I am sitting here at a fast food chain. I have finished all my outside transactions today and I don't want to go back at work yet.

Sorry, I don't mean to become a bad employee. I woke up this morning with a gloomy day so with my feeling.

I feel gloomy, I feel sad and I don't know why? Maybe I just overthink what my boss told me yesterday. I know it is noy enough reason to feel this way but why I am so down.

Sobrang bigat ng dibdib ko and it is hard to keep jolly and active. Then finally my order has arrived.

Maybe a good one cup of coffee could be a headstart for me.

So for now, I need to sit and just think. Or relax. My time alone is very needed at this moment.

Because I want to go back fixed and very okay to face thing positively again.

(sip from my coffee)

Yep, having this good taste coffee is so comforting.

I will enjoy it first for a couple of minutes. Be right back.

A saying from where I sit says: You really can do whatever you want.

Yep, at this moment I just want to work well. Do my best. I don't want others to hate me. That's why I need to do that.

I don't want to think anymore that others are against me or didn't like. As long as I am not hurting anyone, I'll be okay.

Maybe that's what I really felt today. I feel being targeted of wrong accusations. I don't know why or it is really true or just a product of my overthinking but why I can feel it towards them. There are times when I already felt it to them and prove myself I am correct but yeah if they have problems with me, it is not my problem anymore. As long as I don't do things that hurt them or disappointed them. Okay, feel alright now self. Be yourself and as the Bible say, do not be weary on doing good for at the proper time you will reap a harvest if you do not give up. And a message last sunday, we are not against our brothers or sisters, we only have one enemy and that is satan who is always fooling us around. Win your battle today Assi. Win.

Thank you God for giving me the comfort that I needed today. Thank you for your grace that embraces me everyday.

Now, I can go back. And face what I am needed to face. It will be alright self. It will.

❤️