I walked into the building thankful my class had been broken up into pairs to search around the aquarium. I could go in unnoticed and hopefully my tardiness wasn't counted. My friends probably covered for me.

The field trip wasn't for education, it was just for a break of school. We didn't need shaperones, we are eleventh graders afterall.

Devon walked up beside me "what the heck April?! Why did you get in that car with Jungkook?!"

He was so mad. And he was so loud. People were looking.

"He just... He wasn't trying anything, he was just being nice." I said.

He sighed "For our relationship to work, let's have only one rule."

I looked at him dumbfounded.

"If you want to stay with me, don't talk to Jungkook. You said you didn't like him. You guys aren't friends, so drop him for me babe."

I stared at him. I almost started to feel bad for Jungkook. He'd always helped me, he never actually did anything wrong. Devon and I shouldn't ruin Jungkook's and my relationship. I don't know if he's my friend, but he sure did look out for me.

Devon stared at me in anticipation. "Well? You could do without him."

I nodded my head. As much as I liked Jungkook I didn't want to ruin my relationship with Devon.

He wasn't supposed to be at the Aquarium but since I didn't have a partner he stayed.

We looked around and saw some fish until we got separated. The building was crowded and Devon was long gone.

I felt my phone buzz in my pocket. The caller ID read Devon but I let it ring. I needed to find Jungkook and apologize because I wouldn't talk to him infront of Devon. I knew it wasn't right, he helped me so much. But I was going to do it anyway.

I found him at the fish petting zoo area. A worker was explaining how we should pet the sea stars softly when I tapped on his shoulder.

"Thanks for giving me a ride today." I said dreading the next words I was going to say.

He smiled. "You're welcome. Where's Devon?" His face instantly lost the smile.

I sighed "that's what I came to talk about. Because of Devon's and my relationship being so new he would prefer us not to talk." I said quickly not looking at him.

He sighed. "The sea stars aren't as soft as they look." He said ignoring my statement.

I stared at him. "Jungkook."

"Hm?"

"Did you hear what I said?"

He nodded not giving me any specific reaction.

"Well I should go now." I said confused he didn't say anything. Nothing at all? Did he not even care?

I started to turn away but I felt him grab my wrist turning me around to face him.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"To....I'm going to Devon." I said.

He still held on to my wrist. His eyes were pleading me to stay. "But Devon doesn't love you like I do."

I gasped. Wait. What? I mean.....what?
I'm pretty sure I stared at him for five minutes.

"What?" I said, it coming out as a whisper.

He still held on to my wrist. His face looked sad as he pulled out a necklace from his pocket.

"I wanted you to be mine, April. But I waited till' I got back because you were going through so much. I didn't know you would run off with some street trash while I was gone."

He put the necklace back in his pocket. I guess that was for me. I felt like a jerk. Jungkook had feelings for me while I'd been abusing them this whole time. I knew it was true from how sad his eyes looked when I said I was dating or when Devon called me babe or when I said 'boyfriend'.

It was so much to process. I didn't even know how I felt about Jungkook. And to be honest, I didn't know how I felt about Devon either. Being in Jungkook's arms, then being in Devon's, it was a completely different feeling.

My phone buzzed in my pocket. I looked down breaking the tension. Once again, it was Devon.

Jungkook stared at me and waited. I hadn't given him a response, I just thought quietly to myself.

I looked up at Jungkook. "Sorry, I.... I should take this." I said.

He sighed then let go of my wrist. He turned his back to me facing the tank.

"Hey Devon what's up?"

"Where are you? We got separated. Are you by any chance with Jungkook?"

I looked at Jungkook's back. "Yes... But I was telling him what you told me earlier." I said quickly.

Even though Jungkook just said that, I still was in a relationship.

"Okay, it's almost lunch time. Meet me at the cafeteria." Devon said before hanging up.

I put my phone back into my pocket. "Jun- Jungkook. It's lunchtime. I'm going to get going." I said quietly. I wondered if he heard me.

I didn't technically let him down. It's just so much to think about. I can't quit a relationship just because Jungkook... Because Jungkook has feelings for me.

Love is a strong word and Jungkook didn't even date me. How is this even possible?

I started walking to the cafeteria. I turned around to see if he was coming and to my surprise he was. I sighed. My face was burning and I'm sure it showed. My heart was hammering against my chest. From being nervous about the news to his confession I was a wreck.

I stopped before walking into the cafeteria. I faced Jungkook. "I- I don't know about anything right now. I'm trying to figure things out. I'm in a.... Relationship with Devon so this is hard for me and-"

Jungkook sighed "I understand. You don't feel the same way about me. I can live with that. But please stop throwing your relationship with him in my face." He said walking past me. He didn't sound sad anymore he just sounded like he didn't care.

I swallowed. His words hit me hard. It's not like I didn't care about him....I just don't know what to do. Lisa and Jennie would.

I walked into the lunchroom and sat with my class. Devon sat beside me because my teacher didn't mind.

I sat down with my tray of food that was prepared for me.

"What's wrong babe? You looked dazed."

I shook my head. "Nothing." I wish he would stop calling me that. Not here, not infront of Jungkook.

I looked down at the end of the table. He was sitting by Jimin and Jhope. Jhope was trying to cheer the two boys up as they both looked disappointed.

I stared at the food. Did Jeon Jungkook really just say that he loved me? I must've been hearing things. He's never been attracted to me. But he did kiss me. Sincere or not it happend. And who am I to say he didn't mean it? I never thought of it in this way. I never would've guessed he liked me. Sure now that I know it all makes sense. It was as if it was something he didn't even need to say. As in something that's obvious, rhetorical.

He'd always look out for me. The first time I met him at Chili's he was flirtateous. Even when Yoongi said no for the job he still made it possible. Sure these could all be coincidences but they weren't. He wasn't "overreacting" when he found out I developed a small drinking problem, he was disappointed. That's why Rapmonster didn't kill Yoongi, but Jungkook tried. Two different types of rage. Two different types of love.

I had been the dumb one. Blind sighted the entire time. Even when he signed it off with a kiss; like a painting, I was looking at the signature and wondering who painted it. No wonder he was so hurt when I was cooing around Devon or throwing the word 'babe' back and forth like a ball. It hurt. Just like I was broken when Josh did it.

"You haven't touched your food." He said.

Lisa and Jennie we're sitting in front of me cringing watching Devon and I to see if we had couple chemistry. They did it for every guy I was interested, luckily it was only Josh at the time.

I nodded. I didn't want to talk to Devon. I wanted to run over to Jungkook and apologize for being a jerk. But that would only make things more complicated.

Devon took a sip of his soda. "Babe."

I flinched. Stop it.

"Can you say something to me? Did he not take it well?" He asked.

I exhaled. "He didn't care." I said. It was true. And I didn't care either. I was going to talk to Jungkook whenever I wanted. I would follow relationship rules like no cheating, no nudes, and no this and that. But Jungkook if my frie- ..... He's someone I care about so Devon was going to have to suck it up.

"Devon I'm sorry but he is my friend so I'm going to talk to him. If we have trust issues this early we probably won't work out." I said.

Devon's breath caught. I could tell. "Fine. You can talk to him. But it's not that I don't trust you, babe. I don't trust him. The way he looks at you, it makes me so mad. And I know he doesn't like me too."

I rolled my eyes. "At least he doesn't look at my butt like you do."

Devon was offended then mad again. I couldn't believe we were having this conversation infront of Lisa and Jennie.

"I ship them." I heard Jennie say.

Lisa looked at her "as if. I totally ship her with Jimin. I'm just kidding. I ship her with Jungkook. I feel like their connection is better."

Jennie scoffed. "What connection? She hates Jungkook."

Lisa rolled her eyes "No Jenny, she loathes him."

Jennie looked confused "hates him?"

"No. She hates him so much she loves him."

Jennie still looked confused "Lisa that doesn't make sense."

"Sure it does. Sometimes people hate someone so much they want to throw them off of a cliff, but then they want to rush down and save them."

Jennie stared blankly.

"You know the song Jennie. I hate you....I love you...I hate that I love you.. you want me and I won't do, with nobody else but you. I think that's how it goes."

Jennie scoffed. "Yeah you come up with the craziest stuff to support your ships.

Lisa smiled. "Of course. Twenty bucks on Jungkook."

Jennie laughed. "You're on. The same for Devon."

"I'm aloud to look at your butt babe. And I should be the one that's mad! I can't sleep with you unless I marry you! That sucks! No, you suck!" He said getting mad, and immature.

I crossed my arms, scoffed, and rolled my eyes at the same time. Attitude was the way to go. "And you swallow!"
I said getting up.

That left both girls giggling like hyenas.

I didn't have to deal with this. I headed over to the mermaid show. I needed some time alone. Devon was making me angry, and I felt horrible about Jungkook. I am just the worst with guys! Why is dating so difficult? I just wanted to be a happy girlfriend that does couple things with her boyfriend and had romantic evenings. Not sleeping with each other. I could fill up my social media with pictures of me and my boyfriend leaving other people commenting 'couple goals' making me smile. Going on picnics and beach walks during sunsets and to fairs and reading and listening to music together.

But no, I was here. Thinking of the "rule" Devon is upset I'm not abiding by. I hate quitters. But I felt like quitting on this relationship. I didn't know if I should stick it out or not. But I did know the way he acted was another red flag.