Life is a journey, which every journey has its end but while in the road, there's so much things to drop by to learn, to enjoy and to feel before it goes pass out of control.

After watching Tony's conversation with ma'am Charo I have a lot of reflections in life. I understand better what I am going and where I am.

These past days I have these thoughts in my mind, asking many what if's. What if we own a house here in Pangasinan? What if we stop working here and try different things in our life? What if we just focus on this one career of our life? What if I'm a stay at home mom? What if I do business?

And some of my questions are aswered on its own. May be, this is the will of God for us. May be, the time is not yet right. May be, we have still purpose why we stay here.

I am really affected of some things in my work because I took it personally. I became so defensive, and keep my watch alert so that I will not be hurt anymore. And all that I've been through made me this version of me today. Or fear drives me to be like this or can be a lesson learned through it all.

A quotes from the flash saying 'no one is immune to fear.' We all have fear. This fear hold us, so we will not enjoy what we suppose to be enjoying about life.

And that hold me too. Living here (I mean the place we are now) become boring or burdensome sometimes. Working here is the same way also. But this isn't 'life'. When God created life, it is wonderful. And it will always be.

Now, we have to feel what we have to feel but after that go back to yourself and pursue life.

I want to barrow what ma'am charo quote in that conversation with Toni I mentioned above - 'at the end of the day, what did you bring to the table'. It  is like at the end of the day, who will you become? Is it pleasing to God? Is it God's will? Did you make God smile?

Because in life, that's the most important thing to do, to please our God and Creator. He matters in one's life.

In the family, He matters. In the work place, He matters. In every areas in our life, He matters. Because He is life.

That one, I should remember and mark it in my heart. That in my life, He matters. In your life, He matters. It is because of His grace why we keep moving forward.

Now, smile and stand tall. God who matters after all!