warnings:
i know these will probably be skimmed through or this whole chapter skipped entirely but i feel it's extremely necessary to put these warnings in place;
- this book does talk about taboo topics such as self harm, depression and suicide.
- this book could upset a few readers therefore it has been marked as mature although it does not contain any sexually explicit content.

if you relate to any of the feelings expressed in this book;
numbers for help if you do harm yourself or have ever considered it:
Childline(if you're under 19)
0800 1111
Papyrus(UK)
0800 068 4141
CALM(for men specifically)
0800 58 58 58