JIMIN's POV

A month later

After that horrible night, everyone moved in and stayed together in the dorms.

Though it was hard for all, we were still trying to overcome our pains. It has been a month now and yet we still end up in tears at times reminiscing him.

Without the maknae, the dorm felt icy cold and had a deadly silence in the air.

I didn't know about others much but it effected me the most and the worse. I started to have nightmares of him asking me to save him but then eventually falling of the bridge before I reached his hand.

I would frequently hallucinate to hear his laughs and voices here and there to an extent it has become normal for me now.

The regret of leaving him that night was eating up my soul with each passing day. I could now feel what Jungkook had gone through while regretting his move on Su Ah.

It was after a long time, I stepped out and went to the balcony of my room to actually feel the sun against my skin.
Others would try cheering me up and getting me out of the dorms to just hang out but that never happened. I isolated myself from everything even from happiness as if my hurt castled me from any ecstasy.

I was cut off from my thoughts with a ring in my phone which was kept on my bed inside.

I never missed any of my calls ever since that night. It was as if I learnt my lessons.

Going inside, I recieved the call seeing it from Aria.

She is now a trainee in YG entertainment and a member of a 5 membered girl group which is going to debut soon.

*Over the call*

ME : (-sounding normal-) Onh, Aria... Sorry I didn't call you last night.

ARIA : As long as you're good, it's okay.

ME : (-lying on my bed-) So, tell me. What are you doing?

ARIA : At a shoot. But, I called you to tell something really important.

ME : Hmm, what is it?

ARIA : Wait... (-after a few seconds-) I sent you a picture. Isn't that Yoongi Sunbaenim?

I sat up instantly and checked my inbox while being on the call.

It was indeed him.

ME : (-back to the call-) Where did you find him?

ARIA : We are shooting in the same area and as we were on a break, I noticed him and called you right away.

ME : You did great. Can you do me a favor?

ARIA : Sure, what is it?

ME : Can you follow him till I reach there?

ARIA : Okay, but you have to be quick. I don't have much time.

ME : Yes, I am leaving right now. Please, don't lose him.

ARIA : I won't. Come fast.

With that I hung up and rushed downstairs without changing. I ran into Taehyung in the hall who looked surprised to see me.

TH : Are you going somewhere?

ME : Yes, I will tell you later. I need to rush now.

TH : Onh, okay. Be careful.

I took the car keys from the hall and flashed out.

Aria messaged me the exact location and I drove there quick.

To tell about us, I didn't or maybe I just couldn't ask her out yet. I was also not sure what we had. We were definitely not just friends but we weren't dating either.

I felt bad that I was unable to give her the attention and care she deserved. Despite she never complained. I was grateful to have her in my life though we had a nameless relationship.

In fifteen minutes I reached there, but I couldn't see any of them so I called her.

*Over the call*

ME : Onh, where are you?

ARIA : Oppa, where are you right now?

ME : At the intersection.

ARIA : Alright, look around for a Salon next to an ice cream parlor.

It was just across the road where I halted my car.

ME : Yes, I can see that.

ARIA : There's a lane next to the Salon. Take that and you'll see me.

ME : Alright. Be on the phone.

I drove to that lane and moved in slowly looking around if I saw her.

After going in for awhile, I noticed her seated on a bench looking in my direction.

ME : Yes, I see you. (-hungs up-)

I accelerated and drove to her fast. Reaching her, I got off the car after parking it while she stood from the bench.

ME : (-going to her-) Where is he?

ARIA : (-pointing to a house in the hills-) He went in that house.

I looked at it and had a weird and strange feeling in my stomach. For some reason, I was nervous to meet him after so long.

The lane was deserted making sense as to why Suga hyung lived there.

ME : (-looking back at her-) Thank you so much.

ARIA : I just did what I was supposed to. If it weren't because of me you wouldn't have left Jungkook sunbae that night. (-looks down in guilt-)

ME : (-cupping her face to make her look at me-) It was not your fault. Don't feel guilty for something you haven't done.

ARIA : Then, why do you feel that way?

I fell silent and let go of her.

ARIA : Oppa, stop blaming yourself. It was not in your control. Hmm?

ME : (-smiles-) Thanks for your concern. But, I did make a mistake. I failed to understand him, failed to hear his calls. 

I was almost in tears as I got reminded of that night again.

Not wanting her to see them, I looked down moving away.

She came forward and cupped my face lifting it up. After looking at me for a while, she pulled my face down to hers and landed a kiss on my lips.

A foreign feeling that made my heart skip a beat rushed down my senses and I shut my eyes close with my tears escaping out.

I just wanted to get swayed away and be in that moment. But, I couldn't kiss her back feeling I didn't deserve her love being such a coward I was.

She pulled back and wiped my tears with her little fingers.

ARIA : Everything will be fine soon~

I nodded like a baby through sniffs trying not to cry again. I felt guarded by her presence even though I was this vulnerable when it should've been the other way around.

She was like my alpha queen and I adored her.

The words I was never able to sound to her and only prayed she already knew it.

ARIA : Now-...

She was cut off by a call in her cell. She saw the caller ID, made it go ring silently and looked up at me.

ARIA : It's my manager. I have to leave now. Have a good talk with Suga Sunbaenim.

ME : Onh. Thanks and take care.

She smiled with a nod and left by the lane while I looked back at the house.

Taking a deep breath I started climbing the way up.

Trying to calm my pounding heart, I rang the bell as I reached his house.

I heard a voice coming from the inside and I was now sure it was him.

YG : Who is it?

I didn't say anything thinking he won't open the door if he knew it was me.

YG : (-opening the door half way-) Who is it, I aske-

ME : Hyung, it's me! Jiminie.

I smiled but he didn't utter a word which made me think he might shut the door at me any moment. So, I tried to get myself in first.

ME : Can I come in?

He let the door open and went inside still without any verbs.

The house was a little messy. There were musical sheets, lyrics and photographs scattered on the couch and table.

After analyzing the house, my eyes went back to him. He was pouring a glass of water facing his back to me.

At first I thought, he would offer it to me but he drank it himself without bothering about hospitality.

Well, in our relation, no hospitality was required. We were a family. Atleast that was what I wanted to believe.

The next moment, I realized there was a pin drop silence in the entire house so, I tried to break it.

ME : Hyung, where have you been all these months?

YG : (-ignoring my question-) Why are you here? (-finally turning around to look at me-) Whatever it is, go back. I won't come with you. (-casually going to the couch-)

I felt catching a cold by his icy conduct.

ME : Hyung, were you doing good going away from us?

YG : (-sitting on the couch-) Yes, I was.

I wanted to believe it was a white lie but it was hard reading his poker face then.

ME : But not us. And especially Kookie.

YG : I don't care.

ME : (-pooling up tears-) How can you not? How can you not care, when he committed SUICIDE?

YG : . . .

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What will be his reaction?
Or Is he aware of it already?