"You are so cool," Jimin said after yoongi played his songs. "i love you even more now"

"im flattered" yoongi chuckled and licked out of the folder. "most of these i've already shown to you. I don't think I have something else right now. if i do, you're the first to hear it"

"ahw" Jimin smiled and looked at the screen again. his eyes noticing something. His..name. Even if it was fast, he was sure his eyes read a folder named 'for Jimin' in there. "wait. i saw my name"

"oh, yea. well" yoongi pressed back and the folder was seen again. "It's still in progress, the piece I played for you on the piano is in there too. but I can't show you right now...I want to finish it first" yoongi said. This was a whole album for and about Jimin. he hoped to never release the last song, but out of worry he finished it anyway.

"Alright. I will look forward to hearing it!"

yoongi hoped so. He hoped Jimin would be there to listen to it and be there when he was going to send it out to the world.

"I hope you will like it. anyway, something you would like to do now before we order food?"

"hmm, something with not a lot of activity, my legs feel really weak actually," Jimin said, sighing. he felt alright before, but now his legs felt exhausted and thick. as if they were bloated, but when he looked down, they looked fine.

"We can watch some movies together?"

"sure! I like movies. Do you have a lot?"

"i have streaming on y tv so we can choose whatever"

Jimin smiled and got up from the chair and let yoongi support him out of the room and down the stairs before he walked on his own again. His steps were slow and calculated. He doesn't want to fall over. He sat down while yoongi got the remote and started up 'Netflix'. handing Jimin the remote to choose anything he liked. Yoongi didn't care as long as it wasnt horror. He wanted something that would make their time feel more cozy. So with those wishes Jimin chose for a comedy movie. placing the remote down he took a sip from his water that yoongi got for him a few seconds ago while he chose a movie.

"Do you want to...lay with me?" yoongi asked, gathering his courage to make a move. He leaned against the side, perfect position for Jimin to snuggle up against him if he wanted to.

Jimin didn't reply but he smiled shyly and nervously leaned against yoongi. Yes, they had hugged before and laid in bed together chatting. but not the situation was different, this would be moments of them loving each other, and it made him nervous. But he loved this. curling up against yoongi and feeling his arm around him. Jimin felt warm and cared for. He smiled wide and enjoyed the movie. halfway through the movie he had found a hold of Yoongi's hand and played unconsciously with his fingers while staring at the screen.

It was a moment they never wanted to end. But reality came back when the movie ended and Jimin's first alarm went off. with a sigh he grabbed his phone and turned it off. "Hyung...i need to get my medicine in an hour"

"Then let me prepare dinner for us. Do you like ramen? i prepared a fresh broth yesterday"

"I love ramen, if the hospital served it I would get it everyday I think" the younger chuckled and sat up so yoongi could get off the couch.

"ramen it is then"

"Do you need help with anything?"

"Nah, just you being here is enough for me to be happy," yoongi smiled and made his way to the kitchen. "just relax or play some games on my playstation, whatever you want. see my stuff as your stuff today"

"t-thank you so much" Jimin's heart melted at that. But he didn't want to play games. He wanted to look at yoongi and be close to him. Before he got up from the couch to follow the cutting noises to the kitchen he lifted up his shirt and checked his heart rate. "steady...good" he sighed relieved when it looked fine and calm. so with a relaxed feeling he made his way to the kitchen and began to stare at the other cooking while starting some casual conversation about food they like and don't like.

Simple moments like these meant a lot for Jimin. they made him feel normal, he would forget for a moment that he was sick and even had a monitor, he could smile and do things normal people do. He won't be seen as a patient or a number in the hallway. He could be Park Jimin like he should have been.

He was really grateful he had met yoongi.

-

sadly everything comes to an end. Almost at the end of the movie Jimin's alarm went off again. saying he had to head back. The hospital was very strict on the time so they couldn't waste more. Yoongi of course drove him back and dropped him off. This time he couldn't go inside and had to say goodbye at the reception area. visiting hours were long over.

"I had a lot of fun today," Jimin said. "thank you"

"I'm glad, please take care. i will come see you soon and bring something from my friends bakery"

"I'd like that," Jimin smiled and they hugged. yoongi placed a soft peck on Jimin's hair, making the other blush.

"Sleep well, if you have a struggle getting to sleep. give me a call, i will be awake for a while still"

"i will, see you hyung"

"you can call me Yoongi"

"yoongi hyung"

"Just yoongi is fine," the older chuckled.

"It feels strange saying it. " jimin fiddled with his fingers behind his back.

"whatever you're comfortable with" yoongi and jimin shared one last hug and then the older really had to leave. The nurse was already standing there to take Jimin for a quick check up before bed.

"See you"

"See you, I love you," yoongi said while slowly walking to the exit.

"i love you too"

the nurse basically melted seeing their interaction. if she could she would have let yoongi stay the night, but that was not something that just could be done without notice.

"are you ready Jimin?" she asked, offering Jimin a supporting arm which he took. his legs were so, so heavy.

"yea..." jimin sighed and looked at the ground. "i already miss him... but i feel so happy"

"I'm glad, and you will meet him again soon."

"Yes," Jimin smiled again.

-

When yoongi got back home he went to his studio and sat behind his screen. the page with the folder 'for jimin' was still on. with one click he opened it and looked at the tracks. his heart was crushing when he read the last track. 'goodbye'.

He had a strange feeling about tonight.

Meanwhile, Jimin was walking to his bedroom. his nurse had gone home and he was now under watch by the night staff. Jimin didn't really know them so he quickly went inside his room to avoid talking to them. He just wanted to be alone right now, no one should ruin his happy mood.

But when he stood there he thought of the day. specifically about one question yoongi had asked earlier. yoongi had reminded him of something.

his parents....

Jimin stood there in the room. his eyes slowly moving to the small dresser near the corner. With slow hesitant steps he made his way to the dresser and kneeled down, pulling the lowest drawer open. With slightly shaking hands he reached for the many papers that were inside. taking the first few he could get a hold of. 

They were all letters.

letters without adress.

Letter to his parents....

Jimin slowly let his eyes move over the words. its like he felt it all over again.

'hey mom, dad...

Its been a while since you've visited me, are you alright? i coudlnt get you on the phone, did you lose it? 

Its alright, i will wait. please visit me soon!

miss you, 

-Jimin'

Hai mom and dad, its me again, Jimin. how are you all doing. did something happen? the letters i send never got delivered. they keep being retoured. did you move out?

please reply, please visit me. i miss you two so much

-Jimin'

'Hey....i heard it from my nurse... you are really never coming back arent you?

-jimin'

'Mom...i need a hug... please hold me once more.... im so alone here, i dont know anyone here, its so cold and scary

-jimin'

'I dont know if i will ever see you again. please dont give up on me. please.... i need you. mom, dad, i miss you

-jimin'

'Why arent you coming back, i hate you! i hate you so much! i might as well just kill myself!

-your son'

'The doctors wont let me! they put me on watch. please get me out of here. where are you!?

-your son?'

'Why does everyone leave me?....... I dont think Taehyung even wants to be my friend anymore..... i want to die mom... please tell me you're proud

-someone'

'why do i even bother....

-me'

Jimin couldn't read more of them. with teary eyes he pushed them back in the drawer not caring they got all crumpled. He was about to shove the drawer shut when he saw two envelopes with a stamp. but again.. no address. These were the last letters he wrote, but the hospital was unable to send them off, the address was missing. Jimin had no idea where his parents were. so he stuffed the letters away to be forgotten. But yoongi reminded him of their existence. And now Jimin regretted ever opening the drawer, all the memories and emotions came back. He clutched his shirt that covered his chest and sobbed, tears falling onto the ground and the envelope he dropped on the floor.

He thought he was over this. but he wasn't. far from it. it was just a memory pushed away, only to resurface back up later. He felt alone...abandoned. He hates this feeling. He feared this feeling. nothing will be alright, all he saw now was a dark pit slowly growing bigger.

His sobs stopped and he opened his mouth, but no words came out. He gasped for air and started creaming. his heart thumping in his chest making him dizzy. His panic caused his throat to clog up and he coughed. coughs were mixed with screams and tugs at his hair and clothes.

Whiting three minutes the door flew open and two night nurses rushed inside to help.

"Mr. Park, we're here. breathe-"

"go away!" Jimin screamed at them and kicked at them weakly. But his kicking limbs were enough to keep them at distance, even if there was no power between them.

"get dr. Kim, I think he is going to pass out." one nurse said. the other nodded and hurried off. "please. try to calm down. follow what i do-"

"NO!" Jimin crawled away and curled into a ball. a shaking and coughing ball. His breath was heavy as if he was breathing through a straw. "Why did they leave me!?"

"i-"

"you don't understand! you all dont understand!" he screamed and pulled at his hair gasping for air. but air did not fill his lungs that we're getting more and more clogged. Slowly his body became weaker and weaker. His hoarse screams and weak kicks did not help to keep dr. kim on distance.

with ease the doctor lifted the weak struggling boy off the ground and placed him on the bed.

"Get him on the monitor" he said and hurried out of the room to get his things. When he returned Jimin had already lost consciousness and the nurse was fixing his hair, getting rid of the broken strands that were stuck between Jimin's fingers.

---

decided to double update. this one is again double as long than normally. i hope you enjoyed, and i will see you soon in the next!

🌼🌼🌼