kelsieee:

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kelsieee: it is album release day.

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it was album release day.
after being silent for three whole months, it was album release day.
i had discovered a new me.
i WAS BETTER THAN EVER!!
my life was thriving! i had met a new girl, her name is rachel. she's beautiful, i think i'm in love with her.
and as for jungkook and the rest of the boys, they never texted me again.
alana is working in south korea as a really big girl group choreographer! you know we don't get to talk much but..i'm sure she's doing well!
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but what they didn't know is kelsie was dying on the inside. everything was back to the way it was before. she was in denial, praying they came back. she just wanted to be happy again, she missed everyone.
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i'm happy..arent i?
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jeon jungkooks pov

it was just a regular day, being so busy i couldn't even breathe steadily.
i was tired, exhausted from practicing and choreographing. it was just the boys and alana and i. a normal night. we were worn out, dehydrated.
taehyung spoke, "i'm gonna get to bed."
the rest of us nodded, "night tae."
i was just scrolling through instagram, waiting for a post to capture me so i could forget about the struggles and problems of my everyday life.
but i saw something.
kelsie.
a name i hadn't heard in months. i shivered, tears forming in my eyes.
continuing to scroll, another post from her had just refreshed.
my heart shattered.
the phone fell from my hands onto the hardwood floor. the screen splintered into tiny pieces. the world stopped, MY world stopped.
my breathing began to become heavy, tears slipped out of my eyes.
this caught the attention of everyone else in the room, they rushed over to me in concern.
"what jk?! what happened?"
all i could do was point to the phone on the floor. yoongi picked it up and his eyes grew wide, he gazed up at alana before looking back down at the instagram post in front of him.

kelsie:

❤️~31,110,066

kelsie: i've been asked.."who has gotten you through this?" and all i could say is you. you, my best friend, my lover, and now finally..my girlfriend. thank you for saying yes rachel, nothing will ever tear us apart.

674,601 comments:
kelsiesbangtan: this is very sweet! hope you're okay.
user304: this isn't the kelsie i know.
jkstan: we miss jelsie:(
user3: so happy for you!
rachelkiss: baby 🥺🤍

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kelsie's pov:

february 22, 2020
my god why was this happening to me. i cant breathe, i cant eat, i cant sleep.
my girlfriend is laying right next to me and i don't even want to kiss her. god i HATE sleeping in the same bed as other people.
i never tell people anything, i hate emotions and feelings but, this isn't for me.
i miss my old self, i really TRULY do.
i miss bangtan. i miss alana. i miss all of them.
i know they don't miss me, but i miss them so so very much.
i fucking hate myself. i hate everything.
i wish i wasn't alive.
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12:01 am
jeon jungkooks pov.
it would be 3 pm in america. kelsie's album just released. i have been debating whether i should go take a listen.
i opened up spotify and took a look at the track list.
what?
this wasn't what i had expected.
empty, by kelsie may.

tracklist:
1. j.jk
2. k.nj
3. m.yg
4. j.hs
5. k.th
6. p.jm
7. k.sj
8. lan
9. i am alone
10. we are all unhappy
11. saving grace
12. fake
13. unhinged

the songs were about us. the whole ALBUM was about us.
i couldn't do it anymore, the tears came pouring. i wanted to cry for help i just couldnt. i missed my life, i missed her.