'Good morning Jimin-ssi!!
Can we get breakfast at my
favourite place today?'

Said a message from the boy I'd been with the past three years.

'Sure baby.'

I sighed deeply after typing the reply,
and stood up from my chair.

I couldn't do this any longer.
I shouldn't!

After thousands of such message exchanges, our hearts had only grown closer by a centimeter.

At least from my side.

I always knew he wasn't the one,
he could never be the one.

Yet,
I gave him a false hope of love.

I felt incredible guilt creep up
the back of my neck.

At how reckless and inconsiderate I was being.

Jungkook..
I had been using this naiive boy
as nothing but a,

d i s t r a c t i o n

A distraction rom these unexplainable feelings,

A distraction from my self created troubles,

A distraction from this world.

Since when had I become so selfish?

My eyes fell back at the tea cup containing the drowned petal.

It was just like me.

I was drowning,
in my thoughts of negativity and insecurity,

While unknowingly affecting,
the people around me.