I wake up with the sun rays falling on my face directly. I know it's not morning anymore, the sun is literally above the head now.
I check the mobile. It's 3:10 pm. I wake up and call mom.
"Good afternoon" she chirps.
"I am hungry. Can I get something to eat? Can you please come over to this room"I ask in a sleepy voice.
"Okay. Let's see if I can do something" she says and hangs up.

I open the WhatsApp and scroll down to find some photos from unknown number.
I open the chat.

What? What the fuck? What the actual fuck?

I stare at the screen for a few minutes. I am .... I am shocked.....no... surprised?....hurt? ....

I don't know.

I stare at the screenshot of Steph's WhatsApp status which has been forwarded to me by someone. Alex has his hand wrapped around her and the caption read "mine" with a heart emoji.

Oh. So this is why, she has been acting extra friendly. Extra cautious. Extra interested.

Tears pool into my eyes and I feel a lump stuck in my throat making it hard for me to breathe. Alex went to this? Like....this? He had this nerve?
The last time i said about the thing he did with Riri, he said he was sound that he couldn't interprete it that way, or some sort of shit. I even avoided him? And then he was the one who was desperate enough to get my attention back. He even portrayed how apologetic he was. And I trusted him again?

I close my eyes and go back to the series of events that has happened with me till date .

The day I first saw him. He was something. He then started bullying me without even knowing me. He was the one who proposed me. I remember the day he wasn't ready to accept in front of everyone, that I am his girlfriend. I was stubborn. And I did make him accept the truth. I remember, his attention towards Riri. I remember his interest in Riri's stuffs. He didn't know or have an idea of my schedule, my likes or dislikes, my fitting sizes, my fooding habits, my choices.... nothing. Even till date, I am pretty sure , that he barely knows these. I was or I am just his play doll. He was never into me. He never is. He wanted me for sure...but that wasn't out of affection. He wanted me, to use me. To touch me. To feel my body. I have always been a burden to him. The day he kissed Riri on her cheeks in front of me, his heart didn't pace up its rhythm thinking about me. I didn't matter to him. He kept on insulting me in every possible way. People call it 'roasting' . They say that we roast the ones we love the most. Do we? Really?  There were times when I spoke about my dream of a future with him, he would instantly make some sarcastic comment to insult me saying that we were never supposed to get married and that we are only together for the time being. There were days and months he could pass without meeting me or talking to me. And then he would show up out of the blue , saying some stupid excuse. I trusted him. I kept on trusting him. I asked him to avoid Riri, which he said he was. And then i see his chats with Riri. I trusted him repeatedly.

I kept on searching for 1 out of 100 million reasons to stay. And he?
He kept on giving me 101 million reasons to leave.

I wish I hadn't almost left him that day. The word almost, is all i made the mistake about. Had i left him that day, had i not trusted his words, he definitely wouldn't have had the nerve to do this.