Every day, memories flash like a spotlight,
Flesh wounds cut deep, like teeth sinking into a ripe apple.
I can't find solid ground;
It feels like everyone knows
That foreign body messed up my life.
I suffer from childhood trauma.
Forget-me-not.

Never been the same,
I scream when I see your image in the shadows.
Take me back to how you wronged me.
You acted like everything was well,
Blaming me in a cold-blooded display.

You spiked my drink;
You took advantage of me in my unconscious state.
Waking up, feeling lost and naked,
I felt silenced and immobilized like a snare spiked with salt.
Knowing rescue won't come,
My body smelled rotten and defiled.
I wanted to burn my body with kerosene.
I tried to exhale into the sky, but the foul scent of your defilement
Suffocated my attempt to find freedom.

How do I endure this thunderous and traumatic experience?
When night's sharp edges cut into my wound,
My pain will not fade away like passing clouds.
Betrayal cloaked over me,
Reminding me of
You invading my existence like roots penetrating into my rock.
I try to wear a crown of happiness,
But I'm just a clown of sadness.
I pray I burn these clothes and find strength
To rise above, like a full moon,
And reclaim my body and my life from your betrayal.
I pray that my smile takes away the pain
And consumes the darkness of pain that threatens to swallow me.