IWillTakeMyLifeAway

Who hasn't had the feeling like they were being excluded and just not there? A background character. Like they were being ignored. But, people still talked to you and gave you dirty looks and stuff (my teachers and the students once upon a time). But somehow, what you did still changed everything. Like you couldn't do anything because it would have such a huge impact but at the same time, it was like you could do anything because you weren't there. Raise thy hand if you have not felt like that at all.

When you do feel like that, is there a reason? When you feel like that, you start to feel alone, don't you? And you start becoming more aware of yourself and the ability you have. What you can do as a person. That's your brain telling you to wake up. It's telling you to stop thinking or saying that you're nothing. It's telling you that what you do matters. That every little action has a reaction. That even when you feel invisible and like you're supposed to be gone, something will happen. Because that's how big of an impact you have on things and other people's lives.

Have you ever wanted to just leave? And you thought everything would be better if you weren't there? Yeah, it happens to all of us. Those thoughts are able to cross everyone's minds. But that's not true. Whatever you do now, whatever you say right now will have an effect on something. You might think that no one gives a shit about you. You might think that no one will give a flying fuck if you leave and nothing will change but THAT IS NOT TRUE.

Everything can change if you go. You might not know this, but there are actually people out there who care. Like me. And your parents. Family. Friends. Other acquaintances. Anyone you've met.

You might have really harsh parents that treat you like crap but - and I hate to say this, still trying to believe it myself - they love you in their own way. Whether they show it or not, they love you. And if you put that noose around your neck, it won't make them feel any better about themselves. They'll miss you and mourn you and regret almost everything and probably end up doing the same thing. Suicide can trigger suicide. So DON'T DO IT.

If you're ok with someone you love taking a knife to the throat, I hope you don't have a guilty conscious. We have to continue with life's crap no matter how hard it is. We just need to live our best lives and if we can't, suicide is never the answer. We just need to try. Never give up and never lose hope. If you can't think like that, think about what others would feel if you left.

They wouldn't rejoice at your grave. You have to be really sick to do that. I know for a fact that I'd fly all the way over to wherever your funeral is being held and cry and never stop. I'll keep all your things and leave your room as it is and preserve your house and just smell your pillow every minute like the creep I am. I don't need to know who the hell you are, I WILL MISS YOU!!! And it won't be just me doing that, there are others who would do the same thing. I'll go to your grave everyday and start talking about how amazing you are cause I'll fucking miss you! So don't leave.

Your actions have reactions and more often than not, those reactions are not what you would expect. I hope this helped you with thinking of your next move. Don't forget to vote and comment. I love you💛❤💕💖💜

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
- Isaac Newton