Chapter 16

I was fuming in anger, but I have to focus on my exams and it's frustrating. I finished my exam quickly as I intended to last an hour and a half, but only last for an hour. Wish ko lang ay nasagot ko ng tama iyong test questionnaire. Confident naman ako. I just need to get this out of my chest.

"You don't have to do this," Ruth said. "Just let it go... 'wag mo na hayaang madamay ka pa."

Natigil ako sa paglalakad saka ko siya nilingon. "Nadamay na ako, e. So, I have to make a move. Akala ko tuluyan nang nagbago 'yon. Pakitang tao lang din pala."

"Kaya nga, just let it go..." mahinahon nitong tugon. "Ikaw na nagsabi na ayaw mo ng stress pero ikaw 'tong naghahabol sa stress. So, we won't be going to the football game na. Ibebenta ko na lang 'yong ticket natin."

"Don't."

"Anong don't?" taka niyang tanong.

"Basta."

Napasinghal naman ito. "Okay. Kumalma ka na muna. Punta muna tayo sa coffee shop and let's get some coffee para naman mapagaan 'yang heart and mind mo. 'Wag ka magpapadala sa stress, gaga ka. Exam na exam,e ."

I took a deep breath. "Okay, let's get some coffee..."

Pumunta kami sa coffee shop malapit sa campus. Ruth offered to buy the drinks. Naupo na kaagad ako at huminga nang malalim. The aroma of the coffee inside the premises eventually helps to soothe myself. Pagbalik ni Ruth, inabot niya sa akin 'yong drink.

"So, tell me," panimula ni Ruth.

"Tell you what?"

"Tell me what happened from the start," she aid. "You wouldn't come at Bryce like that and be brave enough to get on him like that kung walang nangyari. May mga hindi ako alam na nangyari, 'no? And that's fine, kung ready ka naman na i-kwento sa akin 'yon, go for it."

"Okay," tipid kong sagot. I sip on my coffee first before telling it to her.

I told everything to Ruth. She was a good listener though. And remembering all those things that happened, hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na hinayaan kong gawin niya sa akin iyon. I told Ruth that gave Bryce a head. She wasn't surprise, obviously, but at that moment, I know I made the wrong decision for myself.

Knowing that it happened and how it resulted, I shouldn't have agreed with him in the first place. I shouldn't have helped someone who won't be true to his words. Well, sino nga ba ako para panindigan niya 'yong mga sinabi niya sa akin?

Well, I'm someone who helps him finish his last semester and graduate, and if without my help, he'll have to do the semester again and be suck at it. But he won't, so I'll thank myself for that.

He thank me by spewing his cum on me.

"Bakit ka rin naman kasi bumigay?"

"Duh? Hindi ko rin talaga alam!" sagot ko sa kanya. "I know I have choices to make that time."

"E, bakit hindi mo ginawa? Kasi nafa-fall ka sa kanya?"

Kumunot ang noo ko saka ako umiling sa kanya. "Hindi rin."

"Weh? 'Yong totoo."

"Fine," saad ko na may kasamang pag-irap. "Hindi totally fall. Somehow, sa tuwing magkakausap kami o magkasama, I somehow develop something there. Hindi ko alam, basta, para bang naaalis 'yong inis ko sa kanya. He's getting an eye candy to me and all. Mas lalo siyang nagiging yummy when he listens to me. It's like I washed out all those bad things about him just because of the things he was showing to me. He made me feel so vulnerable, Ruth. That's why it happened..."

"You made yourself vulnerable as well," Ruth said. "Pero, please, 'wag ka nang gumawa ng kung anong gusto mong gawin sa kanya. Let it pass. Baka makaapekto pa sa records mo."

"Hm... but I've got something..."

Tumaas ang kilay ni Ruth. "And ano naman 'yon?"

"The No To Homophobe Project," ngisi ko pa.

"That sounds good... pero ano namang gagawin mo?"

I was only thinking of an easy way, but then I saw the perfect opportunity to do it the easiest way. Nakita ko si Leslie na pumasok ng coffee shop. We're not close and I'm sure she's not interested to talk to me or whatever, but I took the chance on calling her attention while she's waiting for her drink.

"Hello," she said in a very sweet tone plastering a smile on her small face. 

"I know you don't know me," I started. "But I just wanted to tell you something about Bryce."

"Oh... sure? Why?"

"You're dating him, right?"

"Uh, we're not dating yet..." she answered. "I'm not even sure where we are right now. Why do you asked though? And what are you gonna tell me?"

"He's gay," I told Leslie straightforward.

Halata namang nagulat siya sa sinabi ko at parang hindi pa naniniwala dahil tinawanan niya lang iyon in the end.

"No, you must be joking," she said, shaking her head just to ignore that thought.

"Well, that's what you know, but the reason he's so mad about gay people because he couldn't be true to himself. He acted like a straight man so people wouldn't judge him. So, he's doing all those nasty things because he was jealous. He's gay and that's the truth."

She creased her forehead, she is in shock, trying not to believe in every word I said. "Why are you saying that?"

"Because he let me suck him," I told her.

"Huh?"

"Yup, you heard it right," I said with a serious face so she would believe it. Well, it's the truth that it happened, but she's not getting it. "I gave him a blowjob and he likes it. So, if you're gonna date him, make sure he's not fucking a boy somewhere else."

Nanlaki ang mata niya.

"You don't know what you're saying..."

"I can prove it," I said, taking my phone out and showing the photo right in front of her face what happened between me and Bryce. "See? I'm not lying."

She was left dumbfounded. She swallowed and blinked a few times and then she just left us saying nothing anymore. 

Ruth looked at me. "So... was that it?"

I shrugged off. "Well, I've got the other plan... but that made my work easy so well... so I guess, we just need to see what will happen next."

"Exciting!" Ruth exclaimed. "Now, it's his game to lose."

"Bet it is..."