DENIAL
No. 4

Always been disturbing my peace,
Everything she's saying, remaining,
Poison underneath our sheets,
What for with my life I will be paying
How come all the streets I've spent my nights on before beggared our suites?
There's something I've been meaning to tell you tonight
The last kiss that I gave you, was my kiss goodbye

Now it's getting a little late,
Don't know if I do want to stay here
I'd never want to reiterate,
What once already ruined my last year
These memories of you and I, tell me, where can I obliterate?
The evanescence of your obscure shade and light,
I must find a way to make them an eternal deny

I shouldn't get used to our house,
Pictures adorning the walls, because,
Tomorrow she will fly out south,
Back to the walls and arms she belongs
Then why am I so terrified if these words will ever leave her mouth?
"I don't even know your name yet, lover boy,
But it's not even requisite to give it a try"

H.M. 2022. 07. 13.