October 7, 2020

Yea, the pandemic have gone so far. Lahat tayo, ay nasa pag-aadjust at pagkikisabay sa mga bagay na binago ng pandemya.

I am sure that we are living a different lifestyle we had before pandemic.

Maraming nag-iba at nagbago. Maaring isa sa mga na-test ay ang ating mental health. Kasi I experienced it also.

And one more thing is our relational problem. Kung may mas naging maayos ang pagsasama dahil sa lockdown may mga relasyon ding nasisira.

And I've gone through both of them. Yung mahirap makisama. (ang awkward) especially that we are seeing only each others almost everyday. (Nah, hindi yung asawa ko yung tinutukoy ko but people around us.)

Sometimes hindi maiiwasan that you became a center of an eye. The talk of town. And if you knew my past you may be understand that these things made me uncomfortable. But in anyways, kahit sinong tao naman.

What I realised through this pandemic is to take care of my families dignity. I mean, I appreciated my husband more than before. I learn to listen. To understand. I learn to prioritise my family. Yea, people may have says but the final say is not from them. I learn to be real and show people who I am. If they like me or not because of that, no problem. Of course, I am aware and careful about my actions and what I say, I don't intended to hurt someone.

Another thing I learned is to stay out from toxicity. Though its the hardest ride but I love to see my little progress everyday. I tried not to overthink so much. Or to issue or punahin yung mga bagay na wala naman akong kinalaman. I tried to get away from work stress and drama which I failed before. As long as I do my job, I'm all good. And yea, I'm still human. (nasasaktan parin naman sa mga bagay-bagay na di na tama o di na pantay, but I'm trying get over it at huwag nalang itong pansinin. It cannot make my life better, right?)

And now that we have our little explorer, my dreams are blooming for him and for our family.

Yea, that's right, I have to focus on things that can make me happy and my family happy. Because in the long run, they are the treasures that I can always have.

My goal/dream for my family fuels me to do what is right and to work harder.

And for my relational problems to other people, I thank God for reminding me about loving our neighbours as our self.

No matter how bad they injured us. Love ang pray for them, then miracle happens.

Choose life and happiness. Don't waste your precious life complaining and full of resentment. It is not the will of God for you.

I have a very important message for you; JESUS LOVES YOU SO MUCH!!

He cares for you.

😊