The next morning I feel like complete shit. My eyes were blood shot, I couldn't even swallow saliva without my throat hurting. I look down at my stomach and Mittens is fast sleep. I think he knew that I was hurting and wanted to keep me company. I grin to myself and pet his head. His eyes slowly open. Meow. I pull him into my arms and sit up.

"You're the only man in my life.. You know that right?" I ask quietly. Meow. I mindlessly pet his soft fur. I was surprised that I didn't want to cry anymore. Maybe because I stayed up until two in the morning crying. I'm dried out.

This was my first real heart break, and it sucked. I had to keep my mind off of it. I stand up and walk over to my dresser. Maybe going out to the mall would be better, with all the people and irresistible sales it would help.

**

None of this helped at all. The mall was a horrible idea. Every store I went to there was his merchandize for his mixtape Agust D. All his painted faces plastered on shirts felt as if he was staring into my soul making sure I'm broken.

I stop in front if one of the racks. His eyes looked dreamy, like they always were. "Oh my Gosh!!" I hear a girl and her friend scream and they runs over to the rack I'm at. "Yah! Mina! Did you hear Yoongi is with Jennie from Black Pink!? They announced it today!"

My heart stops in my chest. "Omg! Really!? I totally ship them! Sugnnie!" The girl whose apparently Mina, screeches. "Yes! Sugnnie!" Her friend screeches back. They grab a shirt each and run off to the next rack with more shirts. I stand there and stare at his face on the shirt in front of me. I feel my eyes water. So this is why he left me.. This is why he hurt me. To have another girl. Her name was Jennie? Her name was exactly the same name as the girl from high school.

I was anxious to find out who this girl was. I don't buy anything and head out of the mall, not wanting to be there any longer. As I step out of the mall I hear a loud crack from the sky. I look up and realized that the white fluffly clouds from when I first arrived were now dark and thick.

As I walk to my car the rain right away starts to pour. My hair gets weighed down by the water. I pull out my keys and unlock my car. I flop into my car and head home.

When I finally get home I don't care about my wet clothes, or if I'd get sick because of it. I right away rush to my room and grab my lap top. I set it on the bed so it won't get ruined. Her name was Jennie. But what group was she in?? I only remember black.. Something black.

I type in Jennie from black and right away comes up Jennie from black pink and I click it. My eyes widen, this was her. It was exactly her, the girl that I went to high school with. She's a Kpop idol just like Yoongi. I bite my lip, of course I wondered what exactly was the reason for this.

**

Yoongi's POV

I had just dropped off Liz at her housr after breakfast. I can't stop thinking about last night, and thus morning how I couldn't control myself when I touched her soft skin. I try not to think about it too much as I walk into the recording studio, ready to record the rest of Agust D.

Yet I'm completely surprised just to see m manager here. He's sitting back in a big office chair near the equipment with his leg propped over the other. His fingers intertwined as his hands sat on his knee. His face was serious. "Sit." Is a he says as he nods to the other office chair near me.

I'm hesitant but I sit down anyways. "Don't you think I deserve an apology?" He starts off. My heart starts to race with the anger roaring inside me. How dare he expect a apology? I just sit there and try not to look as pissed as I actually am. "No? I don't get one?" He asks. "I'm just here to record my mixtape okay. I don't want anymore problems." I say surprisingly calm. He let's out a laugh and I'm afraid that shit is about to get down. For the worse.

"Oh Min Yoongi." He let's down his foot and leans towards me. "This is far from over. You see.. If you don't want anything to happen to your.. That girl. You'll do as I say." He smiles. I just stare at him. "See. You make it seem like you're so fearless. When really. You're still a little boy scared of real men." He shrugs. "That the fuck do you want?" I ask, ignoring his insult.

His smile becomes crooked. "You're breaking up with her of course." He leans back bit a smirk. My heart stops. He wouldn't. "But-", "No buts Yoongi. You're doing as I say, you're breaking up with her. And we're.. I'm getting you better publicity. You'll be golden once its done." My eyebrows knit. "GOLDEN!?" I scream gripping the plastic arms of the chair.

"You're controlling my life!" ," Because that's my job!" He yells back. "So where does it say on my contract that you get to make my personal decisions?" I ask. He doesn't seem fazed. "Look Min Yoongi. I don't give a flying shit what that girl means to you, okay? I'm just trying to ger you to the top." He nods. "So your pay check is bigger right?" He roles his eyes.

"If you don't do this I swear on my mothers grave that I'll ruin her life for good." I smack my hand on my chair. "You can't do that!!" I yell. He just smiles. "But oh how I can." My lips part in disbelief. "Just one statement about her using you for fame and your fans will set that bitch on fire." He chuckles. "Believe me when I say this Yoongi. It'll only get worse if you continue to keep her around. She's a snob and a distraction." He shakes his head.

"As a matter a fact she's no good. I can find you a girl, an actual Korean famous girl, and you'll be straight up popping up through the roof." ,"Never." I say. He smirks. "Oh is that so." He looks down at his nails. "So you'll leave Big Hit. Your life will be ruined. For sure hers will be too.. And you'll both be homeless bums." He raised his eyebrows and looks up at me. "No one would hire you, and I'll make sure of it." He nods.

"So you go with your little piece if trash girl, have you both lower than dog shit.. Or dump her and save her from being wriped apart by your fans." He smiles. "Or even worse."

I needed to keep her safe, even if it meant I was a slave for a man who shouldn't even be working for this company. It hurt me so much to imagine how she'd be when I break her heart. I don't know how I'd do it.. It kills me.

**

I slowly walk up to her door, I take a deep breath before knocking. I hear her foots steps and I feel my elevating breath become uncontrollable. I brace myself, and she opens the door. My heart stops at her beautiful face, and how unaware she was of the reason why I was here.

"Yoongi." She greets cutely. I look at her for a second then instantly look away realizing I can't look her in the eyes. I sense her smile go away and I hate the feeling in my stomach. "Is something wrong? Do you want to come in and talk about it." She asks, she knew something was wrong, and that's what I loved about her. But since she could see through me I had to make it realistic, even if I'd have to cut my throat out right after, but it was to keep her safe... Even though I technically wasn't keeping her heart from harm. Her beating heart that I had promised myself I'd never break, but yet here I was. "No." I say trying to be cold about it. I hated how I was acting.

"Yoongi. What's wrong? Why are you talking to me like this?" She asks. I still can't even look at her. "Look, I just wanted to come over real quick and talk about us." I finally spit. "What about us? You could at least-" ," We're over." I say. Trying to get right to it so I couldn't have to be here any longer. Hearing my own heart breaking having to do this to the girl I love to death, this was certainly the death of me..

"What?" She asked, my heart pounding. I finally have the guts to look at her, "We're over." I say again, the second time those words left my lips it hurt me even more. "Why? What-"," Look Elizabeth.." I try my best not to stumble with my words. "I just feel like it was a mistake. Everything about us was a mistake." I don't like my words, but I kept telling myself in my head that it was to keep her safe. Even if she was going to hate me to death. I'd at least want her safe then harmed.

I see her eyes watering. "B-but.. You confessed and-" ,"That's before I realized that it was wrong." I say, my words burning my throat because these were all lies. "So last night.." She says. "What was that? Huh? This morning?" I try to have no expression. "It was nothing to me." Lies. Lies. It meant everything to me. I say shaking head. "So I was your way out of getting out of being a 25 year old virgin?" She asks, I hated the words that left her lips. It was all a lie. "So.. What happened to 'I love you so much Elizabeth. So much. And its not just because of tonight. I've loved you all my life. And I'll never stop loving you.' What does that mean to you? Nothing?" I ask. I can't say anything.

I hated this much. This person who she thought I was, isn't who I actually am. The real Yoongi is hiding behind this monster I had to become to keep her safe. Because I'm madly in love with her. "I don't understand Yoongi. You confess to me that you love me. Stand up for me. Make love to me, or what ever you call that. Since obviously this isn't love to you." I feel my throat soring, I wanted to tell her everything. "I love you Yoongi.. So much it's killing me to stand here in front of you and hear you say words I wouldn't have thought you'd be capable of saying." I wanted to break down in front of her because if her words. "I thought you loved me... I thought that our friendship at least meant something to you. Maybe enough to think twice about your choice in words and way of dealing with this." I do love you. I do care about our friendship.

"But I give you points on having the guts on telling me in person other then over text." Our eyes meet. I wanted so bad to wipe her tears that wanted to fall. To kiss her pink lips, to feel her skin, not like how I did last night and this morning.. But to hug her. To pull her close and never let her go. I wish that it was simple and her safety wasn't in the line.

"And I'm gonna hate myself for what will become of me once you leave my door step." My heart shatters in my chest. I try my best to stop myself from letting tears build up in my eyes. "You don't love me do you?" She asks. So much how I wanted to say, "I love you so much Elizabeth. So much that I'd sacrifice my freedom for yours. My heart will forever quicken for you. And standing in front of you right now, it breaks me like I've never thought I'd be broken before."

I can't say anything. "So this has nothing to do with your manager?" Yes. Its him. Don't believe what I say. See though me. "Of course not. I got mad at him for no reason, he actually made me realize that if I keep you around I'll continue to have bad publicity. And honestly, my career is much more important than-","Than me." Never.

I needed to be out of here before I become who I never wanted her to see me as... Broken. "So I should go.. I have to work on my new mixtape." I shrug, trying to find a way to slow down my heart rate. Or maybe a way to put all the pieces back together. "Yeah. Have fun with that." She sounded broken, because that's what she was. And it was because if me.

I turned his back to her, my eyes watering. I didn't want it to be obvious. It was the only thing I could think about hiding my face. "Bye." I love you so much.. I'm sorry that I had to do this. I walk down her door step that now had to be a memory. I was down her sidewalk, and to my car.

I wipe my tears with the back of my hand. I get into my car, unable to control myself. Loud screams leave my lips as I pound my fists against my steering wheel. Causing the horn to go off a couple of times. Many people stared as they passed, I didn't care. I say there for a while crying my eyes out.

How was I going to get through life without her?

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Well. There it is guys. The explanation.

It hurt my heart to write this. Poor Yoongi.

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Hope you enjoyed. It wasn't tear worthy but hopefully later on in the book I can get those water works coming ;)

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