Your family are the people you will always have and will always be there for you.

This Coco the movie reminded me of how important family is. I remembered that when I was young I am one of the headache of my family because of my sensitivity. I easily get hurt and argue with them. But at some point, I am a good daughter. I am very obedient though it's not obvious  because I don't want them to know. Like for example, my mother always accused me everytime I went to school early, I am meeting someone. But behind what they knew, I promise not to have boyfriend early and get pregnant early which a promise I have fulfilled through the helped of the Lord.

My family wasn't perfect, I mean all family are. We have a lot of things to fight to with each other. We raised voices with each other but not most of the time. I will not change them to any family out there in the world. I am blessed to have them.

And I know these give spice to our strong family. I said it strong because through the years and through the trials we've been through we are still together, helping each other, and most of all loving each member of the family.

I am an independent one in our family. I choose to go far from them and live in a whole new place like where I am today. I decide for myself. I miss my family always, but I don't know why I am more comfortable to live here alone. It doesn't mean I don't like them in my life, but it's just that I am more of help if I am far away. I always love them, and will always care for them. I am praying that everything will went well in their lives. I am a family oriented person. I always think about my family. What are the things I can give them to make them happy though it's not the material things that they wanted but my presence. I am also sad that I can only go home five times a year and stayed home for only 2-4 days. My heart is always breaking everytime I saw in their eyes that they want me to stay be with them but I don't know how? In here, I can do a lot of things. I know I have skills and talents to offer but in there, I am only a useless person and I will not be a help to them. I always dream to provide for my family. Have enough income to sustain them.

But I can't be this time. And even if the situation is just like that they never stop understanding me. They always show me their support and love. And it makes me guilty that I couldn't pay back. I don't know how to pay back to them. If the only thing I can do now is to pray for them and to love them with all my heart.

And there's one more I want to happen, and that is they will know Christ in their lives. Will feel the true joy and true hope in this world. And not what the world can offer but what the Lord can give them. I want them also to be my spiritual family not only a biological or blood family. I want them to be saved through faith in Jesus Christ. And I will never get tired praying for them. And believing that one day it all gonna happen. I trust the Lord's will and way for this. I entrusted my family to my powerful and gracious God.