I hate that he can make me feel this way from just looking at me. I hate it. He peers into my eyes, sending chills up and down my spine. And it doesn't help that he's going through all these problems, that makes my heart hurt for him. "I'll buy you anything." I say looking at the menu. "I don't really feel hungry." He says, pushing the menu that's in front of him away. "Hoseok. She's going to be fine." I tell him. He stares into my eyes. "Faith. She's all I have left." He says.

I look back into his eyes that showed nothing but pain and an unbelievable amount of sorrow. "Hoseok.. I know you're really hurting.." He breaks eye contact with me and looks down at the menu. His fingers running along the plastic cover of it, following the knitted edges. How can I do this now? While he's hurting. "But I have something to confess to you.." I spit out. He finally looks up at me. "What is it?" He asks. "I'm not who you think I am." I tell him.

His eyebrows knit. "What?.. What are you talking about?" He asks shaking his head a bit, sounding completely confused. "Is your name not Faith and you've been lying about who you are?" He asks sitting up straight in his seat. I shake my head. "No! My name is Faith.. And I did tell you the truth about who I am.. Just not.." I stop short, not really able to find the correct words to use. "Faith.. You're scaring me.." He says inching back in his seat. "Hoseok.." I feel my eyes water..

I know once he finds out who my father is, he'll never want to talk to me again. "Hoseok.. My father.. Is Heon." I tell him, my tears falling down my face.

His expression changes completely. "What?" He asks, his tone sounding like anger is ready to pour out of him. "My dad is the owner of Lean Industry." I say, my sobs coming not long after. "And that wasn't important to tell me? Huh!? When we met!? I thought we were friends!" His voice highers making me jump in my seat, almost getting everyone's attention in the restaurant. "Hoseok. I was planning on telling you." I cry.

He smacks his hand on the table and he leans in forward. "What? Did you not care about what your father did to me? Huh?" He asks, his teeth clinched together. I feel my body shaking with fear. "Ho-Hoseok.. Believe me.. I.." He throws up a hand. "Faith. You better have a good explanation for this. Because if you don't..","I do. Believe me I do." I say. He puts his hand down and nods. I bite my bottom lip.

"When I started talking .. About myself. And I told you about my work.. And you told me about what my dad did to you.." I pause, and his expression changes. "I didn't want to lose you Hoseok.. Because I.." My tears fall out of my eyes. "Because I like you.. a lot.." I confess. His expression doesn't change, he just stares at me. "Hoseok.." I peep. He stands up and looks away from me. "Good bye Faith." He says. And begins to walk away from me.

I stand up quickly."No! Hoseok! I can't lose you! Hoseok!" I follow him out of the restaurant.

He continues to walk down the sidewalk. I grab onto his arm and he turns towards me. "That's a pretty pathetic lie Faith. Playing with a man's feelings.." He says, looking into my eyes harshly. "Ho-Hoseok.. I.." He throws up a hand. "Enough. I don't want to hear a word." He says through clinched teeth. "But.. Ho-" ,"I said no Faith! I can't believe you can tell me you like me. How dare you!?" He yells at me. My grip tightens on his coat.

"I do! I do like you! Why don't you listen to me!?" I scream back a him, my throat burning from all the emotion swelled up in my throat. He pulls his arm away from me. "How can I believe you if you chose Shawn over me? Huh?" His voice lowered and it sounded more broken and angry. His gaze became less suffocating, but I can see the pain in his eyes. "I had no choice.." I say. His eyebrows knit. "You had no choice!?" He yells.

"I had no choice because I saw you kiss her back!" I yell with tears pouring out of my eyes. His face drops. "What?" He asks, his voice lowering again. I look up at the light blue sky and wipe my tears, then look back down at him. "I was coming back from my date.." I tell him, my voice shaking.

"I chose you Hoseok .. I chose you... But you chose her." I tell him. He shakes his head. "No.. I..", "If you want me out of your life. Fine. But at least I know the truth.. At least I know I tried to tell you the truth." I say turning around.

I walk... For a long time, I walk down the sidewalk back to my house. Never looking back, or asking myself questions on why I'm walking away, or trying to convince myself to turn back. And the sad part is, he didn't come after me..like he had accepted the fact that he didn't want me in his life. And I think that hurt me the most. And I can feel myself turn into that broken person, once again.

**

Hoseok's pov

"If you want me out of your life. Fine. But at least I know the truth.. At least I know I tried to tell you the truth." She said as she turns around and started to walk away. There was something that told me to follow her, and pull her into my arms, to never let her go, to kiss her and call her mine. To tell her that everything was okay, that I forgave her, and that I couldn't live without her.

But there was another part of me that was telling me to let her go, and that part of me was more powerful for some reason. Why I listened to that part of me? I have no idea. I'm just in an extremely vulnerable state right now. My dog has cancer, she might not make it. And the person I thought was the most perfect being for me, lied to me from the start.

I watch her from a far. As she stampers back to her house, she doesn't look back. "I chose you Hoseok .. I chose you... But you chose her." Echoes in my head. Am I a fool? Possibly yes. "I had no choice because I saw you kiss her back!" Pierces my ears. I lean against the wall of the restaurant I was just in, with her. All her words going into my brain, replaying. As if trying to tell me something, as if trying to get me to run after her. Which I wasn't willing to do.

For some reason, I wasn't willing to have her near me. The fear of getting hurt, lingered. Filling me with complete denial and unwillingness to forgive.

**

As I walk through town, I find myself at her house without even knowing. I turn and look at her door. The urge to knock on the door came over me. I walk up to the door, and knock my knuckle against it. I hear voices, multiple. Then foot steps coming towards the door. I feel my heart pounding in my ears, my breath hitching. The door finally opens, but it's not Faith... But Shawn.

He peers down at me, his eyes burning into my soul. "Shawn. Who is it?" I hear her voice from inside. "Oh its no one." He says. He leans in his head. "Don't you think you've hurt her enough? Just leave her be." He says before closing the door in my face. I clinch my jaw, I knew coming here was a bad idea. To want to fix things. But she had already replaced me. And I don't really know what to do now...

**

Faith's POV

I lay on my couch for a while, feeling completely broken. Why must things like this happen to me? Do I deserve this or something? Through my thought process I hear a knock at my door. I sit up quickly, could it be him? Could he be here to fix things with me? I walk over to open the door. With my hand on the knob I hold my breath. You can do this Faith. You've got this. I swing open the door. "Faith." He says in a sweet tone.

I force a grin, "Shawn.. What are you doing here?" I ask. I see him bite his lip. "I just.. I wanted your company.. Because I like you.." He says as he steps closer to me. "If you don't want me here I'll leave. I did come uninvited anyways." He says as he inches closer to my face. His eyes examined my puffy ones. "You've been crying.. Why? What happened?" He asks. And I get this weird urge to hug him close and cry on his shoulder.

But without hesitation he pulls me into a hug and I break down again in his arms.

He pets my hair as I cry against his chest. "Its okay Faith. Its okay.." He says continually in a soothing whisper. I'm taken by surprise when he picks me up and carries me into my house.

**

"I'm so sorry that happened to you Faith.." He says as he stares into my eyes. They showed true sympathy, and for some reason I felt like it was okay. That I was going to be okay. "No.. Don't feel sorry. I guess maybe its what I deserve for being a liar." I say. He shakes his head. "No. No. No. That's his loss Faith.. He's the one that didn't hear you out, okay?" He says.

I nod my head slightly, not really believing that I was answering with honesty. Dishonesty is what got me here, and I'm lying again. "Shawn.. I-" I'm cut off by a knock at the door. I'm about to stand up when Shawn stops me. "I got it." He says, and for some reason I let him answer my door for me.

**

"Shawn. Who is it?" I call out to him from the living room. "Oh its no one." He says. It takes him a while before he comes back. He smiles at me, "We should go out. Just you and me." He says. I look down at my lap. "Shawn.. I-I don't know. I don't really feel like going out today." I say. He joins me on the couch once again. "Faith.. I'm here for you.. You know that right?" He asks lifting my chin with his thumb. "If you want me to go.. I'll go." He says.

He's about to get up but I pull on his arm. I'm in a vulnerable state right now, and I'm not willing to be alone. "No.. I.. I want you to stay with me." I say. He stares at me for a while then sits down once again. "What should.." I cut him off as I press my lips against his. I honestly don't know why I'm doing this. He hesitates a bit, but not long after he kisses me back. Was I thinking of Hoseok as I kissed Shawn? Yes. I don't know what I'm doing honestly.. My mind is everywhere.

Just a huge mess.

I deepen the kiss trying to find something, and he deepens it more too. I run my hands from his chest to around his neck, pulling him closer to me. He breaks the kiss, his eyes looking at me with wonder. "Wha-" I put my finger on his lips. "Shawn.." Is all I can say. He just stares into my eyes seeing that I had no words to explain why I kissed him. He then just pulls me into his arms, pushing all the pieces back into their place.

Making me feel whole again, its crazy how I didn't realize that maybe.. Just maybe. Shawn was the answer all along.