Do yo feel like. .

Life is not easy. .

Life is sometimes unfair, oh not sometimes but always. .

Because of being a good person, you were abused. .

And you don't know what to do because you're too afraid or small?

You are not bold enough to fight for your rights?

. . . . And you are stocked behind a little corner, murmuring for your rights, longing for respect that you wish to gain.

When I was little, I only spent two days or a week in a day care center. I was embarrassed when my teacher scolded me when I pee behind our door because I was too shy to pee outside, because at that time the school doesn't have CR. Since that day I never went to school..

Then when I was Kindergarten, I accidentally bumped into my classmate back and she cried. Then all my classmates accused me then they started bullying me until the whole school year. So I need to go home alone and do things by myself.

When I am in highschool, my teacher accused me that I stolen her crucifixion. That was one of my accessories I used in dishgardening competition that I joiun in Baguio. Actually, we all know the suspect but because she was a teacher so it was all push to me. I paid for the thing I never done..

In college, because I moved into another church, my ex-pastor spread a false testimony about me. I told him that I wanted to move out from the church because I am uneasy of some things there. But he said to everybody, it is their idea that I will be expulsion in the church because I am a lesbian and because I watched porn. I didn't have any idea about it until one of my classmates told me about the issue. You know the feeling? It's like there's a bomb inside me that wanted to explode anytime. I am hurt, really hurt. They destroyed my reputation, while I am quiet of their unjustice leading in the church. How can I fight my rights if the rumors only reached my ears when two years had already passed??

And now, I am treated like..

I can't even say what it was. I am a prisoner.. I am Christian, I already forgiven those people who treated me unjustly, but why the story still repeating.. And everything came back once in my memory.

I know it's Satan's idea that I suffered. But I don't let him. I will stand, Jesus already given me victory so I need to keep moving forward.

Though it's tough.. :(