The Darker Side Of The Moon
Book 4 of The Black Moon series
Chapter 19: Cutie

Monday 6 July 2015

Muffled screams and loud voices are coming up from above the ceiling.

Fuck! Is this what I think it is?

Tears.

Tears are pooling my eyes as I lie on this bed where Timmy died almost four months ago. My wrists and ankles are tied to each corner of the bedframe, I am spread-eagled and stark naked. The only things that my body bears are those leather restraints, the chastity cage and the big ball gag in my mouth. This has been my condition for the past two weeks, ever since my failed suicide attempt.

Because yeah, sadly, that jerk of Fabio managed to save my life.

The door of the basement is flung open. "... so that he doesn't blow out my eardrums!!" I hear Fabio scream before heavy footsteps start going down the staircase and the muffled screams amplify.

More tears.

More tears are now flooding my face and I really have a hard time suppressing my whimpers despite the gag.

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

So they really made it!

Andrei's promise was for real and he got me a new companion to replace Timmy. I just can't help my sobs and I hope they won't hear me. I promised I would behave and I well intend to respect that. Too many lives are depending on me and my behavior, so I will take it upon me and try my best.

* * *

Life is hell.

Life is worse than hell, I believe.

In all the stories I read or heard about hell, Satan was never as evil as Andrei is. That man is worse than the devil himself. When I regained consciousness after I had opened my veins on my left wrist, he was there beside me, sitting on this bed. I was in the same position as I am now, except that gauze was sticking out of the restraints and I wasn't gagged. As soon as I opened my eyes and saw him there, everything became clear in my mind. I immediately remembered his last visit, the promise of a new pet, the rough fucking, the pain, then my attempt at ending my life.

I was expecting him to go all sadist on me, in the physically violent sense of the term. I thought he was going to burst out in anger and whip me until I'd lose consciousness again. But he didn't do that at all. He remained very calm and quiet for the longest time.

That caught me off guard and his silence was much worse than a loud shouting in the end. He just kept staring down at me, almost with adoration in his eyes, but I could still decipher the tension in his body and that only worsened my fears. I was wondering what was going through his head, and I actually wish I had never known, but after maybe an hour, he suddenly felt the need to speak his mind.

Fabio sometimes has a sixth sense, Kitten. I don't know why. It just happens. Yesterday, shortly after I left, he felt something was wrong. He couldn't say what, he just felt it. So, he went downstairs to check up on you and thank God, he got there in time. Fabio saved you, Kitten, and I shall be eternally grateful to him for doing so. I just can't imagine if he had been only a few minutes later.

In the end, you didn't lose that much blood, but he got really scared. He did what was necessary to stop the blood from running, cleaned the cut, wrapped a bandage around your wrist and he did what he had to do. He took you back to bed and tied you up so that you wouldn't do another mistake. And then he called me. I've spent the night here watching you sleep, wondering what I should do with you.

How could you do this, Kitten?

Don't you think that losing Timmy was hard enough? Haven't you gathered yet how much I love my pets? You are so important to me, and much more than you could imagine. You have no idea of how proud of you I have been ever since you walked into my life and arrived here. You have been doing so well and I sincerely trusted you. Your little act upset me deeply... but as much as I would love to punish you through a long whipping, I won't do it. The fear of losing you has been enough to dampen my violent urges. It doesn't mean I won't discipline you, though. Physical pain could be the perfect sanction, but I have much more vicious ways to make sure you will NEVER EVER do that again.

At that moment, tears filled my eyes, my heart constricted, and I almost lost it. I knew what he meant by more vicious ways. However, as I could already picture Gary or Liam's lifeless bodies bathing in a pool of blood, my own body didn't react with the thrashing and yelling I would have expected. No, it just froze and while I continued to shed silent tears, I just listened to him exposing his plans.

I will never let you go, Kitten. You will forever be my sweet little Kitten. If you ever try something like this again, you can be sure that another man will have to pay for your mistake. And I'm sure you know who I am talking about. And then, if you ever manage to escape through death, Kitten, know that I will replace you. But I won't choose just anybody. No. I will make sure to get someone who will haunt you, even in death. You would never rest in peace. A cute little blonde head, for example...

Oh my God... Liam...

I should hope it will be enough to get you back to reason, Kitten. I need you here, not six feet underground. Think about your new companion who will be here in a few days. How do you think he will cope without your presence? Pet will need you and I count on you to help him like Timmy helped you in the beginning. I want you to support him, although things will happen a bit differently at first.

Until he arrives, you will be left tied up to this bed out of training hours and whenever you are alone. No more wandering in the basement. That should give you time to reflect on your misbehavior. By the time Pet joins us, I hope you will have gone back to the good Kitten you have always been. Also, it turns out that our sweet Pet is a rather fiery one, so things will go a bit differently for him for the first few weeks. He will first go through an isolation phase, until I get to see him in person. Fabio will settle him in your usual room while you will stay here. He must not know that he is not alone, so during all this time, you will have to remain utterly silent.

And once I am finally able to visit him, Fabio will introduce you. You will take care of him. You will prepare him for me. You will make him perfect. But all that will be in silence. This is going to be a new rule for the first few days. No talking. I want you to show him how subdued you are. Needless to say, if you disobey, the sanction will be severe. And you know what I mean by severe, Kitten, right?

Of course, I did know what he meant and there was no way I was going to take any risk. If he had wanted me to forget about my past life and Gary, it didn't work at all. My feelings for Gary are still the same after more than a year away from him and I think Andrei knows it. He knows that I would never allow anything to happen to the man I love and he just uses it as a means of pressure. An efficient one.

The next few days were just horrible. I had to deal with a bragging Fabio who would never stop reminding me how he saved my life, which completely redeemed him to his older brother. He just kept on boasting off all the time. The imminent arrival of my new companion also put him in an unbearable state of overexcitement. Part of my training was spent on hammering the rules in my head for hours, as if Andrei's threats were not enough.

On my side, I was left a totally depressed mess, brooding over miserable thoughts. My fate was here. I would never get out of this hell. There won't be any way out. And worst of all, a poor innocent soul was about to endure the same plight as mine. The picture Andrei had shown me kept dancing before my eyes. I could imagine this poor boy hanging around with his friends after school, having fun like any teenager should. Cute as he was, he must have had a girlfriend. Poor guy... he might not even be gay!

Days passed and I was starting to hope it would not happen in the end. Andrei had talked about a few days, but the guy still wasn't here. Maybe he went on vacation before Andrei was able to arrange his kidnapping? Maybe his parents moved to another state? I was really getting hopeful until today.

I shed silent tears as I hear the boy's muffled screams while the gorillas prepare him. This is just horrible. I know exactly what is passing through his head as I relive what I went through myself a little more than a year ago. I can feel his despair, the oppressing thought that he is caught and that there is no way out of here. I vaguely hear the conversation Fabio has with his brother over the phone and then they settle him in my former room before they leave. Hearing his sobs doesn't help my own distress, but unfortunately, there is nothing I can do for him right now.

* * *

Andrei had told me that the boy would first go through a phase of isolation, and it actually goes for the both of us. I have no idea how long this is going to last, but it seems like we are on an equal treatment. The following four days are probably among the longest of my entire life. They leave us in the dark all day long, and only visit us three times a day to feed us and use the restrooms.

Of course, they don't let me use those at the end of the corridor by the torture room because we would have to pass in front of the young boy. Either Bill or Will discreetly take me upstairs to do so while someone else is taking care of my new companion. These are the only moments I am allowed out of bed and to unwind my muscles.

The rest of the time, I am just left lying and tied up. The deafening silence is only broken by the boy's sobs at irregular intervals, and in these moments, I just try to keep mine at bay. From their visits, I understand that this young man is a little rebel and it seems like he makes their lives a bit more difficult. I could be delighted about it if it weren't for the fact that I sincerely fear for him. Fabio will probably report everything to Andrei and I'm afraid he might take it a bit hard on him when he eventually comes here, to show him who the boss is.

I have no clue about the boy's background and where he comes from, but I truly hope he will soon understand what kind of mess he is in. I will do my best to support him and comfort him, but I am scared it won't be so easy if he proves to be an unruly character. And just as a sign that I might be right, I suddenly hear some noises coming from further away in the basement. Noises that sound like a person doing efforts and then a muffled shout of victory before light footsteps echo in the corridor.

Oh my God! No! I can't believe they are using the same trick again! And the boy fell right into the trap. He must not try to go upstairs and escape! They are probably waiting for him to show up and this is going to get ugly. Tears start spilling from my eyes because I just don't know what to do. I am tied to the bed, but I could call out for him. I could try and convince him to stay, but that would reveal my presence here and Andrei will get his revenge on Gary. I can't help a little whimper that seems to make him hesitate, but not for long though.

What happens next is exactly as I expected. I hear shrieks coming from upstairs and soon enough, the screaming boy is brought back to the basement. I can no longer refrain my tears and sobs at the thought of the punishment he will have to endure. Thank God, his cries are louder than mine and I don't think the guards heard me. Poor boy has been gagged it seems as I can't understand who is calling for. Hours later, Fabio and the guards come back. Of course, that bastard had to rat on him to his brother and after he has warned him of the consequences of his little stunt, he stops by my own room. He makes me silently go upstairs to use the restrooms and takes me back down to feed me.

"He had to try..." he sighs in a low whisper as he brings another spoonful of soup to my lips.

I know better than to answer and just remain quiet.

"Andrei will teach him the hard way and hopefully he will learn his lesson well."

I feel nauseous at the image of the whip marking the innocent boy and really have a hard time finishing my dinner. I should have warned him. I feel so guilty.

"Lie back down, Kitten," Fabio then orders before he ties me up again and leans down to caress my cheeks. "This will soon be over, Kitten. My dear brother is visiting us tomorrow, so we will soon resume our old schedule. Sleep well, darling. I will need your help to prepare him tomorrow. I hope you're ready to behave!" he then adds with a smug smile before he leaves.

I hear the young boy promise he will behave and stop screaming, but it seems like the guards have gagged him again. I think he has realized someone else is sharing the basement with him because he tries to call out, but I don't answer. Confirming my presence wouldn't help him as long as I am restrained here and unable to provide any comfort. Besides, he eventually calms down, so I let myself drift to sleep.

* * *

The following morning, I am startled awake by Fabio's squeals as he heavily comes downstairs.

"Morning!!!!! It's time to wake up!!!! Come on, Pet. Wake up!!! Today is a big day!! It is the day!!!!" he squeaks before he walks into my room. Oh lord... He's wearing another of his awful suits, green this time with a yellow shirt and a blue tie. "Good morning, Kitten," he then whispers for my attention. "It's time for you to come on stage! My brother will be here in a couple of hours, so you need to prepare your new companion!" he adds, caressing my cheeks.

Oh my God... So this is it! Andrei is about to show up and I bet he's going to pull out a show of force to make sure the boy understands who he belongs to and what will happen every time he doesn't abide by his rules. I already feel a lump forming in my throat as I imagine what he is about to go through, but I must grab a hold of myself. I have to be strong for him because he will need my support afterwards. How am I going to do this?

"You'd better behave, Kitten. Andrei asked me to remind you of his threats..." he trails off in a whisper while he unties me from the bed and attaches a leash to my collar.

He doesn't need to say more than that. My body is already shivering with fright. I swallow my tears and prepare for my heart to break as he pulls on the leash and makes me follow him. Think about Gary, Jer. Do this for him! You don't want him hurt!!

"Pet!! I hope you're awake! It's time for you to meet someone!!!" he shouts as we walk into the corridor.

I hear the poor boy panicking and screaming through his gag as we get closer and closer, but it stops as soon as we walk into the room.

I want you to show him how subdued you are. Needless to say, if you disobey, the sanction will be severe. And you know what I mean by severe, Kitten, right? Andrei's words rehearse in my head, so I empty my mind of all other thoughts and keep my head lowered.

"Good morning, Pet! I would like you to meet Kitten. Kitten, this is Pet!!"

I hate that prideful tone in Fabio's voice, and once again, I will myself to look as subdued as possible, but I can't help my heart to swell when I peek up and catch sight of the cuteness lying on the small bed. I don't really pay attention to the fact that he is all tied up and spread-eagled or to his beautiful slender body with lean muscles or to the cock cage adorning his privates. I notice several scars on his inner biceps and thighs as well as on his lower belly, but what amazes me are his gorgeous features that now remind me of Timmy. They are so similar! How could I not pick up on that when I saw the picture Andrei showed me?

Sadness fills me right away. Not only for my lost friend but also for this poor boy who has been thrown into a world of horror. For crying out loud, he looks barely eighteen – and might even be less! He must be deeply frightened by this crazy environment, wondering what is going to happen to him. I mean... I was in the BDSM lifestyle when I got abducted, so when I first saw the torture room, I knew what all these instruments were for. This is probably not his case and I can't begin to imagine what he felt when they locked him into the chastity device.

And yet, he doesn't look scared right now.

His mouth is gaping open when our eyes lock, his face filled with bewilderment. He is like hypnotized when the two guards detach his restraints from the bed and make him sit on the edge before I am ordered to join him. Lowering my eyes again, I sit down beside him, feeling some sort of excitement coming from him. Once Fabio has given us two slices of bread each, he walks out of the room and I suddenly feel fingers brushing my right hand that was resting on the mattress. I fight the urge to hold him in my arms, and only briefly squeeze his hand, trying to convey waves of comfort, before I return it closer to my thighs.

Fabio soon comes back, urging us to hurry up finishing our breakfast and reminding us of some rules, and as soon as we're done, we are taken to the torture room, the little cutie held by the guards and Fabio leading me by the leash. What the hell is going on with him? Why is he using the leash today? Is that a way to display his authority on us? In any case, I just hate it. The poor boy begins to panic a little when he gets sat and tied up in the large leather armchair with stirrups, thrashing and screaming. I can't help a tear rolling down my face when I see how scared he is. He shouldn't be here. He shouldn't be about to experience this hell I have been in for over a year now.

After more threats from Fabio, he eventually calms down and while our three captors go make some arrangements in the bedroom, leaving us alone, I set to prepare everything I need to wax him. I already know how painful it's going to be for him, but I promise myself to make it as fast and smooth as possible. I test the wax, making sure it's not too hot, and turn to examine his body. I am surprised not to meet a jungle and that he seems to have shaved recently. At that age, you usually don't pay attention to that sort of details; some guys trim their pubic hair, but here it has been more than trimmed.

"Please detach me, we need to run..." he suddenly whispers in a very low voice and I just have time to put a finger on his lips for a few seconds, shaking my head to beg him to keep quiet. "What's your name?" he whispers again, so I put my finger back on his lips, throwing him an even more pleading look. He needs to understand that we will get in trouble if he doesn't shut up!

This time, he seems to get the message, so I set to work. Gosh! How I hate doing this to him, but I really don't have a choice. Timmy and I had gotten used to waxing each other but I know how painful it is in the beginning, so I try my best to make it bearable, applying my fingers on his skin right after I have pulled on the dry patch of wax and encouraging him with comforting looks and soft caresses. It seems to work but I can easily tell how much he is refraining on expressing his pain, especially when I reach more sensitive areas. Tears begin to flood his cheeks and I wipe them with the back of my hand, but I don't think they have anything to do with the sting provoked by the waxing.

Seeing how his eyes stare in emptiness, I believe he is losing himself in his thoughts and I don't know if I should bring him back to the here and now. I know how dangerous it can be to go into memories of the past because he needs to understand that there's no way out of here but at the same time, I know how good souvenirs can help sometimes.

Or maybe is it the embarrassment? I can't be sure, but the last part certainly won't help him if that's the case. Once Fabio has inspected my work, Will and Bill maintain him on all fours while I quickly remove the hair between his buttocks.

While Bill stays to keep an eye on us, Fabio and Will return to the bedroom and I lead him to the showers area. Standing behind him, I wash his hair and his body and I'm glad that he seems to relax a bit to the gentleness and affection I try to convey in my moves. He will definitely need that if my fears turn out right and Andrei visits us to punish him. I can't help a few tears escaping from my eyes at that thought, and I'm glad that he can't see them. Poor boy is certainly about to experience a rough whipping, but I hope they will let me soothe him the best I can afterwards.

"Be strong..." I whisper in his ear before I turn off the water tap.

Once we are both dry, Will leads us back to the bedroom and I'm glad to see that they have brought back the bed that Timmy and I used to share, which is a bit smaller than a queen size but still bigger than a single one. Whatever the size, I don't really care because that means I will be allowed to sleep with him already and comfort him with my cuddles later on.

I wait by the entrance of the room, with my head lowered while they take him to the left corner where I know the chains are. I don't need to look up to know that they must be tying him up, probably with an open-mouth gag, a spreader bar and putting the chastity device back on. I hear the boy protest and struggle, and this sends shivers through my body, but unfortunately, there is not much I can do about it and soon enough, I adopt a standing at display position as Fabio walks back to me.

He locks the collar back around my neck and leads me toward the foot of the bed where I drop to my knees on the floor, keeping them parted with my hands laced at the small of my back. He attaches the leash to the bed frame, which is more of a show than anything else since I could remove it myself, but he knows I won't since I am too scared to get Gary or any of my friends in trouble. Soon after, the three of them leave to go back upstairs and the long wait begins.

Since we are alone, I dare looking up at the boy. Exactly like I thought, his wrists are tied to the chain above his head and he is barely standing on the soles of his feet, with the spreader bar between his ankles. Despite the blindfold covering his eyes and the open-mouth gag, I can tell he is a very handsome teenager; really a cute one.

I decide that Cutie should be his name until I get to know his real one. Poor Cutie is not in a comfortable position and protests a lot, but his words remain unintelligible due to the gag that makes him drool.

I wish I could go and hug him. I wish I could go and soothe some of his worries away, but they might come back any minute and I can't even be sure they haven't left a camera or a microphone to test my obedience. If they did and see I don't behave, I know Andrei won't hesitate to put one of his threats into action and I can't afford that. I promise myself to support him as best as I can once this is over.

All too soon though, they are back, with Andrei as expected, and it takes all I have in me not to break into tears when I hear Cutie scream. I keep my eyes lowered but I can easily imagine that perverted bastard inspecting his body, like he did with mine, probing his entrance, pinching his nipples or running his disgusting paws all over his skin.

"Oh Pet... I have waited for this moment for so long and you're finally mine!" Andrei whispers. "All mine and your parents may rest in peace, now... PULL HIM DOWN! It's time to celebrate!"

His parents may rest in peace? What the fuck? Has he gotten his parents killed? Is he another boy that horrible parents sold in exchange of a favor, like it was Timmy's case? Poor Cutie loses it there and breaks into more tears as he is made to kneel on the floor. The sound of a zipper makes me shudder and I make sure to keep my eyes cast down as that motherfucker begins to fuck his face. I pray it won't last for too long and that the awful gagging noises will make him soon reach his release, which is exactly what Andrei tells him at some point, saying that he has been waiting for this moment for almost two years.

Oh my goodness!

Could he be the boy that Timmy once mentioned to me when he told me that before my abduction, Andrei had tried to kidnap another companion for him but that it failed? Could Cutie be so unlucky that he would cross his path twice in his life?

I make sure to keep my head lowered all the time, so that I can't see what is going on, but I can easily imagine from the sounds echoing in the room. Cutie apparently throws up after the deed and Fabio starts scolding him for that, until he gets pulled back in a standing position while sobbing and begging once the gag has been removed. I really wonder what passes through his head when he finally recovers his sight and discovers who is responsible for his abduction. Andrei is rather well-preserved for a man in his late forties, but his pale blue eyes are quite disturbing, almost scary. I can only imagine what Cutie must be feeling right now as he sees what the man he just blew looks like.

I can almost feel the bastard's hands running all over his body, as if they were on mine, because I did experience it with the same disgust. The only good news is that he won't stay here for very long as he mentions flying back to Seattle. I would love to tune him out, but it turns out that some of the words he says really catch my attention.

"Like I said, I already took great risks coming here today, but I just couldn't resist seeing my new little pet. Knowing that you were finally here in my half-brother's basement was too tempting. Understand! The last two years have been difficult for me... I thought I had lost you forever! What a nice surprise it was to meet you again in Chicago! That day must have been one of the most beautiful days of my life... well, at least until I learned you were finally mine of course.

"But I don't regret taking these risks. This little blowjob was highly worth taking them! The problem is that I am being watched and that I can't stay for very long. Even if they have been less obvious about it this time, I have noticed that man following me in Seattle and trust me, it required a lot of efforts to manage an escape out of my hotel without being seen this morning. I even had to fly under another name. But sadly, I have to go back and show up in order to avoid raising doubts. I cannot allow myself to repeat some mistakes and draw attention on me..."

I don't get the meaning of all his words, but I understand that he is being investigated and somehow, it warms my heart. He said he took big risks coming here today, so I pray that he made a wrong move and will soon get caught by whoever is watching him. My thinking suddenly gets interrupted as a pair of legs shows up in front of me.

"Come here, Kitten," Andrei says with his softest voice as he grabs the leash and makes me stand up.

I hate this sugary tone so badly, but I still find the strength to follow him to the Cutie.

"Kneel," he orders and I drop to my knees on the boy's right side. "You're such a good Kitten. I hope your new companion reaches the same perfection quickly, but I trust you to help him in this respect, just like Timmy helped you in your own time. Will you do this, Kitten?"

Ugh! Why did he have to mention Timmy now? Think about Gary... and Liam, Jer! Nothing can happen to them!

"Yes, Master; I will," I reply.

I don't know how I manage to convey such respect in my tone when all I want right now is to kill him. I guess the boy shivering next to me helps. Of course, I will help him! Timmy has always been so important to me! I wouldn't have survived all this if he hadn't been here for me and I want to provide Cutie with the same support I got from my late friend because he will need it.

"Good Kitten! I know that the last months have been very lonely for you... And I hope you will appreciate this new presence by your side. It took some time, but I am glad to say that the long wait is over. We will soon be able to resume our old habits. Do you like your new companion?"

"Yes, Master," I reply, unable to avoid the sadness in my voice this time.

What does he mean with do you like your new companion? He is handsome as hell but he fucking doesn't deserve to be here! He should be with his family and friends! Certainly not in this basement in the company of a psychopath who is going to treat him like a sex slave!

"Good Kitten! If you continue to do so, you might get a reward next weekend," Andrei coos.

I'd rather not imagine what kind of reward he is talking about, but if I judge by my memory, remembering how things happened with Timmy, I already know what he means, and I don't like it the slightest bit!

He then returns his attention to Cutie and begins to tell him about a few rules, informing him that he should forget about his previous life and that he will never get out of here. However, I have a feeling that things won't go so easy with this boy. I don't know if he is the kind to rebel, but as he apparently refuses to lower his eyes, Andrei strikes him harshly with a long-lash flogger on both his hips, hitting his privates at the same time. I just can't help a whimper, and yet another louder one when the third blow aims directly at his crotch. Despite the cock cage, it must have hurt awfully, and I can feel his pain reverberating through my own body, making me almost cower away.

I am surprised to hear Andrei mention masochistic tendencies, but I guess this has to do with all the scars I noticed on Cutie's body. He then tells him about basic rules, including that of silence and I assume he doesn't want us to tell each other about our pasts. I still hope I will be allowed to provide him with some advice and comforting words when he needs them. I know there are microphones hidden at various places in the basement, but Timmy and I always managed to dodge them. However, I well intend to respect the rules for now; at least until Cutie has proved subdued enough in order not to get us into deeper troubles.

I am horrified to hear Andrei threaten the poor boy's close relatives and friends if he doesn't submit to him. I can't believe he is using the same strategy as he did with me but at the same time, why wouldn't he? He knows how well it works and if Cutie had a few very close friends, Andrei knows all too well how he will want to protect them against him.

"As you will discover very quickly, you won't see me that often. This house is not mine, but my dear brother is kindly hosting you for me. I will visit mostly over the weekends to play a bit with my pets. The other thing is that I have a fetish for tight assholes..." Andrei explains and when I briefly peek up, I see the bastard's fingers fumbling at the crack of the boy's ass, making him whimper painfully.

I can't hear what Andrei tells him next but I sure wasn't expecting this reaction.

"Fuck you!!!!" Cutie yells and the next second, I feel a horrible sting as the lashes of the flogger harshly fall across my back. "Nooooooo!!! Please no!!!! I'm sorry!!! I apologize!!! Please leave him alone!!!" he screams and Andrei walks to stand in front of him while I try to contain my tears.

"I'm not sure I heard you well? What did you say, Pet?" the devil seethes through his teeth.

"I'm sorry..."

"Aaaaahhh, that's too bad but since you seemingly haven't listened to the rules, I'm afraid Kitten needs another..." he starts purring but Cutie interrupts him.

"I'm sorry... Master..." he painfully manages after a bit of hesitation.

I don't blame him the slightest bit for the blow I received because I can only imagine how guilty he must be feeling already. Once again, I have been there before, and I know how either Andrei or Fabio can use our respective guilt toward one another.

Cutie can't help sobbing more as Andrei then explains him how things work here; how he will be fucked once a month; how Fabio will be allowed to enjoy his body as much as he wants as long as he doesn't stretch his hole. All this has a horrifying air of dejà-vu for me and I deeply feel for the boy who is discovering what his life will soon end up like.

"Boss!!!! It's almost time!!!!" someone calls out from a distance and I guess it must be Vadim, Andrei's dog.

I don't know him very well since he usually stays upstairs when his boss visits here. I don't complain though, because the guy is scary as fuck. Even more than Will and Bill.

"Fuck! Okay, let's get this over with! Turn him around and gag him!" Andrei exclaims, and I let out another small whimper when Cutie is spun around and the spreader bar fixed to the D ring embedded in the floor, forbidding him to move.

I know what is going to happen next and despite his protest muffled by the ball gag which is put back into his mouth, Andrei orders me to go back by the bed. I can't decipher what the Sadist whispers in Cutie's ear but soon enough, the flogging begins. I wince and shudder at each of the strikes. The sound of the leather lashes licking the poor boy's body keep echoing in my ears and make more tears pool in my eyes. My muscles are itching to move and carry me to hurt Andrei in return, but I know I can't do that. That would get me into further trouble and I wouldn't be able to take care of Cutie afterward.

Sixty. That's the number of strikes that have been lashed out on him. I don't even dare looking up to see in what state he is. I can easily imagine and that doesn't make me feel any better. After more whispers in Cutie's ear, Andrei bids us goodbye and walks out. Fabio orders Will and Bill to detach the boy and lay him on the bed, saying that I know what I have to do with him and promising me to come back later to play with me.

Once he has left, I try to ignore the nauseating feelings overwhelming me. It's not only the prospect of having that jerk using me, but also the sight of this awfully streaked body lying on the bed now. While the guards remove the spreader bar and the gag, I go to the torture room to prepare everything I need to perform an intensive aftercare. When I return to the room, Bill and Will walk out to stand by the staircase and I lay a wet warm towel over the boy's back side to appease some of the pain before I apply a very greasy ointment on his skin.

The top of his back and his thighs are the worst, so I cautiously and heavily insist on these areas, humming at the same time to reassure him. I'm not sure I manage to convey much comfort though as his body soon begins to shiver and his breathing becomes extremely painful and heavy. Oh Gosh... I think he's starting a panic attack!

The only thing I can think of is how Timmy's cuddles used to soothe me, so I carefully lie down next to his bruised body, gently roll him to his side and pull him into my chest. I know that this won't be enough, but sadly, this is all I can give him for now. He would be better off with someone he really loves. I am not that someone, but I can at least try to bring him some comfort and this is what I do, shushing him and running my fingers through his beautiful dark hair.

His sobs eventually calm down and he slowly drifts to sleep, clinging to me.

I made it!

I managed to alleviate a bit of his pain and I feel so proud about it!

It's as if my life was a bit more important now; as if it was worth living it if I can provide comfort to Cutie. It's far from elation but I can imagine how Timmy felt when he was the one in my place. It suddenly gives me a bit of hope, however ridiculous it may sound. No hope for a way out but hope for a slightly more interesting life. After the last three months feeling so lonely without Timmy, I just can't help it.

Guilt soon seizes me, though. I am awfully selfish here! Is my life getting better worth that of another innocent soul being wrecked? Certainly not! This is not fair! This is sick!

Tears start spilling on my cheeks as I pull away to look at Cutie's face.

This name suits him perfectly because he's damn cute! His angel features are absolutely adorable. Such a waste to ruin this boy's life. Somehow, I already feel terribly attached to him and this is dangerous. I can't help worrying at how my heart is beating for that boy.

What if he dies like Timmy?

What if he abandons me?

I would never be able to survive another loss in my life.

Published on 29 January 2018

Now you've seen Noah's arrival through Jeremy's eyes and been explained how Jeremy could look so tamed to Noah. Threatening his closest friends was so easy for Andrei... Anyway, you already knew most of what happened in this chapter, but it still had to figure here I believe.

The next chapter is the last with Noah before he gets rescued and you'll finally see what happened after Andrei escaped with Jeremy.

This will be on Wednesday, because it's the end of daily updates... This week, I will update on Wednesday and Friday, so this is still three new chapters, and from next week, I'll get back to two updates a week, on Tuesdays and Saturdays. One reason is that by then Jeremy will be free, so it should be easier for you. Another is that I need to get back to rewriting I Was Shooting For The Moon, I Hit Two Stars and I'd like to post this new chapter this week. And finally, the next three to five months are going to be crazy busy because we're selling our house and buying a new one, which means a lot of packing, DIY and fun stuff like that! Anyway, have a good start to the week and see you on Wednesday!

Chronology: new dates are in bold

2009:

August 2009: Jeremy meets Aaron in a small club called the The Little Room (club that Aaron bought that same summer) (TDS Ch4)

Friday 20 November 2009: Jeremy is supposed to have is his first official night at the club, but fights with Devin (TDS Ch6)

Saturday 21 November 2009: First official night for Jer, and he also meets Gary for the first time (TDS Ch6)

2010:

Wednesday 1 September 2010: Jeremy fools around with Ed in the showers, and offered to attend a Dominant training (TDS Ch8)

Saturday 4 September 2010: Mark's last training session, and Gary offers a first contract to Jer (TDS Ch8)

Friday 24 September 2010: Jeremy has interview with Peter Finnigan, his future boss, and his parents announce their move to Minneapolis (TDS Ch10)

Saturday 25 September 2010: Night at the club, he speaks with Chris who is going to have a "punishment" threesome with Master Donovan and Harry. (TDS Ch10)

2011:

Thursday 25 August 2011: Gary announces his move to Asia to Jeremy (TDS Ch12)

Friday 16 September 2011: Gary moved to Asia (TDS Ch12)

Saturday 15 October 2011: Jeremy messes up, he's punished by Aaron, who advises him a contract with Master Siegfried (TDS Ch12)

Sometime October 2011: Jeremy played a scene with Camden

2012:

Wednesday 3 October 2012: Jeremy is turning 22, and receives a birthday card from Gary (TDS Ch14)

Friday 5 October 2012: The gangbang at the club (TDS Ch14)

2013:

Tuesday 8 October 2013: Noah's first abduction in Detroit and his escape during the car crash (TM Ch25)

Sunday 27 October 2013: Liam joins the lifestyle and meets Jeremy for the first time (IWG Ch29)

Saturday 2 November 2013: Andrei becomes a member of the club (IWG Ch32)

Saturday 23 November 2013: Andrei invites Jeremy for a drink the evening that Josh loses it after two Doms tried to get into Liam's pants (IWG Ch37)

Saturday 30 November 2013: Jeremy declines Andrei's offer, and this is Gary's return (TDS Ch16, IWG Ch39)

Friday 6 December 2013: Gary and Jeremy sign their new contract after Gary's return from Asia (IWG Ch39)

2014:

Friday 21 March 2014: Gary collars Jeremy at the club (IWG Ch44 and TDS Ch18)

Saturday 22 March 2014: Liam and Jeremy discover the marks on Chris' back further to a strong whipping the evening before (IWG Ch44)

Tuesday 25 March 2014: Gary and Jeremy have a little argument about the upcoming weekend (TDS Ch1)

Wednesday 26 March 2014: Jeremy's abduction (IWG Ch45/46 – TDS Ch1) and writing of the letter (TDS Ch3)

Thursday 27 March 2014: Introduction to Fabio and guards (TDS Ch5)

Friday 3 April 2014: Example of training and first time Fabio "entirely" abuses Jeremy; then, Jeremy's attempt to escape during the night (TDS Ch7)

Saturday 4 April 2014: Jeremy is punished by Andrei in the early evening, then Timmy arrives and takes care of him (TDS Ch9)

Sunday 5 April 2014: Jeremy really meets Timmy, and attends Timmy's "monthly intercourse" (TDS Ch9)

Saturday 19 April 2014: Andrei returns to the club after his one-month ban, and gets whipped in public (IWG Ch51)

Sunday 20 April 2014: Jeremy's "first time" with Andrei (TDS Ch11)

Thursday 7 August 2014: Shannon and Mark sign their contract (meaning he never met Gary or Jeremy, same for Alex since he joins in October 2014, or Noah since he became Cam's Sub in 2015)

Sunday 9 November 2014: Alex signs a contract with Mark and Shan

2015:

Friday 20 March 2015: Timmy has been sick for ten days, and he dies on the following day (TDS Ch13)

Thursday 31 March 2015: Noah becomes Camden's Sub (TM Ch38)

Sunday 5 April 2015: Chris signed a contract with Andrei (mentioned in TM Ch47)

Friday 17 April 2015: Noah becomes a certified member of the club (TM Ch46) and this is the evening that Chris makes a pact with the Devil. This is also the first time Chris gets to abuse Jeremy (TDS Ch15)

Saturday 18 April 2015: Noah is officially "introduced" to Andrei for the first time on the parking lot of the club (TM Ch47)

Saturday 20 June 2015: Noah's first public scene at the Black Diamond (TM Ch60)

Sunday 21 June 2015: Andrei's visit (without Chris) and Jeremy's suicide attempt (TDS Ch17)

Monday 22 June 2015: Andrei visited Jeremy after the failed suicide attempt (TDS Ch19)

Monday 6 July 2015: Noah's abduction (TM Ch62/64 TDS Ch19)

Saturday 11 July 2015: Noah is introduced to Jeremy for the first time before Andrei's first visit (TM Ch66 TDS Ch19)

Sunday 19 July 2015: Noah is rescued (TM Ch72-74)

Tuesday 25 August 2015: The infamous cliffhanger with Joshua's call (TM Ch84)