The two months I've been officially with Shawn, I've been thinking nonstop about Hoseok. Wondering what he's been up to, but there was something I was missing. A big chunk of the puzzle. And the worse part, I haven't told Shawn about my father dying.. I've been too hurt with the reality of it. He steps back from me. "Faith.." I look at him. "Yeah?" I ask.

"I said I love you.." He repeats himself. My eyebrows knit. "I know.." I whisper. He tilts his head. "Do you not love me?" He asks. I bite my lip. "I know its hard right now and all with your fathers condition.. But you can't let it come between us." I nod in agreement. Then I look at him weird. "What do you mean my dads condition? I never told you about that." I bite my lip in anger.

"Wh.. Who?" He scratches the back of his neck. "Who!? Who!? Are a fucken owl!?" I tilt my head. "My father you twat!" He bites his lip. "I almost had you Faith. I almost had." He crosses his arms, his tone was different.. It wasn't the Shawn I knew. The caring, sweet and soft toned Shawn. He was sounding a bit like my father. I then think about everything. It made sense.

"You make things a little bit too obvious Shawn. Getting closer to my father two months ago." I shake my head. "You're all too easy to read. I should have seen it earlier." I say. "Oh yeah?" He asks, his expression softens to a face I've never seen before on him. I nod. "So. Let's say.. I'm easy to read.. What else can you read off of me? Huh?" His tone was very different, a bad different. Who was this man who stood in front of me? My eyebrows knit in confusion.

"See.. If you were as smart as you say you are. You would have been able to predict all the things that have already happened. Or at least was aware of them when they were happening right in front of you." He chuckles.

What is he talking about?. "See.. Your father and yourself are much alike.. That's why you two made it easy to manipulate the both of you at the same time, to get my way with everything I did." He smiles crookedly. I'm almost terrified. "You bastard." He let's out a laugh. "Watch your mouth princess. I thought you were much smarter than that. I really did." He shakes his head and bites his thumb.

"So you did know my father was dying." He smiles at my words. "I knew much more and have done much more than you've known." He shrugs. "But hey. It was a good run while it lasted. I really almost had you." He tilted his head as if trying to intimidate me.

"I want to know everything." I demand, standing my ground. He puckers out his bottom lip and fakes a sad expression. "Awe. Faith. I don't know if you'd be able to interpret all of those things." It taken back. "Wait.. What? All those things?" I ask. He chuckles that sound I've grown to hate in the past 6 minutes he's been standing here. "Faith.. I can't tell you. It'll ruin everything for me." I walk up to him and grip his tie, his eyes widen in surprise.

"You fucken tell me right now or I'll beat you so hard you'll see the light flash before your eyes." I lift a fist.

"Fine..." He rolls his eyes like a teenage girl. I step back and lean against the door, not giving him the access to walk out. I wanted to hear everything. "Well.. The easiest I can tell you is that I don't love you." Well.. Shit right off the back, that hurt a little. "You don't love me. You just say it just like that. Two or even a minute ago you got all worked up when I didn't say 'I love you' back." I say. He chuckles.

"What? You thought I actually did? How pathetic. Its much to easy to play with you Faith." I force back tears. "How can I not think that?" I ask. He shrugs. "There was a time where I thought you were attractive.. But I mean. Eh." He shrugs again. I bite my lip. "Go on." I order. He points to Oliver who lays on his little fluffy bed. "I'm not allergic to dogs. I just hate them so much." My jaw drops.

"And the whole reason as of why I met you." I brace myself. "I wanted to woe you so that I can take over Lean company." He smirks. I frown. "Wow Shawn. Just wow. You're a jerk.", "But its all your fault actually. If you would have stayed quiet and went along with everything for maybe a month longer until your father died.. I wouldn't have had to tell you.. I wouldn't have had to give up everything I worked hard for." I want to spit at his stupid words.

"How is that my fault!? You're a liar!" He shrugs. "You just ruined everything." I bite my tongue. "And what does that have to do with me at all?" I ask as he peers down at me. "Well. Faith. I just feel that you don't deserve me. You take too much for granted. " I almost laugh out loud. "Really!!? Really!? Me!? Take things for granted!? If anything its you who has taken things for granted! Using me to get to my dad and trying to get a position that was meant for me!"

I'm so close to slapping him in the face. He looks down as his shoes and dusts them off. "Yeah. Maybe you're right. But at least I get what I want." He pauses and looks at me. "Unlike you Faith. Funny how your name is Faith but really. You have none at all. You're just a pathetic woman whose obsessed with the idea of love." He stands up straight and fixes his tie. "But sadly. You weren't built to deserve love."

His words make me sick. "You're such a sad excuse for a man. And it makes me laugh to think that you actually thought you can take control of my fathers company." I spit. He shrugs. "At least I tried right?" He smirks. I stare at him for a while, remembering the ugliness that has become of him. Or what was actually made up of him. "I hope that you never find love. Karma will bite you in the ass." I open the door.

"Get the hell out of my house." He doesn't hesitate.

**

I knock at the door. He opens it right away. "Faith. What brings you here?" He asks. I smile. "Hi Jeong. I'm here to see my father." I say. After two months of being indecisive, and hearing what Shawn's plan was, I needed to come see him. He nods and steps aside letting me in. "He's at the hospital.. I thought you knew. He's been there for the past month." I stare at him completely surprised, but at the same time I'm relieved.

"What?" I ask. He nods. "I'll drive you quickly." I bow to him, "Thank you Jeong." We head to the car and we head to the hospital. The whole ride I think about everything..This was too much for me to handle.

I finally make it to the hospital, he opens the door for me and I hug him and head inside. I run up to the front desk. "Hello. How may I help you?" The nurse at the front desk asks. "I'm here to see my father." She turns to the computer that layed to her left. "Name?" She asks. "Lean Heon." I say. She points down the hall. "Room 302, you're going to go up the elevator and make a right." She says. "Thank you." I jog over to the elevator and I head up to his room.

I become a little nervous. I stop at the closed door, 302. I finally open the door. "Faith.. I'm guessing you know.." He says as he leans back in bed with a glass in his hand. I can't wipe the mad expression off my face. "I know you're mad.." ,"How could you dad? How could you think that it was okay to not tell me!?" My tears spill down my cheeks. "Out of all the things. You're dying and you bribe some jerk to keep the secret..." I shake my head and rub my temples, practically trembling.

"Why dad? Simply why would you put your company on the line?" He doesn't answer me.

I stomp my foot against the tiled floor. "Why dad!?" I scream. He doesn't flinch.. He wasn't the type to flinch. "I just .. I wasn't thinking.." He sips his drink. I walk over to him quickly and grab his drink. "You're hooked up to wires and on chemo. AND YOURE DRINKING!?" I toss the glass against the wall. Shards flying everywhere. "Faith." He calls me. I turn and look at him. "That was water." I slap my forehead. "Shit.." I let out a breath.

"Who the hell gives patients glass cups?" I ask myself. He cuts off my curiosity. "I just want you to know that I love you.." I'm crying.. Its hard not to. "The cancer.. They're unsure what to do .. They just wanted to try the chemo to see if it will work..." My heart pounds in my chest. "So what now?" I ask. He sits up and grabs my hands. "Stay with me.." He pleads. I sit next to him on the bed. "I've been such a horrible father." He lays back, unable to even look at me.

His Adams apple rises and falls as he swallows his saliva, trying not to cry. "I'm so sorry that I didn't cherish you like I should have... Or how a father is supposed to love his daughter. And that I did horrible things, including not telling you.." I see his eyes water. "I guess.. It took me getting horribly sick to realize that I had an amazing person in my life." My breaths become hiccups. "Don't talk to me like you'll never see me again." I fight back my sobs.

He shrugs. He's not even able to look at me. "Just in case.." He says. I notice tears falling back towards his ears. It breaks me to see him this way.

"Don't say that dad.. Y-you'll get through it." I grip his hand. He shakes his head. "No.. I won't. This is God's way of telling me that I'm getting what I deserve.. That I've done others bad.. So now bad is being done upon me." He bites his lip. I barely notice that his beard is gone. "No.." Is all I'm able to say. He finally looks at me. "Faith.. Look at me. I'm bound to die here.. I'm bound to end up where fire never ends. Where my soul is supposed to be."

I knew what he was saying. "Maybe you can change it." I say. His eyebrows knit. "How?" He asks. "Make everything right with people you've hurt." I say. He nods. "So.. Before you go off and find people I've hurt.. Can you just.. Lay with me?" He asks. My heart begins to hurt. I nod.

I slowly lay next to him and he pulls me close. Right away I break down to the sound of his heart against my ear. His arm pulls me close to him. He makes little, 'shh shh shh.' Sounds with his mouth. His hand running up and down my back. "It's okay to cry Faith.." He says before pressing his lips against my head, using his other hand to pet my hair. I wrap my arm around his beer belly. His breath doubling every once in a while.

And for the first time in a extremely long time, actually.. The first time officially .. We're acting the way a father and daughter should act. I can't help but start to think of Hoseok. My love life with Shawn was all a scam. My real love was with Hoseok.. But there were other things that were more important to me. Like my father, and my mother. I feel myself drift off into a deep sleep. I hear my father's heart become peaceful.

And I know he's fallen asleep.