I skipped a day because I just couldn't. I didn't want to delve deep into how I was feeling. I was feeling pretty dark. Still am feeling pretty dark. Didn't sleep terribly well, so many thoughts just running around in my head. 

More messages from that insufferable dick today. Another 12 to add to the 26 from the day before and 24 the day before that. He got worse. I think he's trying to twist the knife and hurt me. It's not working. I spoke to a friend and he just said that he was trying to be the top dog, hurt that his ex wife was dating a woman after him. Couldn't handle that she didn't want dick any more. Sad little man, well, especially small from what I heard. (tee hee) There was only one big dog here and he sure as hell wasn't it. The curious thing was that it seemed that he wanted to end all the messaging, but on his terms of course. I didn't let him. I ended the messaging. On my terms. Cut him off at the balls so to speak. The funny thing about all of this is that his messages to me make him look deranged, I don't think that he has much of a leg to stand on if push comes to shove.

Granted I don't want to delve deep tonight either. I feel that I want to keep everything on quite the superficial level. All I can say is that I'm really looking forward to the weekend. I really want some alone time. Quite desperately. And sleep. So tired.

Would love to hear from you cats and kittens in the comments about how you're dealing with your own struggles. You're not alone, even if you're feeling that way.

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