There's a feeling inside me that glows. I am happy. I'm just staring outside, looking for those promotion banners outside this bank where I am, looking beyond those cars that are parked outside and the ones that goes right and left. I am happy.

Then a statement from a Pastor came into my mind says "Masaya ako na may product ng school na kagaya mo."

I replied that it was also thanks to him because he became my pastor and mentor when I am still studying in that school. Yes, I am happy to hear that but it's just now that it sink in and make my day. How those words meant to me.

Thinking of all those struggles and troubles I have encounter in the pass during my days in that school but no one really expect who I will become now. I keep recenting of my past. But today is different, I thought of my worth. How I became useful in that school. How I grow and become mature. Those pressures keep my head low. I'm always thinking that I am not good enough, I still lack though it is true in some part but now I just realised that I am not the same anymore. I have big contributions that maybe some notice or some keep it unseen. But yeah, the Lord saw it all and may be it is His way to tell me,

"Assi, your doing great. Keep moving forward, take courage. I care for you and I love you with all my heart."

And speaking to that Pastor, he became like a father to me. He treat me well, though there are some issues that connected to him, he never did that to me. And I am thankful for that, binihisan, pinakain at prinotektahan niya ako.

I know I left him, and I never regret it.  Because I know God's plan os for the better.

That statement from him this morning, it's powerful. It wakes me up. It glows me inside.

A piece of self worth I can hold on to.

Thank you Lord, my dear Lord 💖