Today has been an interesting day. I spent the morning relaxing and just spending time with myself, just enjoying the peace, resting my mind in anticipation for the working week. It was what I needed.

I somehow made a new writing friend who gave me notes on one of my stories. The notes were small things that I missed and of course my perfectionist brain was like damn it! How did I miss that? But it was really, really lovely having an unbiased opinion on my work. I'm very humble and I find it really hard to accept any praise at all. It was a lovely surprise to read how passionately she  was going through my work and giving me notes. It was absolutely lovely. I wish that I could tell her how much I really appreciated it without sounding like a complete wierdo.

The other super fun thing that happened today was a whole bunch of messages from my ex girlfriend's ex husband. I still say ex husband even though they're still together, because they really shouldn't be. Ten messages all in a row. And it was the same thing all over again. Please leave us alone, why are you still talking to her, we are working things out, I'm over it and my marriage is over. Also don't forget the old chestnut of I have proof but I can't forward it to you, but I'll show you. Really? You could never show me the proof before. Although I was just meant to believe you on face value, because of course, you know everything. I forgot that you are god.

Good. Maybe you should leave. Would probably be better off for everyone around you. Just leave and maybe go back to your other woman and the illegitimate child that you had with her. Eh, you truly are a disgusting excuse for a human.

The funny thing about this whole situation is that this has been going on for nearly a year now. And its the same thing over and over again. Even though they were separated while I was with my ex, he was still doing the same shit. At the start he didn't, but that was only because he had a few skanks to play with and keep his attention elsewhere. But once they tired of his bullshit, they left him and he turned his attention back to me. He never liked me because I'd never cower when he spoke to me. I never fed into his lies and always asked for the proof that he claimed to have. Funnily enough he always baulked at showing me this said proof, only claiming that I should believe him.

I still don't understand how my ex is still in that house. Its an awful toxic situation that could turn the any sane person to insanity.

To be honest, part of me can understand staying in an unhappy relationship. My last long term relationship was toxic towards the end. It was in a place where I was staying because I'd felt guilty and then it was just easier than leaving. Better to stay with what you know than to venture out and find god knows what. It was still hard to leave but it was good when I finally did.

This whole situation today made me thankful that I have such a wonderful healthy relationship now and don't have to deal with crazy people until they of course they message me and involve me in things that don't really have anything to do with me. But that's ok, if you need a scapegoat, I'll happily play along because you're obviously quite mentally ill and won't believe anything I say to you regardless.

So instead of focusing on the negative things that happened today, I'm going to focus on the good and be thankful that a lovely person that took the time to edit my work today.

Would love to hear from you cats and kittens in the comments about how you're dealing with your own struggles. You're not alone, even if you're feeling that way.
X