A lot of people like Hannah Baker,

Like Courtney,

Like Sheri,

Like Justin,

Like Marcus, 

Like Clay,

And like the other cast of 13 Reasons why in the world. .

We admit it or not,  many of us are like them.  We became selfish in many ways. We think about ourselves,  we protected ourselves though it have to hurt others.

I feel that I am more like Hannah Baker. Not in the sense that I'm the girl who always being bullied. But because like her,  maybe I am sensitive of so many things that other girls or boys at my age don't mind. 

I am hurting because of myself,  which means they don't do it intentionally or maybe sometimes they did but those things they have done on me does affect my life.  My entire life,  like what happened when I was bullied in kindergarten,  when I was accused to get a thing I didn't do and so on. Those remains in my head,  it always pulling me down. I know I already get over it. But in some reasons,  they came back in my memory over and over again.

I know, I have to do something about it.. I really have to.

Because if not,  I would end up like Hannah Baker.

She said that we cannot change other people, but we can change ourselves.  She has a point , but it must be so hard for a single person doing it alone.  I mean no one inspiring her or him, or no one influences them. 

True changes comes only from God.  Well if we're looking only to the situation or other people and ourselves and saw our weaknesses and failures.. It will just keep us being afraid to try to change or it will only make things worse. Little by little killing us. 

God created us,  so I know He had the solution we are looking for. 

1 Peter 5:7
Cast your anxiety on Him,  because he cares for you..

Hebrews 13:5b
Never will I leave you,  never will I forsake you..

Psalm 23:1
The Lord is my sheperd,  I shall not be in want.

2 Corinthians 5:17
For anyone is in Christ,  he is a new creation,  the old has gone,  the new has come.

Be still and know that I am God... I will give you rest.. I know the plans I have for you..

All of these declaration of God are trustworthy.. He is faithful and just,  though it's hard to understand his will sometimes.

We can never contained the wisdom that he has.  He's omnipotent,  omnipresent and omniscience father.

If only Hannah Baker know God earlier. If she only knew that she was precious to Him.

You know,  I want to meet the writer of this movie series and do something before it is too late..  May be he's like Hannah Baker,  that this movie is just his way to express his deepest that he cannot tell anybody else whose close to him. 

Anyways,  I think also,  he really are a professional writer. He can write a story like that..

And  to all who experiences what Hannah had experienced to her life,  there was still hope,  even if you see it only 1%..it's still a hope.  Choose life,  there are still greater and wonderful things in the world that maybe you haven't experience it yet. Do not focus on your problem or the root of your depression or sadness.

Sometimes,  our attitudes and personalities only make it worse.  Yea..

So keep positive spirit.. It's helpful to get over with the problem we're facing.