Day 34; after the start of vacation.

I am sitting at my study table surfing through the notes. My phone is in the cupboard. It's been 34 days. 34 WHOLE DAYS. Not a single person has contacted me or tried to reach me out. 

I have completed all my assignments. All the projects are done. Just the cover pages are left to be designed. I have completed the pending homeworks of biology and chemistry and English.
So far, I have almost covered up all my pending routines. But ......

No one.
Not a single one.

I push away the voices echoing inside my head. I know if i lay the slightest attention to thesethen I'll be done with my motivation. I cannot afford to loose any more time behind things which..... don't value me or don't..... actually...... exist.....to count on......

I close the copy in front of me and get up. The chair makes another squeak when I push it away , causing another sound, i hate to hear.

This has been a new problem for me. Sounds are pretty terrifying for me. I don't know. I haven't been able to talk about it with anyone. I don't know who to talk about all these with.

I wish things were same between me and Riri. I wish she would still be here, the way i imagined her to be.
She turned out something, I didn't really had an idea about..... I know I am not used to with the term 'friends' but even after that.... she could have been better. At least that's what she pretended to be about. Why did she have to backstab me like this? Why?

I lie down on the bed shutting my eyes allowing the water drops to escape from my eyes. Memories flash back of us enjoying out time together. Gossips, doodlings, flirtings, showoff and everything.....every other thing. People would often say that , we should have been the opposite genders ...... a perfect display of the word 'perfect' would have happened. We literally used to laught at them saying people to call us lesbos.

I smile at the idea of her saying all those. I really trusted her. I did. With every possible idea of love. Is that what i deserved in the end?

I sit up straight and step down from the bed. I walk over to the almirah and open the doors. I take the phone out from the top shelf and unlock it. My fingers swipe over the gallery icon and I open it. I scroll down to the album of Riri and me. I stare at the picture of me squeezing her cheeks with her eyes flutter closed.

I smile. I just smile at the picture.

I close the doors and walk back to my bed with the gallery still open. I click on the food fair photos of us.
She was so hungry that time. She literally gulped down and entire gelato in one shot.

I scroll down to more photos and my eyes start feeling heavy. I keep on looking at the screen and in a few minutes, i drifted to my dream world.

I wish .....