(This is very long, I'm not even kidding. This is probably the longest imagine I've ever written.)

Ashton's Point of View

I sighed as I looked at my phone. I wanted to call her, I missed her, but this is all my fault. I'm the one who let go, when I should have held on tighter. I let her slip through my fingers like sand and I regret it so much.

I played with my bottom lip, debating on whether or not I should call her. I don't know why but I was scared. Maybe she's happier without me. Maybe she's glad I had let her go. Or maybe, just maybe, she missed me just as much as I missed her.

I sighed, and chose to call her later. It was only like three am, but I know her. She'd be up. She'd want to talk about anything and everything with someone. That's what we used to do when we were together. I would hold her in my arms and talk about everything and anything as we waited for the sun to appear.

I sighed and leaned back on the couch, remembering various moments of when we were together. When I had brought her up in an interview and they asked her more questions than they asked me. I remember how red her cheeks were and how she kept telling me she hated me, though I knew she loved me.

I remember that one time I was sick and couldn't perform and she stayed with me. She didn't care if she'd get sick too, she let me hold her. We talked about anything but the future. She always said that living in the future was the worst because you don't know what's gonna happen. It'll give you anxiety from anticipating things that may not even happen.

I also remember when she danced around in my kitchen. She had a bottle of wine in her hands while she danced around crazily in her underwear. Her make-up was smudged and her hair was messy, but she still looked beautiful.

Every night with her was like a holiday. She made me forget about the stess of being in a famous band. She made me forget about all the hate I would get via social media. She made me less nervous when we went on award shows or talk-shows. She always helped me the night before a big event happened. She helped me with my insecurities and so much more but it would take too much time to name them all.

We made so many promises, and yet so many of the were broken. I promised I'd never leave her, oh look, broken. She promised she'd never leaave me but I guess that was also partly my fault aswell. She wouldn't have had to leave if I didn't push her away.

We were the closest friends, closer than Michael and Luke. We were best friends before we were boyfriend/girlfriend. We didn't have to deal with keeping problems to ourselves or keeping secrets. We could tell each other anything and everything. We could joke around and know the limits to it. And I liked that. I missed that.

I missed her.

(Time skip to around 12pm)

I didn't call her, instead I got off my lazy ass and drove to her house. I was wearing the outfit I had when I first asked her out. Not the exact one because I have grown out of it, but the shirt and jeans and glasses were exact. Black skinny jeans, black vans, a grey 'My Little Pony' shirt, and my black rimmed glasses.

I stood on her porch, my hand centimeters away from the door. I knocked on her door and then waited what felt like years, when in reality it was just a minute or two. My heart was hammering against my chest and my lip was being bitten and pulled on by my teeth.

The door opened, and she stood there. Her eyes were puffy and her hair a mess. She wore a pair of pajama pants and what looked like one of the flannels she would always take from me. Her cheeks were tear stained and the flannel sleeves were wet with tears. And even now, she still looked beautiful to me.

"What're you doing here Ashton?" she asked me in a croaky voice as she eyed my outfit. I could see her gulp as new tears formed in her eyes.

"Don't cry," I said quickly, stepping up close to her. "Please (Y/n), don't cry." I said and she nodded. "I-I need to talk to you, that's why I'm here." I said and she looked up at me.

"Ashton," she started but I cut her off. A few tears slid down her cheeks and I placed my hand on her cheek and wiped them away with my thumb.

"Please just listen to me, I need to talk to you." I begged and it was silent for a few seconds. She nodded, making a huge smile appear on my face.

"(Y/n), I miss you." I said and before she could speak I cut her off. "I was an idiot for letting you go. I should have kept holding on and I don't know why, but I didn't. I pushed you away when all you wanted to do was be there for me. These last few weeks without you made me realize just how much I need you. They've been hell, (Y/n)."

"Ashton, I-I'm sorry. Have a g-good d-ay, and dr-drive safe." she said and I felt tears fill my eyes. She went to close the door but I pressed my palm against it, keeping it open.

"Please. We can start all over. I miss you and all the little things you do. From stealing my shirts, to trying to play my drums, to waking me up late at night to talk, even when you would be crazy and do whatever your heart desired. I miss feeling your lips against mine and I miss sleeping next to you." I said, feeling tears slid down my cheeks.

"Please, can't we go back to the way we were? We can start over and build into it like we did before. I need you. I need my best friend. I won't make the same mistake again, I promise. I won't break this one, I swear. Just please (Y/n), please." I said and she was silent.

"I'll even get down on my knees and beg you." I said, ignoring the fact I had tears streaming down my face and so did she. "Don't cry beautiful," I said and wiped them away with my thumb. Her lips pulled into a smile and suddenly, arms were being wrapped around me

She buried her head in my chest and I wrapped my arms around her aswell. "I missed you so much Ash. I missed my best friend. I missed cuddling with you and acting stupid. I missed your giggle and your hugs." she cried and I could feel my shirt getting wet.

"Promise me this won't happen again Ashton. That we won't break up over soemthing so stupid. That we will actually talk it out instead of taking the easiest way out." she pleaded and I nodded.

"Of course baby girl, I promise. And I swear this time I won't break it, I mean it." I said and she nodded. I bent down a bit and picked her up. "I missed you," I said for the millionth time and she chuckled.

"I missed you too," she said and placed her lips on mine. God, I've missed kissing her. Her soft lips against mine. The way it made my stomach explode with butterflies and made me forget about the world around us. It was like we were the only people on the Earth. No one else and nothing else mattered.

I walked inside of her house and shut the door behind us using my foot. I set her down and she stood up, looking at me. I lightly pressed her against the door and she chuckled. "I've also missed this," she said and I nodded.

"Same princess," I said and kissed her neck. She wrapped her arms around my shoulders and pulled me closer. "I love you so much."

I reached for the flannel and unbuttoned it using one hand. She slid kne hand down my chest and down to her side. I grabbed her hand in mine, intertwining our fingers and pinning her hand against the door. "Your flannel was there when you weren't," she said and I chuckled.

"I guess stealing my clothes came in handy," I said and she nodded. I pressed my forehead against hers as I kissed the tip of her nose. "But it needs to come off." I whisered and she nodded, agreeing with me.

I let her hand go and pulled the plaid shirt off of her, leaving her in red plaid pants and a black bra. "Let's take this to my room Ash," she said and I nodded. I wrapped my arms around her and she jumped.

I carried her to her room, careful not to trip and fall, or drop her. When we got in there, I opened the door, careful not to drop her. I shut the door with my foot and pressed her back against it. "I missed you," I said in between kisses.

Her soft laugh filled my ears and her arms stayed wrapped around my neck. I set her down, needing to take my shirt off. In moments like this, shirts irritate me. I need to feel her skin pressed up against mine. I needed to feel her hands run down my chest and her fingers hovering right over it, creating that cold shiver.

She unwrapped her arms from around my neck and I pulled the grey tank-top off, tossing it god knows where. Her hands undid my belt buckle and she slid them down slightly. I pulled them down the rest, before stepping out of them and kicking them aside.

I reached behind her and undid her bra clasp. I took it off of her and threw it behind me, not caring where it went or if it had hit anything. The only articles of clothing that was keeping us from skin against skin was her pants and my boxers.

"Have I ever told you how hot you look in glasses?" she asked and I chuckled. "Because damn,"

"Yeah," I said and she smiled. I leaned in and pressed my lips against her's. My hands slid down her sides and my thumbs went under the waistline of her pants.

I slid them down, the baggy article of clothing falling straight to the floor, leaving her in black underwear. "You're so beautiful," I mumbled against her lips, making her smile. I pulled down her underwear, leaving her fully naked in front of me.

I slid my hand down to her middle and ran my middle finger over her slit. A breathy moan escaped her lips and I pulled away from the kiss. I attached my lips on her collarbone and sucked on it a bit. Her hands ran through my hair, tugging slightly as I pushed my finger into her.

Her mouth fell open as I thrusted my finger into her, my thumb rubbing circles on her clit aswell. "A-Ashton," she moaned, and I bit my lip. God, her moans are so hot.

I detached my lips from her chest and pressed them against her lips for the millionth time. They're like a drug. Since I haven't had them in weeks, I needed them. I needed the feeling of her lips pressed against mine. I needed to make up for all those days we were apart from each other.

I curled my fingers up, and her mouth fell open as I moan escaped them. Her fingers were tangled in my hair as she lightly tugged on it and her moans were mumbled as I pressed my lips harder against hers.

"Ash, oh my god," she moaned after I had pulled away from the kiss. Her head was resting on the wall as she screwed her eyes shut and let breathy moans escape her lips.

I pressed my thumb down harder against her clit and she moaned out my name once again. "Ashton, I-I'm close baby." she moaned and I nodded.

"Cum whenever your ready princess." I said and she nodded. Her hands tugged a bit harder on my hair and her back arched off the wall. A loud moan fell from her lips as her walls clenched tightly around my fingers. She came all over my fingers, which I pulled out once she was finished.

I popped my two fingers in my mouth and stared straight at me. Her chest fell up and down quickly and little pants escaped her lips. I sucked my fingers clean, missing the way she tasted.

I pulled my fingers out of my mouth and set my hands on her waist. Her fingers played with the waistband of the boxers I was still wearing. "These need to come off," she said and I nodded.

"Then take them off me," I said. She pulled the black material down and I stepped out of them, kicking them aside just like how I did with my jeans. "Do you have a condom?" I asked and she nodded.

"In the drawers by the bed Ash," she said and I nodded. I quickly walked over, opened the drawer, and grabbed on. I ripped it open with my teeth and rolled it on as I walked back to her.

"Ready princess?" I asked as I positioned myself right at her entrance. One of her legs wrapped around me and then she nodded. I slowly pushed into her, careful not to move too fast. Once I had pushed myself fully into her, she spoke up.

"Give me a moment please," she gasped and I nodded. "O-Okay, you can't move now," she said after a little while.

I moved my hips back and forth, slowly thrusting into her. One of my hands were pressed agaisnt the wall and the other was rested on her waist.

"Fuck," I groaned out. "You're so tight," I said.

She didn't respond and just moaned. I pressed my lips against hers as I moved my hips. I kept it slow and deep, and she didn't seem to mind. Our foreheads pressed together and our noses bumbed each other. And it wasn't until now I had realized I just have my glasses on. 

Her nails scratched along my back, most likely leaving very bright lines against it. Her chest was pressed agaisnt mine and it was perfect. She broke the kiss, but our foreheads were still pressed against each other.

Moans escaped our lips and our breaths were on each other. "I love you (Y/n)," I said amd she returned it. Her eyes staring into my hazel ones.

I lifted her leg over my shoulder, slightly going a bit faster. Her moans got louder and her nails dug deeper. Her eyes were shut tightly and her head rested against the wall. "Ashton!" She had moaned extremely loud and I chuckled.

"Right there then," I said and aimed my thrusts towards that one particular spot. Her moans were loud and usually my name rather than profanities and 'oh my god's.

I felt myself getting close, and I knew she was too. The way her eyes were shut tighter than usual and her moans got a bit louder. "I'm so cl-close Ashton. Oh god," she moaned.

"Wait (Y/n), I am too." I said and she nodded. All it took was a few more thrusts before I knew I couldn't hold it. "Now," I said and she nodded.

A loud throaty groan and yell of my name filled the room as we both came. Soon after heavy breathing and pants could be heard. "I love you Ash," she said and I smiled.

"I love you too (Y/n)," I said and she leaned in and kissed me.

This is way overdue, I'm sorry guys. I just haven't been feeling well and yeah. Hope you liked it and stay awesome. xx