Lisa, Jennie, and their dates were waiting outside my door at 10:40. I was meeting Jimin at the party. Lisa walked up to me.

" You sure clean up nice! This is my date, Baekhyun" Lisa said.
I smiled at the handsome boy. He looked cute for Lisa.

"And this is my date, V" Jennie said.
And yet again another handsome guy. I smiled at him as well.

Both Lisa and Jennie looked stunning. It wasn't formal, but they knew how to dress. Lisa looked cool, while Jennie looked sexy, and I looked....pretty

"Where's your date?" Beakhyun asked me

"Oh, I'm meeting him at the party." I said.

We all walked over to Jennie's car. There were just enough seats.

When we arrived at the party I started getting nervous. I'm not the wild type but this party was far from lame. It was something I never did. Party. Jennie would, and Lisa occasionally, but never me. Maybe because I needed it. Maybe because I needed to move on and quickly. But how am I suppose to do that if he is here?

Josh. Josh was the first one I saw when I went into the huge mansion. The whole house was booming to the beat and it was glowing inside. The lights were dimmed allowing the blue lights and glow in the dark items to shine. Through the mass of the party I spotted him instantly. He holding a red cup next to my ex best friend Lizzie. We wouldn't even have to talk about it. We were done as friends. I knew that from the posts. She threw it in my face and she knew it.

I caught myself walking over to him but I turned into the bathroom instead. There was a couple making out near the door so I had to push them. They couldn't hear me yelling excuse me over the loud music.

I looked into the mirror to give myself one last confidence boost. 'ok, you can do this. You look good.' most of the confidence came from my outfit and maekup. It's amazing how just changing your appearance boosts up your confidence in front of people. I tussled my freshly straightened hair and I smoothed out my tight shirt. I walked out of the bathroom way more confident than I went in pushing the couple over this time they went crashing to the floor. I ignored them and I walked right towards Josh.
Jimin split my path as he gave me a friendly wave. I couldn't believe I forgot about him and the plan.

"Hey!" I said

"Hey, having fun without me?" He teased.

"No way, I just got here." I said taking his arm and putting it around my shoulders. I don't know what I was thinking. So I'll blame it on the party vibes.

I knew he didn't know anything about my ex, but I needed to "bump" into Josh to show him my new look and new "boyfriend".

I ran into Josh arguing with Lizzie over a beer. He looked good; hair slicked back, white kackies  and plad shirt. Just how he looked when we dated, just more polished. It's due to the "new relationship". He still needed to impress Lizzie.

Seeing him made my heart drop to the floor. I missed him like crazy and I still had so many questions. I'm not so sure if should do this anymore, but I know I have to. If he is over me, he is over me. But is me showing him I am over him going to help my feelings? I was starting to sympathize and change my mind when Lizzie interrupted me.

"Hey! Oh my gosh Ape you look gorge." She said

April knew better not to call me Ape. It was a name given to me by my grandpa but when kids heard him call me that they started teasing me with that name. I resisted from glaring at her.

"Yeah, the girls and I had a little fun" I said keeping it together as much as I could bear.

"Look, sorry about Josh. He didn't tell you until a month later....so, um, glad that's past us! Now we can talk and hang out again kay?" She said.

My breath caught.  A month later.....past us.....talk and hang out again?!!!! Was she insane!! My face was getting red. I wanted to scream. Jimin rubbed my shoulders noticing something was wrong.

I forced a smile "Yeah no. But, this is my boyfriend Jimin" I realized I used the word 'boyfriend' to describe Jimin. I realized he didn't know this was fake. I realized I would killed by Lisa. All in that very second.

Jimin waved hi to them two, then left to get us drinks.

Josh hadn't said a word. And I hadn't looked at him, well, eye contact that is.

"Your boyfriend's a looker. I miss you three. You, Lisa, and Jennie. I have to talk to you guys." She insisted
She wasn't genuine. No matter how hard she tried. It always came out demanding.

I turned my attention to Josh. "A break up over text?? A four year relationship lead to a breakup over text." I told myself not to go there. But I did. I just couldn't help it.
He looked caught off guard."are you following me?" He said looking me up and down like I was trash.

I wanted to scream at him 'no' but technically I was. Jennie did look him up to see where he would be tonight and now here I am!
"Following you?!" I scoffed acting flabbergasted. "You wish I was following you! I've been busy with Jimin!"

"Jimin?" He asked

"Yes Jimin you id—" I held my temper.

"Yes Jimin." I said a lot calmer

"Oh Jimin, your fake boyfriend?"

My entire body lost all feeling.
"How did you—" I began. I was literally shaking

"Oh, Lizzie told me."

My eyes darted at Lizzie. I felt the hate burning underneath my irises.

"Well I figured he wasn't your real boyfriend. Because Jennie asked me where Josh would be tonight, you just broke up with him two days ago, and he is in my dance class, Jimin. Lisa wouldn't allow you to date her brother anyway." She said.

And to think she wanted to spend time with us.....I hated her with everything in me. I was humiliated. I was sweating and my stomach was turning like crazy.

Jimin came back with the drinks. I turned away from them and faced Jimin.

"Take me home" I said.

He looked surprised, then worried.
"You okay?" He asked

"No, take me home"

"Okay, whatever you like." He said kindly

I saw Jennie and Lisa dancing as I rushed out of the mansion. I grabbed a cake pop on the way out. Even though everything, they looked amazing.

He started up his car and I sat next to him in the front.
"Everything all right?" He asked concerned.

I couldn't answer but my tears answered for themselves. I didn't realize I was crying. I wasn't even sad! But I was mad. And now I felt pathetic. Again. He leaned over and wiped my cheeks with his soft, small hands.

He started driving and we didn't say a word until he arrived at my house.

"You sure you're okay?"

"No. But I'll be fine. I'm sorry, it's not you. Just some people I know."

He walked me to my door and gave me a hug and a kiss on the cheek. "I'll call you." He said while walking away.

On a normal day, I would be dying because he gave me a kiss on the cheek. But right now all I could think of was the night over and over and over again.

I ran to the trashcan in the kitchen and I threw up. It was the worst, I hadn't eaten anything since lunch and the bile burned my tongue. I looked for the pills. And I took a hand full. I pulled out a glass and forced them down. My face was wet with tears, my breath stunk of vomit, and my chest ached from crying. I wiped my mouth with the back of my hand when I heard the doorbell ring.

Who in the world could it be at 11:43 pm?! Catching me right in the middle of a breakdown too.....

I went to the door not in the mood for company. I looked through the peer hole and I couldn't make out who it was. It was too dark and our light outside didn't work. Another thing to fix before Monday.

I opened the door only to find Lizzie with an impatient expression.