Next Morning...

Sidharth woke up early. He was very much excited to tell Sana about his feelings. But he was also a little bit tensed about her feelings. If she felt the same for him or not.

Sidharth's POV...

Aaj main usko baata ke hi rahunga that I love her. But paata nahi woh mujhse pyaar karti bhi hai yaa nahi. Kya paata woh abhi bhi Ajay se.... No no. Main itna negative kyu soch raha hoon? I'm sure uske dil mein Ajay ke liye abhi koi jagah nahi hai. Aur uska jawab chahe kuch bhi ho, I'll respect that.

Sidharth went to Sana's room. It was locked. Sidharth became puzzled.

"Sana room mein nahi hai? Magar itni subah subah kaha gayi hogi? Akele toh kabhi bahar nahi nikalti." He said in his mind and went to the reception.

Sana was not there also.

"Have you seen Ms. Shehnaaz Gill?" Sidharth asked the receptionist.

"She went out early morning." The receptionist replied.

"Okay."

Sidharth also went out and started looking for Sana.

He called Sana but she didn't pick up.

"Phone bhi nahi utha rahi. I hope zyada dur nahi gayi hogi. Aur agar gayi hogi toh? Itne bade seher mein kaha dhundunga usse?" He said in his mind.

He started asking the people on the road about Sana.

He showed Sana's photo to some people and they informed him that Sana went to the nearest church.

Sidharth entered the church and saw Sana praying in front of Jesus Christ.

After finishing her prayer, Sana stood up. She turned and saw Sidharth. She immediately wiped her tears.

Sidharth became worried seeing tears in Sana's eyes.

He went to her and asked, "Are you crying?"

Sana didn't reply.

Sidharth cupped her face and asked, "What happened Baby? You can tell me."

"Paata hai Sidharth, aaj Mummy Papa ki death anniversary hai. Mujhe unki bohut yaad aa rahi thi isliye yaaha chali aayi." Sana said with tearful eyes.

Now Sidharth understood the matter.

"Oh! I'm sorry." He said sadly.

"Aaj hi ke din Mummy Papa humesha ke liye mujhe chhor ke chale gaye the. I became an orphan. Main na Mummy Papa se bohut pyaar karti thi. Aur unhone mujhse waada bhi kiya tha ki woh mujhe kabhi chhor ke nahi jaayenge. Phir kyu unhone apna waada tod diya? Baata sakte ho Sidharth?"

Sidharth couldn't answer.

Sana smiled sadly and said, "Waise unki kya galti hai? Main aaj tak kisi aise insaan se mili hi nahi jinhone apna waada pura kiya ho. Kisi na kisi tarah woh mujhse dur ho hi jaate hai. Koi mere saath lifetime kyu nahi rehta?"

Sidharth's face immediately turned pale.

"Lifetime?" He asked.

"Haan Sidharth. Lifetime. Kya mera yeh maang na galat hai ki koi puri zindagi mere saath rahega? Mujhe chhor ke kabhi nahi jaayega. Life ke ups and downs mein mere saath khada rahega. Itna toh main maang hi sakti hoon na. It's not too much."

Sana became very emotional while saying all this.

On the other hand Sidharth was struggling with his own emotions.

After sometime he sighed and said, "Nahi Sana. Tumhara yeh maang na galat nahi hai. Aur tumhe ek din koi na koi zaroor milega jo puri zindagi tumhare saath rahega. Lekin uske liye tumhe pehle apni iss life ko accept karna padega."

"Matlab?" Sana asked.

"Yaad hai jab hum pehli baar mile the. Tum kya karne jaa rahi thi?"

Sana didn't answer and looked down.

"You were going to end your life. Because tum apni life se pyaar nahi paa rahi thi, khud se pyaar nahi kar paa rahi thi. Tum ruk gayi sirf apne wishes ki wajah se. Aur ab woh bhi khatam hone ko aaye hai. Ab kya irada hai tumhara?"

"Paata nahi." Sana said looking down.

Sidharth hold her hand and said, "Chalo mere saath. Main tumhe ek jagah le chalta hoon, jaha tumhe iss sawal ka jawab mil jayega."

Sana went with him.
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After Sometime...

Their cab stopped near an orphanage.

Sidharth and Sana came out of the cab.

"Tum mujhe yaaha kyu le ke aaye?" Sana asked looking at the orphanage.

Sidharth smiled and said, "Andar chalo. Paata chal jayega."

They entered the orphanage. And what Sana saw there, made her speechless.

It was an orphanage of differently abled children. Some were wheelchair bounded, some were blind, some were deaf and dumb while some were crippled. But each one of them were doing some extracurricular activities.

Sidharth smiled sadly and said, "Yeh orphanage unn bacchon ka khayal rakhta hai jinki koi naa koi special needs hai. 4 saal pehle Dad ke saath ek business trip pe yaaha aaya tha. Tab mujhe inn bacchon ke baare mein paata chala. Tab se har saal main iss orphanage mein aata hoon, inn bacchon se milne."

Sidharth paused for a while and pointed towards a little girl who was dancing.

"Woh Lisa hai. Woh janam se naa bol sakti hai naa kuch sun sakti hai. Bas ek dancing hi hai, jiske zariye woh apne emotions express karti hai."

Then he pointed towards a little boy who was playing harmonica.

"That's Chris. Usse dikhayi nahi deta. But jab bhi woh harmonica play karta hai, hum sab usse dekhte reh jaate hai."

Then he pointed towards a little girl who was drawing, sitting on a wheelchair.

"She is Sophie. She can't walk like us. Lekin wheelchair pe baith ke hi world ki no. 1 painter ban ke asmaan chune ka khwab dekhti hai woh."

Sana's eyes became watery seeing the children. In such a small age the pain they were bearing she couldn't even imagine. Still there was only one thing that was on their faces, smile.

"Inn sab mein ek chiz common hai. Inn sab ko unke apne hi parents ne yaaha chhor diya hai kyu ki yeh hum logo ki tarah normal nahi hai. Phir bhi inhone haar nahi maani. Kyu ki inko paata hai life kitni beautiful hai. Aur inke paas kya nahi hai yeh sochne ki jagah inke paas kya hai yeh soch kar yeh log khushi maanate hai."

Sidharth paused for a while and pointed towards a middle aged woman who was looking after the children.

"And she is sister Maria. Shaadi ke kuch saal baad inke husband se inka divorce ho gaya. Tab se inhone apni zindagi inn bacchon ke naam kardi."

Sidharth again paused for a while and said, "You must be wondering how they can smile in spite of having so much pain. Because Sana, they all have found their reasons to live. And now it's your turn. Apne jeene ki uss wajah ko dhundo Sana. Life is not so priceless that you will end it for any person. It's precious. Aur tumhari yeh life jaisi bhi hai, tumhe isse accept karna hoga. Iss mein se khushiyan dhund ni hogi, jeene ki wajah dhund ni hogi. Find your reason to live before it's too late. Kyu ki life ka koi bharosa nahi hota. Aaj jo tumhare saath hai, kaal nahi bhi ho sakta hai. Isliye itni zaldi apni life ko khatam mat hone do Sana. Jitna ho sake jee lo. Cause kaal kisi ne nahi dekha."

Saying that Sidharth joined the children. The children became very much excited seeing Sidharth and started playing with him.

An instant smile formed on Sana's face seeing their pure bond. She also joined them.

Har ghadi badal raha hai roop zindagi
Chaav hai kahhi hai dhoop zidnagi

While playing with the children, for a moment, Sana forgot all the tension of the world. There was a genuine smile on her face which Sidharth understood and smiled.

Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama, kal ho na ho

Soon the children too became fond of Sana. They took Sana and Sidharth to their activity room where there were many art and crafts made by the children.

Sana made a wow face seeing those. She also started making paper crafts with the children.

Har ghadi badal raha hai roop zindagi
Chaav hai kahhi hai dhoop zidnagi
Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama, kal ho na ho

While doing this, Sana's eyes fell on Sidharth who was teaching the children drawing.

She smiled at them.

Sana's POV...

Finally mujhe woh insaan mil hi gaya. Jo puri zindagi mere saath chalega. Main kabhi gir bhi gayi, toh woh mujhe sambhal lega, mujhe tutne nahi dega. Har muskil waqt mein woh mera haath pakad ke rakhega. Jis insaan ko main dhund rahi thi, woh toh mere paas hi tha. Mera Sidharth. Mere jeene ki wajah. Main tumse pyaar karti hoon Sidharth. Aur mujhe baki ki zindagi tumhare saath hi guzarni hai.

Chaahe jo tumhe poore dil se
Milta hai woh mushkil se
Aisa jo koi kahin hai
Bas vahi sabse hasin hai

Us haath ko tum thaam lo
Woh meherbaan kal ho na ho
Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama kal ho na ho

While painting, Sidharth got some colours on his face.

Sana immediately took out her hanky and went to him. She started wiping his face while looking deeply into his eyes. Now she was sure of her feelings.

Sidharth also looked at her with full of love in his eyes. Their faces were too close and hearts were beating fast.

Palko ke leke saaye
Paas koi jo aaye
Lakh sambhalo paagal dil ko
Dil dhadke hi jaaye

Suddenly something came to Sidharth's mind and he immediately moved away.

At first Sana became confused but then she thought it might be because of the children. So she also moved away.

Sidharth's POV...

Nahi Sana. Main tumhare kareeb aur nahi aa sakta. Nahi baata sakta tumhe ki main tumse pyaar karta hoon. Ek pal ke liye, main sab kuch bhul chuka tha. Lekin aaj tumne mujhe woh yaad dila diya. I can't destroy your life. Itna selfish nahi ho sakta main. Tum already bohut tut chuki ho, tumhe aur todne ki himmat nahi hai mujh mein. Humara koi future nahi hai Sana. I'm sorry.

Par sochlo is pal hai jo
Woh dastan kal ho na ho
Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama kal ho na ho
Har pal yahan jee bhar jiyo
Jo hai sama kal ho na ho
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Sana realised her feelings.

Will she confess now?

Why Sidharth changed his mind?

Stay tuned...

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