DISILLUSIONMENT
No. 5

Hey baby, I see you got someone new,
Someone who for you is adequate to
I really hope you got deja vu,
When he took you to Park Avenue
Does he take you to seaside rendezvous?
To your expectations, does he live up to?
Or do you often say "I'm disappointed in you"?
Do you like playing with his heart, too?

He's probably everything I could never be
He has built his life so cleverly
He hasn't touched a goddamn drink
His regrets don't disfigure his skin
He's never meant you great jeopardy
I bet he doesn't waste your energy
He's most likely done what I could never reach,
What was it like to feel heavenly?

Was it the most wonderful night?
Was it better than mine by a landslide?
Yesterday night, you recall it, right?
I was holding you until the sunlight
You said "coup de théátre", 'cause it is quite,
Entertaining from your sight
You're encouraging our bullfight,
By looking at us irresistibly contrite

Don't you feel guilty, overall?
One day you're with me in the dance hall
Then you call it quits, first on the ball,
Just so next day you can drop my whole
I know he doesn't know it all
He's not even hypothetical
He's living his life behind a wall,
For how much time are you planning to stall?

H.M. 2022. 06. 24.