Dear Aunty,

Hows you ? I know you are happy up there finally all your pain and sufferings are over.

But, I miss you. Things are not same.

You know for so long they didn't tell me your death news. I kept on asking them that," Why there are so many people outside your house ? What news Uncle came to give ?" But Ma didn't tell me anything. It was Big B that told me the news because he had no idea that the news has to be a secret from me because they know how close I am to you and I wouldn't take the news nicely.

I know I didn't come to see you last time but I told ma I won't be able to because I don't want to remember you wrapped in a white cloth.  Everyone said we shouldn't be sad but happy because your pain is over. Me and Ma knew that you wanted the death but at least you were here with us, I could talk to you, smile at you. But, now you are not here.

There was a point where I used to blame uncle in my heart that if haven't taken you for kidney transplant you would have been here but today, I know no one can blame anyone.

No one was able to meet you before you went to hospital, neither your daughter nor ma and not even me. You remember I just called you one night before and you sounded so happy. You said that you were on your way to home and you are good but I still I was worried.

You know Ma doesn't say this but ma miss her best friend, you guys used to meet everyday, she never cried in front of us but I can see unshed tears in her eyes, I never cried in front of her but she used to always look in my eyes.

You remember,in my childhood I used to spend so much time with you. I ran to your house whenever I found my house door open and Ma used to search for me and then you have to call and inform her. No one can make daant wale ladoo like you, dadi still give me those but I loved your hand made ones. You used to always get me extra those on festivals. You know when I used to spend time with you, taking care of you, you used to always says, " bachpaan mein tm mjhe pareshan karti thi and ab mai tmhein." And I reply," Toh le lo aap apna badla.". But I miss taking care of you.

You know I am angry at you. You left me at the moment when I was an emotional mess and broken and also had my semester  near. At day I used to study and  at night, cry to sleep because so much was going in my life. You know aunty, saumya took a good care of me that time, I owe that to her.

You were not just a neighbour to me, you were like a mother. After few days of your death,I saw you in my dreams,you were happy and was giving  peaceful vibes, Ma said it was good sign that wherever you are, you are happy. I am trying to take care of Ma, she really miss you.