tears dried up pretty quickly. I definitely don't wish I never existed. I have a wonderful life, family, and I never would've met any of my supportive friends on here.

DISREGARD THIS RANT.