ME : Are you okay?

She sat up with a light wince of struggle and figured her surroundings.

??? : Why am I here?

ME : You fainted earlier, so I brought you here.

??? : You must be really busy. I am really sorry to have bothered you, Namjoon-ssi.

ME : Wait, you knew me all these time?

??? : (-nervously-) Who doesn't know you in Korea? I am really sorry. (-bows-)

ME : It's alright. I wasn't busy anyways. You are good now?

??? : (-suddenly realizes and gets tensed-) What time is it?

ME : (-checking it-) It's 14 : 03.

??? : (-speaks to herself-) My part-time... (-rushes down the bed-)

ME : Wait, where are you going?

She took off her IV insertion easily as if she knew how it was done. In a rush, she took her belongings and ran outside.

I, having no other choice, chased her till I could stop her from running. We panted as we reached the lobby of the hospital with me finally blocking her way.

ME : Doctor asked you to rest. You can't just leave like th-

??? : (-tensed-) Please let me go. I am already late for my next part time. If I get anymore late they will cut off my salary.

ME : And what if you faint again? You should take care of yourself too.

??? : I will do it.

ME : Why on earth, it is so important for you to go to that part time job? Is money that bad of an obsession to you?

I noticed her eyes forming small tears but she had a straight face and answered me which numbed my ability to speak.

??? : You are not a medical student who can't pursue it further because his family went bankrupt. And you are not the only one to run his family at this point. So, you won't know what those part time jobs and money mean to me. (-intense stare-)

I couldn't sound my words, I just went entirely blank.

??? : You have everything you need, friends and co-workers in the form of a family, your fans to support you and the work that you actually love doing. So, make sure you never lose them.

Her words hit me hard, I felt a very small person in front of her.
She, pulling her tears back in, made her way out excusing me. I kept watching her fade as she ran outside till she was out of my view.

"Do I still have any of it?"

I remembered the night when I left the dorm with two crying members pleading me to stay.

A sence of regret ran all over my body. I realized I wasn't upset with them but I was with myself. I was disappointed in myself for not being able to keep us together.

In the next moment, while I walked out of the hospital and was wandering in the streets I found myself asking one question that had my inside to storm up.

"Will I find you all like destiny, again?"

I recalled all the moments, where I should've been better as a leader but I wasn't.

First, leaving them alone when I should've stuck with them. Second, not supporting Jungkook as I should have.

Worry of work got the best of me, making me harsh towards him not realizing that I was actually breaking our bond- the unity that had our work sustain all these time.

I ended up being the foe while trying to friend us together.

"Jungkook-ah, what shall I do now? I feel so sorry..."

JUNGKOOK's POV

Days and weeks went by and came the day when our break ended and PD-nim called us all to the agency.

There was still no news from Suga hyung nor others returned yet.

Only I and Jimin hyung were going to the agency today.

With everything done, I closed the door of my room and went downstairs to find Jimin hyung waiting for me while looking at his phone.

ME : Hyung!

JM : (-looking up at me-) Onh, Kookie. Listen, I need to drop by the dance institute now. I'll join you later. You can go to the agency alone, right?

ME : Yes, don't worry.

JM : You too. We will handle PD-nim. Just wait for me. Okay?

ME : (-nodding-) Okay.

With a smile, he tapped my shoulders and left the dorm.

"Here I go now, all alone again."

I decided not to lose my cheer and made my way to the agency with a cab as I was not in a mood to drive myself.

Ever since I woke today morning, I felt really low on energy without any good reasons.

Jimin hyung never let me skip my meals and I was taking sleeping pills for my fragmented sleep as well, so I wasn't sure why I felt that weak.

Reaching the agency, I noticed the same chaos it used to have. It was quite a long since I last came here, I felt nostalgic.

I somehow managed to go to our practice room to wait for Jimin hyung before meeting PD-nim.

While looking around the practice hall, a few memories flashed back forcing out a smile on my face.

It took no less time to make me end up in giggles reminiscing them. I missed those days- days when everything was imperfectly perfect and we were just so happy.

After about a fifteen minutes' wait, the door of the room opened. I turned my head expecting Jimin hyung but it was PD-nim.

He came in and sat on a chair in front of me while I was seated on the ground.

I greeted him with a bow as he looked at me calmly before speaking.

PD : I received calls from Jin and V about their flights being late. But, what about the rest? Why are you sitting here alone?

ME : I was waiting for Jimin hyung. He had some works. But, he said that he is gonna join shortly.

PD : Fine. And let's say RM and Hoseok too had their reasons. But, what about Suga? Where the hell is he?

I had no answer.

PD : We are unable to reach him for more than 2 months now. What the actual heck had happened between you all? I mean, I clearly remember saying you must resolve all your disputes in these two months, didn't I?

ME : (-looking down-) You did.

PD : Then where is the result, Jungkook? Why aren't you all present here? What on earth went so wrong that you grew so far apart? Kookie, put your personal issues aside and god damn bring them all to work! (-tries to calm himself down-)

"Jimin Hyung, where are you? I can handle him alone. Please come soon-"
I got cut off by the realization that it all started because of me. It felt selfish to be asking for him. I believed if I brought this to myself, I must also be the only one to endure it.

Thinking so, I closed my eyes and prepared myself for his next words.

PD : If you all are so busy with your individual life. Then, go shit your own way and end the contract. Disband!

His last word fell on my ears like a strike of a thunder storm to my whole body. My soul was thrembling even at this thought.

PD : Your previous contract was best. There was no freaking need to add more seven years to it. You all have just made everything worthless. Even your Armys' support and love that they showered on you. (-stomps up-) I pity those innocent people who invest so much in you all when you couldn't even respect that and stay put.

Those words felt like they were stabbing my already wounded heart, repeatedly. I never thought the way he expressed it but he wasn't wrong. I had seen our ARMYs constantly tweeting if we were all good and healthy. They kept posting their worries for us but we never replied to them or their questions.

I made us all indifferent to our Armys' feelings and worries who never expected anything but have always been showering us with their immense love and support regardlessly.

PD : Jeon Jungkook, I will tell once last time. Get everyone here or this is the end for all. (-storms out-)

I felt the practice room pressing me with suffocation with each passing second wanting to snatch my soul out of my body.

I managed to stand and left the agency with weak steps. I kept walking till my inner had peace.

However, it felt like there was no place in this entire big world to bring my small heart at ease in that moment.

Aimlessly, I reached an unknown less frequented street where someone bumped into me but I didn't have the least curiosity or energy to lift up my head and see who it was.

Pd-nim's words constantly haunted me. I thought whether it would really be the end of 'us' if we don't reunite.

Slowly, I reached a highway, it was also deserted having a strange coldness profounding the dark thoughts in a deeper shade.

I viewed the busy world from the railing with wind swirling softly around my ears and kissing my face.

Closing my eyes for a moment, I decided my next step on the lonely road that night.
It was too hard for me to bear now, I had no words to console my aching heart anymore.

Everything inside me felt empty and hollow. Screams echoed but none was heard.

I took out my phone and called Jimin hyung thinking I must talk to him once. However, I couldn't reach him as his cell was busy in a different line.

Giving up, I started recording a voice note to say the things I wanted to reach atleast someone though I had no listening ears.

ME : (-starting the voice recorder-) Do I...

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I have no words today. 😢😞

A.N : I might have 2 updates in this book every week where sunday update is fixed.

P.S. : My update schedule is given in "Description" chapter. Please refer to that.

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