O'shea POV

I hopped out my car and closed the door behind me before I walked up Alex's drive way to her front door to see her already standing in it, wearing a fitted baby doll t-shirt and a pair of flannel love pink pajama shorts with her hair in a messy bun.

"Are you okay? You didn't even tell me you was on your way?"

"I just came here cause it was the first place that popped in my head. My head is all fucked up right now Alex.", I said as I walked passed her and started walking up stairs to her room, then plopping down on her bed.

"What's going on? Talk to me." Alex said as she appeared in the bedroom doorway. She climbed up on the bed, sitting on her right leg as the left one dangled off the bed. Half Indian styled.

"I pulled up to E'mani and I house and I seen that nigga Keith and her in the door way. I was going there to talk to her about us working things out and he was there. He was feeling all up on her and she was cheesing all in this nigga face."

Alex paused as she looked down at me. "O'shea. Are you sure it was- "?

"I know what I saw Alex. That nigga had his hands all over her hips and she was happy as hell. I mean, I didn't expect her to move on that fast. I guess I wasn't really shit to her for real."

I put the fuzzy pink body pillow over my face to hide the embarrassment again. I could be tripping out again but what I seen confirmed that she was moving or had moved on already. It was no more us. The fact that she moved on quickly lets me know that Keith been around for quite some time now. Here I am, ready to change the bitch last name and she out here thottin off with this dude. Bitches ain't shit."

My thoughts was zooming through my head as I felt Alex hand gently grab the pillow from my face for her to be faced with tears falling down my cheeks. I tried to compress them as hard as I could but they freed themselves. I sat up on the bed and used the palms of my hand to wipe the salty tears away. I ducked my head to avoid eye contact.

"Shea don't cry. You gonna be okay. I hate to see you like this. I want you to relax okay? I'ma go down stairs and make you a plate. I had cooked enough for left overs. A plate of fried chicken and yellow rice and peas with some yams gonna make you feel a little better.", Alex said as she stood up from the bed, making her way to the door.

"No wait." I said as I grabbed her by the waist and spun her around. "I aint hungry Alex. I just want to relax okay. If I get hungry, I'll let you know. Okay?"

"Okay..." she nodded as her voice trailed off.

I got up and walked down stairs to go into Alex's fridge, but I wasn't looking for food. I opened the door and seen a stacked fridge of fresh fruits and vegetables, fruit juices and other condiments. I didn't find what I was looking for so I closed the fridge door and began looking through her cabinets, then pulling out a fifth of henny.

I untwisted the cap and took two huge gulps as I turned the bottle upside down as I placed it to my lips. It burned my throat on the way down but not for long. I took a quick breather and took three more gulps before placing the top back on the bottle, setting the bottle on the counter.

"O'shea. You alright down there?!", Alex called out from upstairs.

"Umm- Yeah I'm good.", I said as I leaned against the counter. I stared into space as the scene of Keith rubbing his hips down E'mani hips replayed in my head. My pride and my heart were hurt, I could admit that and it stung like hell to admit it too.

About 10 minutes passed and I begun to feel the effects of Henny taking over me. I wasn't drunk but I was definitely feeling nice. I stood up straight, gathering myself and made my way up the steps and to Alex's bedroom door. It was slightly cracked and I could see her laying on her stomach, watching the TV that was mounted on her wall.

I knocked before I pushed the door open, causing Alex to turn around and sit up on the bed.

"You good?", she asked as she paused the TV. Issa Rae's Insecure was on the screen and I guess it was the episode where her and Lawrence officially broke up. Her and her friend Molly was sitting on some couch in front of her apartment complex as she was being consoled.

"Yeah, I'm straight.", I said as I sat down on the bed. My eyes became a little heavier as the Henny began to really take its toll on my best judgement.

"Good.", Alex said as she turned back to her TV and pressed play on her remote.

I couldn't help but eye the small of Alex's back. She had two dimple that would drive any man crazy and she just looked sexy as ever. Her legs were shiny and smooth, which I wanted to run my hands over.

"Damn.", I softly said under my breath, causing Alex to turn around and look at me.

"What?"

"What What?" I said as I stared at Alex through my glassy eyes.

"You said something?"

"Nah."

Alex stared at me. "You still thinkin bout E'mani and Keith?" she asked me as she sat up on the bed, resting her back against her silver Diamond headboard.

"Nah, I'm not. I just want to thank you for being here for a nigga no matter what time or day or place. You was always here for me. I never got the chance to express that to you. So, I'm saying it now."

"You aint gotta do that O'shea. That's what friends are for. I don't mind being here for you. Everyone needs somebody to be there for them, right?"

"Yeah. I hear you. But I want to do more than just say how I feel." I scooted closer to Alex, causing her to look rather uncomfortable. Its like the closer I got, the more uncomfortable she became.

"You trust me?", I asked.

"I mean, yeah I trust you. Why you asking me that?"

"Don't ask any more questions. Just trust me okay?"

"uhh... Okay" she said.

I reached over and started gently running my finger tips up her legs to test her nerves. She was a bit tense but she was trying to hold back any reaction. Alex wasn't a stupid girl so I know she was trying to see how far I would go.

I took my hand and moved it up her thigh slowly. I did this a few times until her tenseness was gone from her. "O'shea.", she said as she looked down at my hand.

"You said you trust me. Don't worry Alex. I got you."

Alex pressed her lips together as I moved my hand up to the lower part of her thigh and applying a little pressure. She was completely relaxed. I looked up into Alex eyes as she exhaled. I see her guard was coming down.

I continued to massage her thigh as I leaned in closer to her face for a kiss. Alex began closing her eyes when I got close enough, softly pecking her on the lips. Her lips were soft as I anticipated them to be, causing my manhood to rise instantly. I pecked her lips again repeatedly each time easing my tongue on to hers.

Alex continued to kiss me back as I glided by hand up to her Pandora's box. I took my middle finger and was shocked at how much she was dripping wet. I licked my lips as I used my finger to swirl around in her wetness. Hearing a moan escape her lips was all I needed to perform.

I twirled my finger fast now using my index finger. Her hips matched the rhythm of my speed as she began to breath heavily. I leaned over and began planting small, wet kisses on the nape of her neck as I continue to finger her. after three minutes of that, I pulled my hand from her garden and sucked her wetness off my fingertips.

I stood up from the bed and took off my shirt as she did the same. She had a black push-up bra with a diamond pendant that was from Victoria Secret. I began to unbutton my pants as she took off her pajama shorts, in which she had on matching thong as well.

I was so torn up at this point that I didn't even realize that Alex has made her way over to me, down on her knees and I could feel myself in her mouth. She slurped and bobbed her head up and down on my manhood before sucking the tip. This shit felt amazing and I would have never guessed that Alex was a pro at giving oral, which turned me on even more.

I pulled her up so I wouldn't come too fast when I actually slid up inside of her. she kissed my lips as I reached around her and unhooked her bra. I lowered my head to invite her caramel colored breast into my mouth, slurping on her erect nipples as if It was her clitoris itself. She moaned out in ecstasy as she palmed the back of my head and tilted her head back from the rush of pleasure.

Before I knew it, I was laying on my back on the bed as Alex and I was completely naked. I felt her kiss on my neck as she rubbed her hands across my chest softly. All while this was going on, all I could think about was E'mani, which infuriated me more.

I ended up flipping Alex over onto her back and I was now on top. I closed my eyes as I used one hand to stroke my manhood and the other hand to hold Alex leg up. I tried to block out my thoughts. I was here and I was not turning back.

I slid inside of Alex, causing her to gasp and dig her nails into my back. I shuddered at the feeling of her woman cave. She was so tight, warm and wetter. I knew better than to be raw dogging but its not like me and E'mani have any commitment to one another anymore, especially after what I seen tonight.

The harder I thrusted, Alex moaned loudly as she cussed and yelled my name. I must have been putting it down the way she was moaning in my ear. She was obviously enjoying herself. As for me, I was numb. I didn't know whether I was coming and going at this point.

"Mmm yess O'shea. Yesss" Alex hissed as she looked up into my eyes.

I continued to stroke her as our bodies became sweaty. I felt Alex's walls start to tighten as her body shook violently as her eyes rolled back when she climaxed all over me. I don't know if it was the Henny or my thoughts but I couldn't find myself coming at the moment.

Alex pushed me off her and turned me around so she can straddle me and began riding me reverse cow girl. I grabbed her ponytail and used my other hand to grab her waist tightly. No matter how good this was feeling I knew I wasn't gonna be able to give her my sauce. At least 5 minutes into it, Alex body was shaking violently again.

"SHIIIIIIT!", she cussed loudly as she leaned back on my chest from collapsing.

Her body was motionless as I leaned up, causing her to lay on her stomach. She sprawled out on the bed and breathed as she tried to catch her breath from our sex session. I got up from the bed and went into the bathroom that was in her room. I was still hard as hell so I leaned over the sink to run cold water onto it to make it go back to sleep.

After I shook the excess water off of me, I looked at myself in the mirror. My eyes were low, red and glassy. I didn't even recognize myself at this point. This is when I realized I really fucked up. Sure, I wasn't with E'mani but my heart belonged to her.

My chest started pounding as tears formed in my eyes. It was at this point I realized I got upset and allowed my emotions to do something I completely regret, only to bring Alex into this shit.

I completely just lost all respect from and for myself.