In My Parents' Eyes: I'm A Failure

This one isn't really a rant. It's more like I need to get this off my chest and this platform is perfect to write this on.

First, I'm not as successful as my older siblings (as I have mentioned in an earlier chapter). My sister's a nurse, my brother is a regional manager of a sub shop and my other brother is doing...something that I don't quite know.

Me?

I'm writing books that will never EVER get published (and even if they did, they won't pay me as much), I lay in bed all day and watch TV, play on my phone, basically do nothing. I don't have an irl social life, I don't have a job (which is why my brother thinks I'm a lazy ass), I don't have a love life

Second, I'm a burden to my family. I don't know how to drive, or to cook, do my own taxes or take care of my own financials, or of myself. Mom's flying up to our hometown for a funeral, leaving me to stay with my brother and future sister because I'm incapable of feeding myself.

As I've mentioned in my book, Dysarthria, my parents have guardianship over me. They stress out over paperwork because of me and dad even admitted it himself that if I were more 'independent', they wouldn't have to deal with this shit.

I've been feeling this lately and ESPECIALLY tonight after dad made a comment:

"You've been laying in bed ALL day."

And mom:

"You don't stress. You don't know what stress feels like." (Or something like that).

So, in other words...

I'm a failure to my parents and I wish I was a more independent, smart and successful daughter.