ACCEPTANCE
No. 2

I've loved you ever since I first held you near
More than five hundred ways, I can show you, my dear
But every time I would you suddenly disappear
What would fight down your five hundred fears?

I remember the night when I first met your parents,
I was nervous as ever in those first five hundred moments
But before I could rephrase my five hundredth sentence
You looked at me and I was calmed by your presence

In those early days, I was living only for you,
My heart beat five hundred million times every day for you, too
I didn't think about what five hundred more days could do,
To the person, I naively, falsely thought that I knew

Just a blink of an eye and you changed your way of thinking
Commanding a sinking boat, I gave into drinking
And when in the hurricane I was struggling with steering,
I abandoned our ship and got away while swimming

Five hundred miles I've traveled this year
Five hundred miles I've spent away, my dear
For five hundred nights it has been unclear,
If those five hundred words were truthfully sincere

It's been five hundred hours since we set straight our things
Five hundred steps we took back ever since
For five hundred days we've been sitting on this swing,
Of our irrational fears of what the future might bring

Today's the five hundredth time I've forgotten my name
It was the five hundredth time you used me as a game
But for the five hundredth time I look at you and say:
"Five hundred lies, but I still love you the same"

H.M. 2022. 06. 28.